sadasaulna
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Lamictal (at one time if I remember the Wikipedia article correctly, although it's been edited out since) was considered a narcotic at one time in Japan, and (I think) not prescribed because of it.
Lamictal (when taken in recreational one time doses) for me acts as a major stimulant, but really it does everything for me.
To be honest I'm diagnosed with Bipolar Diorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and Social Anxiety Disorder. I also suffer from Fabry Disease, which causes peripheral neuropathy (nerve pain) in my hands and feet.
At the scheduled dosage the drug helps with my anxiety, and nerve pain, which no other drugs have done for me.
At recreational doses the drug takes the something I am when not medicated and turns me into someone.
My social anxiety is obliterated, I'm not a anxiety-ridden shut-in, and I'm capable of being sociable. I normally have little energy, drive, and suffer from avolition (trouble making and settling on decisions). The high gives me energy, drive, "ambition", etc.
The fog and trouble thinking I usually have are gone, and with it the cognitive logjams and trouble in planning and carrying out detailed multi-step tasks. A prime example for me is operating machinery. I'm not great with it but without lamictal
I know the whole "you gotta try this, mannn, it changes everything!!!" trope. But for me it does, and with little to no side effects. Aside from occasional restlessness (and occasionally significant impatience from such) and trouble sitting still, there's almost no side effects.
I know using and condoning it's recreational use risks damaging the image of all those who take it (especially those taking it as ordered and responsibly so), much as those abusing opiates can cause issues for those taking them strictly (to great benefit) on a medicinal basis. But man, after what it's done for me, I wish there was a way I could introduce it to the people closest to me in life. Hell, I wish I could find a way to bring it to as many others as possible.
And that does include my worst enemies, because at the end of the day the anxiety, cognitive issues, and nerve pain I suffer from are pure hell and I wouldn't wish it on any of them. I would wish there's could get better, too.
Interesting. I have no idea what a recreational dose would be, don't really want to find out, as you mention I would hate for this to become a drug of abuse, and it sounds like a drug that could be dangerous in abuse. I notice however it has a fairly wide dose range medicinally for those who tolerate it. I'm on 100mg, and even at 50mg I was noticing it having significant positive effects for me. However looking at the NICE guidelines I can see that a medicinal dose can be as high as 500mg day when used for people with epilepsy.
I'm prescribed it off label for BPD. It has helped massively with mood stabilisation and I consider it a wonder drug. It also has no side effects that I have noticed at all. I wouldn't know I'm on it from a physical standpoint, only that it has helped stabilise my mood so much.
I'm happy to hear it can provide life changing things for you, but please stay safe. I don't know how long you've taken it at these higher doses but consider that they're may be downsides. Phenibut did exactly those things you describe for me, but it could never be a long term solution, just something to be treated with huge respect and taken very occasionally and the risks of trying to use it regularly are HIGH, I've heard the horror stories and they ain't pretty.
I'm also with you on not wishing MH issues on my worst enemies. I consider myself someone with a lot of empathy, and even horrible people might have good reasons they turned out that way. They're all human beings ultimately, and I think to wish that kind of agony in others is letting you become the horrible person you think they are.