The majority of us know the difference between being dead tired and the nod.
I'm back into my fitness regim which is demanding starting with a 4.30am light jog ,this I do just on stim -rit and tramadol ,cimetidine and a beta agonist called clenbutrol [used for aided slighlt fat loss [stim effects but very unpleasant buzz but you don't notice whilst working out] also.
Being a a beta agonist and seeing as I m prescribed BP med i.e beta blockers I'll pop that if I feel too edgy as its not a 'edge' benzos really help alot with.
I'm trying to cut down [everything] so I got back took my 15mg mirtazapine [anti-d] 2mg klono -a drop to 0.5mg xanax from my usual 2mg.....
I start to prep the day chilling out then after eating I realise I'm seriously not-type sleepy -slight not-unplesant audio halluciations that accompanies my nods.
I resolve to take 50mg tramadol and 5mg of ritalin , a 1/4 of my usual hit ........then I'm start to nod pretty bad and everything i taking forever. I take the other 5mg rit ......and I do wait but in the it take another tram and 1more rit.
Could it be because I hit it abit to hard yesterday and didn't exercise etc.
My ideal state is chilled and to make life easy but I use tramadol and mostly rit to get myself motivated + giving up tramadol would be shit right now so I have to balance my upper/downer ratios.
If I'm just blissfully nodding benzo, tramadol ,hydroxline ,cimetidine its great but truth is between my hectic job and training which I HAVE! to do if I have any hope of getting off everything ,I need focus an drive- enter ritalin and tramadol.
Those old skool pharma pills that mixed barbs and amphet must of been fukin great.
I'm trying to preload 4 syringes with 3 different compounds [steroid ,not opiates] and its taken me 2 fukin hours...
Really need my routine to slip back in even for four weeks then it will cement itself and my use will go way down [not stop probalby but way down].
I picked up one of my scripts friday and so far it killed my training friday [I got fukdup]
Yesterday I had all day-weekend-off work ,excellent.......nope got fuckedup.
Now I'm looking at the door and big bad outside and thinking of the mental focus needed to train as O do ,I've jogged at 4.30 a.m..... today I have to hit the gym twice ,do all my washing and cooking....
Then I'm looking at my bed at my stash.......I still feel half out of it writing this at 9am.
Sorry i'm half thinking out loud but most of you understand.
I should probably shower ,I doubt I've bothered since thursday.
Thank fuck I didn't get the morphine......or any 'real opiate as you guys say.
I'm back into my fitness regim which is demanding starting with a 4.30am light jog ,this I do just on stim -rit and tramadol ,cimetidine and a beta agonist called clenbutrol [used for aided slighlt fat loss [stim effects but very unpleasant buzz but you don't notice whilst working out] also.
Being a a beta agonist and seeing as I m prescribed BP med i.e beta blockers I'll pop that if I feel too edgy as its not a 'edge' benzos really help alot with.
I'm trying to cut down [everything] so I got back took my 15mg mirtazapine [anti-d] 2mg klono -a drop to 0.5mg xanax from my usual 2mg.....
I start to prep the day chilling out then after eating I realise I'm seriously not-type sleepy -slight not-unplesant audio halluciations that accompanies my nods.
I resolve to take 50mg tramadol and 5mg of ritalin , a 1/4 of my usual hit ........then I'm start to nod pretty bad and everything i taking forever. I take the other 5mg rit ......and I do wait but in the it take another tram and 1more rit.
Could it be because I hit it abit to hard yesterday and didn't exercise etc.
My ideal state is chilled and to make life easy but I use tramadol and mostly rit to get myself motivated + giving up tramadol would be shit right now so I have to balance my upper/downer ratios.
If I'm just blissfully nodding benzo, tramadol ,hydroxline ,cimetidine its great but truth is between my hectic job and training which I HAVE! to do if I have any hope of getting off everything ,I need focus an drive- enter ritalin and tramadol.
Those old skool pharma pills that mixed barbs and amphet must of been fukin great.
I'm trying to preload 4 syringes with 3 different compounds [steroid ,not opiates] and its taken me 2 fukin hours...
Really need my routine to slip back in even for four weeks then it will cement itself and my use will go way down [not stop probalby but way down].
I picked up one of my scripts friday and so far it killed my training friday [I got fukdup]
Yesterday I had all day-weekend-off work ,excellent.......nope got fuckedup.
Now I'm looking at the door and big bad outside and thinking of the mental focus needed to train as O do ,I've jogged at 4.30 a.m..... today I have to hit the gym twice ,do all my washing and cooking....
Then I'm looking at my bed at my stash.......I still feel half out of it writing this at 9am.
Sorry i'm half thinking out loud but most of you understand.
I should probably shower ,I doubt I've bothered since thursday.
Thank fuck I didn't get the morphine......or any 'real opiate as you guys say.
