*asks for another keg...sits in corner and hugs mad monkey tightly as not to let go...writes out a DAMAGED GOODS sign for myself...*
its been bout 6weeks and a bit for me and i really cant be bothered with anything for a while now. after over an 8 months relationship, doing everything together to now being alone and having friends leave you because the guy you introduced them too is apparently now their best friend and you get burnt.
*once again*
its not that i dont want anything right now *i cant predict what will happen* but its amazing how you think you are totally over this person and then little things just remind you of the person.ive let go of everything and moved on...*stabs doll with pins*
have prospects for future relationships...but you know when you get to that fork in the road...and you dont know where to go?
ive lost a shit load of friends who ive know for ages...because of the x-factor...but im still standing at the fork in the road...deciding which way to go.
this last break up has been especially difficult for me to handel.ive suffered severe depression, loneliness, suicide and had uncontrollable emotional rollercoasters.the thing that is the hardest is copeing with the fact that the people i called my friends are now his best friends and i dont even exsist...even in their lives...
so much for friendship
*sighs*...places DAMAGED GOODS sign back up...
i would like to give a personal thank you to two people who are bluelighters...but in peson these two are also my best of friends...they stood by me through all of it and if it wasnt for them i wouldnt be here right now...
TARSARLAN and LIL LEECIE you two are truely the best of friends
i do have an out look i say to myself to keep going and thats 'time heals all wounds'...
i believe that...am also looking foward to the new years because i will be spending it with my good friends in melbourne and i believe the new year will bring with it a fresh beginning and start...
[ 21 December 2002: Message edited by: *starfalls69* ]