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Bluelight Singles thread "Living without justification" Part 2

I know for a fact that good friends are the basis for everything- be it being single or in a relationship.

They bring - stability - Love - support - compassion and never expect anything back for it.

<3
 
I had a chat with BREAKaBEAT this afternoon [who I haven't spoken to in a long time due to a stupid fight] and he had met up with her yesterday for a beer. She told me the things he said and it really opened my eyes to who he really was. I'm no longer sad. The things he said about me to other people... how could I have been so blind?

I can't believe I took him back every fucking time. Fuck him for making me feel like I am worth less than the dirt between his toes. Fuck him for playing me for the fool that I am. Fuck him for taking every ounce of dignity I had left. Fuck him for making me think that was all I deserved.

I'm so glad I saw BREAKa. I'm glad I'm angry. He is making it so easy for me to hate him. I regret every fucking tear I ever shed for him. I regret everything.

Thanks to everyone I've spoken to today and sorry for my endless whinging and making you watch him destroy me and then watch me go back to him.

I'm such a fool. I'm such a fucking dickhead.

I need a beer.

I am so fucking sick of crying.

edit: On a brighter note, I have his three favourite CDs all of which I like very much. So yeah, thanks for that L, I'll enjoy them immensely.
 
Yarni, you dont deserve too be treated like that/this, I really hope your feeling better soon gorgeous, when you do lets go out and so stupid stuff ..

misss you xxx
 
"Lost" is the key word hun.

people will do and say all kinds of shit when they're in this state. just dont take it personally (which i know is damn hard to do), seriously.
 
We dont need this shit Yarns!! We are so much better than the immature childish scum that fucked us over. We are gonna look hot this weekend and have an awesome time and dance like crazy and then meet real actual men who will respect us for the intelligent women we are!!

much <3
 
yarnsta <3

Sounds like you're being looked after by people who love you. I don't need to say anything, its all been said. I'm thinking of you.

tom
 
beware

Look out Men of Sydney...
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...these girls are on the prowl.
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Originally posted by 'lil leecie
We dont need this shit Yarns!! We are so much better than the immature childish scum that fucked us over. We are gonna look hot this weekend and have an awesome time and dance like crazy and then meet real actual men who will respect us for the intelligent women we are!!

much <3


I <3 you leecie! Parklife + us + men = trouble!

Shnouzer is right. Any man in Sydney this weekend should be on red alert. ;) Oh I kid. I just want to dance and laugh and forget everything that makes someone less than they are.

Horsey: You do know. I have the most amazing friends... I have more than most people could ask. You need to come up here though. :p

It's funny... even after everything that's happened he asked me to come over tonight and for the first time in our whole relationship I actually said no. I never thought I could say no to him but obviously... well.... obviously things never turn out the way we expect.

Anyway, this is the last self indulgent rant I will force into this thread. It's Tuesday, the day after, and things are always different.
 
yeah, dont worry about him yarn. He has an issue about is deformed testicles and he is taking it out on you.

But on a serious note; he's a dick and your not. Your an awesome person and deserve much better. Enjoy yourself and take your brother out more so that you can have a good laugh ... cause that bro of yours is a legend ...

Smoke like its legal, dance like no-one is looking, drink like your liver can take anything, and most importantly, remember no matter what happens your still a fucking legend to me.

Chin up sis, ya bitch. i don't want to have to tell you my humiliating stories to get a laugh.

On that note; today for the first time in my life, i got told by a girl that i was the to ugly to go out with the girl i was with (my ex) so we must be friends. .... I love my life .... it was quite satisfying to know they were wrong ... not about the ugly ... but about the "friends" thing .... ahhh .... .... .... I need a hug :(
 
^ I know you're my bro and all but darling it's 'you're' not 'your'. ;) And ya, that brother of mine is a legend...

And you always tell me your humilitating stories... it doesn't matter whether they get a laugh or not! <3

Either way, any girl that fucks you around should be sent in my direction cos I'm like.... heaps tuff and stuff. ;)
 
I could give you tears and break ups but it would merely be a front to satisfy you.

i have developed very warped views on love and relationships of late and after a detailed discussion of them with a friend recently i will be expressing these in my journal sometime soon. suffice to say im a bit jaded but also a tad more realistic
 
The past few people I've dated recently have age wise been quite young ranging from 18 to 20 and back to 18 again.

I think I actually remember doing school exams in the year some of these people were born and there's probably something profoundly wrong with that!

What's the biggest age gap have you guys faced when going out with someone and do you think there was a different or unique kind of chemistry (good or bad) to the relationship because of it?
 
I'm never going out with a younger guy again. They would have to be very very special for me to even consider it. As mature as my ex was he didnt have the sort of experience required to handle a relationship. As he later said to good friend of mine he just didnt wanna try anymore which indicates a lack of understand of what needs to go into a relationship. I want someone who has probably alreayd moved past that teenage phase and the trashbag thing and is slightly more mature.
 
yarni.. chiki sad to hear of what has happend.. shit I had no idea that this was going on with you..

I dont know you personally but I know that your a fucking rad chik and your poor lil broken heart will heal and move on.... I know what your feelig!! *huge hugz and kisses*
 
lol, i'm still too young to ever think that any of these age gaps are real. i'm twenty, so i've never really run into any of these dramas.

still, i just don't think it's *that* important. if someone is mature enough for you to date them, then go for your life - age really is just a number.

that said, i'm not naive enough to think that appearances don't sometimes deceive us. whilst some people might originally give the impression of being mature beyond their years, it isn't always true, and then, of course, you may run into problems.
 
I never considered age a barrier but I've come to realise that while *age* isn't a barrier the desired experience that inevitably comes with age is what we're actually seeking. I could never date someone like my ex again. His insight was biting and powerful but his real life knowledge was lacking. From now on I need something real... theoretical observations are vague and ineffectual.

Stop drinking me. Yes.
 
I was seeing a woman who was 30 when I was 21 for a while.

It was meant to be casual and friendly and we really got along well.

Cracks started appearing however and I saw that she really was an emotional trainwreck waiting to happen.

Someone who claims she only wants something casual who then calls me and SMS's me every single day... set off alarm bells.

We are still friends however and chat a lot still (she is linked to my place of employment) but I have politely declined any of her offers for hanging out since.


Back on the topic of Singledom... I am rapidly approaching my 4th date with a very pretty redhead who I get along famously with.
We enjoy each others company and she is always really positive and enthusiastic when we meet up but it is the craziest thing...

... I cannot contact her directly.

Yeah.

She is fairly deep into the media world of modelling and acting and does have a horrendous schedule to keep... so if I want to see her I send a TXT msg and I might get a reply back in 1 to 2 days.


If she wasnt so keen and positive in these SMS's I would simply call "bullshit" and walk.
But when I do see her we are awesome together.

On dates she silents her phone because it runs white-hot with calls/msgs re casting, shows and other work...

so at least I know it isnt personal.

I just dont know if I can handle this lack of direct contact long-term at all.

Anyhow.... as per my usual fare I have let myself get carried away and made up a cheesy graphic...
I tend to have a good knack for things like that... writing someone poetry and making art and things inspired by them, yet I never ever seem to give it to them...


I am left with a computer folder full of unread poetry, songs, graphics and drawings dedicated to people who don't even know it exists.

You guys like?
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If I am still seeing her at Xmas it will be given to her framed... but for all I know it could all end in a week.
 
What stops you from showing these women the things that inspire you to create things for them?

If it's rejection I'll kick your ass [on an internet level].
 
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