I went on a date last thursday with a new boy *J*. He's extremely sweet, loves kids, its all for commitment, seems to be the type that would respect me , my life AND my space so what is the problem?
I'm actually trying to find faults in him. What the hell is wrong with me?????????
I think i have become one of those chicks from sex in the city that has become jaded about a good relationship that even when i meet a boy who seems to be decent and respectful of me i am trying to find things that are wrong with him!
and i have.... (after one date and two phone calls)
He's talking already about the fact that he wants to get married one day and have kids. (he used to work in childcare even and has done some primary school education)
I argued the point that *I* myself am against marrige and think it's just one of the steps society makes you feel you have to take to be part o it. That you don't need to be legally or religiously bound to someone to show your love and commitment to them and its a TRAP! (probaly due to my parents having an extremely emotionally abusive marrige)
I said that i do not want any more kids EVER because my son is nearly 10 already and i had him really young. That i have a degree to finish, a work force to enter and the world to travel and he's 8 years off being an adult.
He said "you'll change your mind later"
This boy is already talking to me that he sees me as a potential wife and mother of his children and it's freaking me out!
I also think that he's just too sweet. "there must be something wrong with him" I'm saying to myself.
oh there is another thing.... he tells me he's not really into sex. It's not a priority to him because he's had minimum experience and they have all been bad. He would rather snuggle on the couch, hold hands and all that shit (shit that i really want actually)
BUT...
I want a boy who really wants to have alot of sex too

(just not be the ONLY thing he's with me for)
What the hell is going on with me (and him?) thoughts?
I think he must be gay and just wants kids or something... i dunno... it's just all a little too weird
