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I came up with a brilliant idea: IV 300 mg bupropion with 1000 mg amphetamine in the same solution, not even 48 hours after the serious chest pains. WWWWHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOSHHH
I immediately lay down and my heart rate starting increasing. After I reached 175 BPM I couldn't count anymore, but I'm very sure it went (way?) up beyond that. My biggest problem, however, was that the heart instead of "DOO-donk like normal heart beats, it went DONK-DONK, and this frightened me the most, because I have a puls of 225+ so many times now, and survived, but this was new.
Then the chest pain came, but more intense and more warm than before
Then my back went numb and it felt like I was floating. My neck/back got warm. And a tingling sensation spread through my body, focused on my traps. I thought "well, this is a nice way to die).
I felt my conciousness fading and was OK with it.. My life is shit anhyway.
However, when it felt like someone pierced my chest with a javelin, I realized mum would know I died abusing (she thinks I'm clean and recovering and she would have had found out) and I didn't want to leave her like that.
So I put 20 mg olanzapine in my mouth and dialed "911".
Everything seems to be fine!
Yes! But I am too weak. I just love the rush so much. Obviously I love it more than I love life
Thanks for the tip but that isn't available on the street here.
And no, I actually have quite LOW BP normally. This is because I OD all the time.
I'm thinking I should have to wait until I'm clean to take amphetamine again, but I'm not sure I'll make it. Probably no