BenzoBuddy88
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Feb 11, 2016
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Hi guyz 
22 years old male 180 cm 92 kg Roid monkey :D gym addict 
Sorry for my english i am not native english speaker
I am new there and i must say this is very usefull and interesting site. I spent hours of reading about drugs and some people life stories pretty interesting
Now about me i am addicted on benzo but not way like i eat loads of benzo to get fucked up i am on 2-3 mg of xanax per day cause my impulsive behavior a time to time anxiety/mild depression i dont use benzos to fuck up but i know i am pretty addicted i use xanax for 5 years. Its pretty shitty i tried to taper it off in detoxication center and i was sucessfull and they tapered off my benzo and gave me 3-4 kinds of other pills like SSRI TCA antidepressants Hydroxizyn for sleep and loads of other shits that have lot of side effects like decreased libido almost to zero from TCA shit i was sleepy all the fucking day from hydroxizyn a suffered with restless leg syndrome and it did not help with my problematic personality like behavior anxiety and depressive episodes (mild depression) i was clean form benzo about 4 months then i said i dont give about addiction to benzos throw away that loads of useless shit and get back to benzos i accepted fact benzos are part of my life and it will be till i die :D xanax and clonopin is my best friend but that withdrawals are hell if i run out from pills and its weekend and i must wait 2 days its fucking hell :/ i am addicted but i dont abuse benzos. I abuse alcohol a lot :D not regulary every day but when i start drinking i drink 4-5 days in row and i am absolutely fucked up :D about other drugs i prefer pills if possible (my dad and mom are doctors) and also its "benzo complex" popping pills are like ritual :D i recreationaly use time time mild opiates like codeine DHcod tramadol once per two weeks just pop some tramadol sit in the car play som chill music smoke a cigarette and dont give a fuck :D Oh yeah i forgot i ofc used stimulants few times coke on parties but its not too much interesting for me to pay for it but if someone give it to me i snort but i am not chasing it only time when i rly appreciate stims on my system is when i need to study for exams or i need do lot of work in a row yeah again i prefer methylphenidate pills :D pills everywhere :D. That all i want to say about me if you want ask me i will be glad to answer your question. And the last thing i am rly happy i found this community forum and i see lot of people like me there cause in real world everyone see xanax pills and say wtf? you are addict,junkie you should go to detox and shit like that... they dont know what anxiety attack is and saying thats on your mind you can fight it no one needs pills and blaaaaaa.... Glad to be here ! And last question :D Is here somebody like me (benzos,pills,interested how pills and drugs works in brain) ? If yes i will be happy if you answer me here or send me private message we can talk about anything for exapmle i can tell you something about benzo taper off or anything else . We can help each other i can give you some advice and for me its the way how to get better in english Thanks and Cheers
22 years old male 180 cm 92 kg Roid monkey :D gym addict Sorry for my english i am not native english speaker I am new there and i must say this is very usefull and interesting site. I spent hours of reading about drugs and some people life stories pretty interesting
Now about me i am addicted on benzo but not way like i eat loads of benzo to get fucked up i am on 2-3 mg of xanax per day cause my impulsive behavior a time to time anxiety/mild depression i dont use benzos to fuck up but i know i am pretty addicted i use xanax for 5 years. Its pretty shitty i tried to taper it off in detoxication center and i was sucessfull and they tapered off my benzo and gave me 3-4 kinds of other pills like SSRI TCA antidepressants Hydroxizyn for sleep and loads of other shits that have lot of side effects like decreased libido almost to zero from TCA shit i was sleepy all the fucking day from hydroxizyn a suffered with restless leg syndrome and it did not help with my problematic personality like behavior anxiety and depressive episodes (mild depression) i was clean form benzo about 4 months then i said i dont give about addiction to benzos throw away that loads of useless shit and get back to benzos i accepted fact benzos are part of my life and it will be till i die :D xanax and clonopin is my best friend
but that withdrawals are hell if i run out from pills and its weekend and i must wait 2 days its fucking hell :/ i am addicted but i dont abuse benzos. I abuse alcohol a lot :D not regulary every day but when i start drinking i drink 4-5 days in row and i am absolutely fucked up :D about other drugs i prefer pills if possible (my dad and mom are doctors) and also its "benzo complex" popping pills are like ritual :D i recreationaly use time time mild opiates like codeine DHcod tramadol once per two weeks just pop some tramadol sit in the car play som chill music smoke a cigarette and dont give a fuck :D Oh yeah i forgot i ofc used stimulants few times coke on parties but its not too much interesting for me to pay for it but if someone give it to me i snort but i am not chasing it only time when i rly appreciate stims on my system is when i need to study for exams or i need do lot of work in a row yeah again i prefer methylphenidate pills :D pills everywhere :D. That all i want to say about me if you want ask me i will be glad to answer your question. And the last thing i am rly happy i found this community forum and i see lot of people like me there cause in real world everyone see xanax pills and say wtf? you are addict,junkie you should go to detox and shit like that... they dont know what anxiety attack is and saying thats on your mind you can fight it no one needs pills and blaaaaaa.... Glad to be here ! And last question :D Is here somebody like me (benzos,pills,interested how pills and drugs works in brain) ? If yes i will be happy if you answer me here or send me private message we can talk about anything for exapmle i can tell you something about benzo taper off or anything else . We can help each other i can give you some advice and for me its the way how to get better in english Thanks and Cheers