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Wow, I've been using benzo's for a pretty decent amount of time (lets see, started seven years ago, been addicted for the last three years) and I never experienced obsessive thoughts like you mention, unless I was in acute withdrawal. I should also mention that I have struggled with OCD since I was 9 or 10 years old, and I've always found Benzo's helped my symptoms, although they surely aren't the long term solution for such a disorder.
I only skimmed through this thread so I apologize if this was brought up before, but you could be going through inter-dose withdrawal. Inter-dose withdrawal occurs when your tolerance rises and you suffer withdrawal symptoms between each dose, and when you do dose, you don't get the full relief you used to. I went through this when I switched from clonazepam to Lorazepam (aka Ativan). You might want to try switching from xanax (which is even shorter acting than Lorazepam) to Clonazepam/klonopin, or Diazepam/Valium. If such a switch doesn't help than it could be possible that you just react poorly to benzo's in general, or have OCD or a similar anxiety disorder.
I only skimmed through this thread so I apologize if this was brought up before, but you could be going through inter-dose withdrawal. Inter-dose withdrawal occurs when your tolerance rises and you suffer withdrawal symptoms between each dose, and when you do dose, you don't get the full relief you used to. I went through this when I switched from clonazepam to Lorazepam (aka Ativan). You might want to try switching from xanax (which is even shorter acting than Lorazepam) to Clonazepam/klonopin, or Diazepam/Valium. If such a switch doesn't help than it could be possible that you just react poorly to benzo's in general, or have OCD or a similar anxiety disorder.