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Benzo WD - diazepam

BabyGurl3171

BabyGurl3171

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In my mind. The choices are many, the consequences
Ok, as most you know I had to see a dr my PO sent me to. Well.. This fuckin cunt said they will not give me over half my meds, includin my diazepam. She told me I have to ask my old psych to taper me. He won't do it as we essentially fired one another. I asked if my fam dr could do it & they said anyone but my old psych and I go to jail. Omfg!!
So, that bein said, I take 25-100 mgs diazepam a day. How bad are the WD's gonna be? Am I lookin at the risk of dyin?
God damn these assholes! They all need investigated. Which, yes, I did call our state's health & humam services to file a complaint. Fuck them all!
God, I could just cry.. Even if I bought the benzos on the street I'd get locked up bc I'd test positive with no script. =(
No wonder people just fuckin off themselves..
 
BabyGurl3171 said:
Ok, as most you know I had to see a dr my PO sent me to. Well.. This fuckin cunt said they will not give me over half my meds, includin my diazepam. She told me I have to ask my old psych to taper me. He won't do it as we essentially fired one another. I asked if my fam dr could do it & they said anyone but my old psych and I go to jail. Omfg!!
So, that bein said, I take 25-100 mgs diazepam a day. How bad are the WD's gonna be? Am I lookin at the risk of dyin?
God damn these assholes! They all need investigated. Which, yes, I did call our state's health & humam services to file a complaint. Fuck them all!
God, I could just cry.. Even if I bought the benzos on the street I'd get locked up bc I'd test positive with no script. =(
No wonder people just fuckin off themselves..
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Move to the U.K

Jokes aside we have a fair health service, in the most part. Although the most you will get scripted is 40mg Diazepam per day.

Sorry i can't be more help, im currently trying to quit Diazepam myself (Again!) but the way i do it is very unconventional and possibly very dangerous or even fatal to some.
 
Baby that's awful :( I'm so sorry!

What exactly is your situation now - how many benzos do you have, and are you being prescribed any? Is there any chance of calling up your old psych and explaining that you need a taper script? They shouldn't be allowed to leave you without, benzo WD can be dangerous, there is a risk of seizures.. you really do need to taper if your doses have been approaching the 100mg/day mark.

Diazepam has a long half life so you'll probably be okay for a day or so, but after that you really do need some kind of taper in place.. <3
 
I have 90 5mg diazepam left. Could I taper with that?
I feel like I'm havin a nervous breakdown! I can't stop cryin & I'm very sure I'm losin the will to live.
I'm a Christian (I kno, SURPRISE ha) but I have NEVER hated some people sooo much and wanted them to die a slow and VERY painful death!
Did I mention she pulled an asshole move? When I mentioned one of my stressors is my husband took off with my 2 lil ones this fuckin cunt said "well, u really need to get ur priorities right and not stress over lil things like that." God, I wish her a horrifyin death!
I did call my old psych, the answer was no, I gave you 2 months to find a new dr. Yes he did however my PO restricted me to goin to the free clinic! I have effin insurance and last I checked HIPPA (in USA) allows you to choose your providers, NOT be forced to one. Let alone an incompetent one!
Pally, I would LOVE to move to the UK. Hmm.. Wonder if they'd extradite me from there.. JK!
I think I'm gonna risk a violation and not only ask my fam dr to taper me but to admit me to the psych ward also (something I never thought I'd say). But God, someone has to get me situated right. This can't go on.
Sorry, I rambled & vented so much..
 
Hey Baby...
I was gonna suggest going to the ER and explaining your situation..they couldn't leave you with no rx..and no way to taper...but honestly.. the psych ward...no joke..might be the way to go...
they can help get you stabalized...and rx what you need legally..
don't know that this helps any..
but I feel for you..and wish everything for you was moving in a better direction!

<3 token
 
Baby, honestly at this point, I think you should ask your fam dr. To admit you to the psych ward and do your benzo taper there where you can be supervised, safe, and get more if you need it. Will going into a psych unit put your custody issues at further risk? You may need to tell him you are contemplating self harm to get him to take you seriously, but honestly it sounds like you are, so that would not be very far from the truth. I cannot believe all this bullshit. The system where you are is messed up big time. It probably is everywhere. Wow. It reminds me of the time about 10 years ago or more when they tried to violate my sister who was on probe for a DUI because she tested positive for amphetamine, when she was on a documented daily dose of adderall....well duh.
 
Yeah, I think (as much as I loathe the idea) that the psych ward may be best. Maybe get my meds fixed & get a real benzo taper.
Yes, I have been thinkin how nice it'd be to just die off & that is NOT me, if you knew me IRL. I have made many plans to OD but thankfully I never follow through.. Mainly bc my children need me.
I see my fam dr in the am & I'm gonna ask for his ideas/help. Fuck 'em, if they violate me for seekin help I'll be hirin an atty. Probably gonna check with some attys anyway. I know I have limited rights bein on prob BUT they can't subject my health & life even like this. At least I wouldn't think they could.. Who knows, this state is fucked up!
Beach, I believe it about your sis. They were gonna violate me for testin positive for benzos..really?
 
If you have 90 5 mg diazepam, I am thinking you could do a fairly safe taper provided you aren't switching around your other meds. I would initiate at a low daily dose, as low as you feel comfortable, and taper slowly off that. I know you are in a bitch of a situation, and it must really suck, but I think 450 mg diazepam is enough to taper you, even if it might be a bit rapid. I don't know your entire medical profile or history, so I cannot say this with absolute confidence, but I would suggest you start lowering that daily diazepam dose.
 
I can take a fairly low dose (20 or so mgs) and be semi ok. By semi ok I mean I don't have severe wd's. I do get numbness in my hands, a bit of shakin, more anxiety.. Etc. Nothin life threatenin. I am goin to ask my GP to provide a taper, or even admit me, but if he won't I at,least have the 90 to work with. That makes me feel a bit better.
Altho I'm still homicidal and want all assholes involved to die a horrible death..oops, did I type that? ;)
 
^ BabyGirl, you might want to try the psych ward instead. ;)

Psychic wards are never any good, no drugs, just fortune telling :(

Best of luck, Baby! I hope everything works out well for you. Just try to get everything documented in writing, doctors stating that they are doing this since your life is in danger, etc.
 
i agree with all of the above advise but Babygurl maybe you could buy some more valium of the street so you wont test positive for another benzo but if you cant then try to use what you have to taper even though its gonna be fuckin shitty but atleast it wont be absolute hell, and if you still need help then follow all these fine peoples advise. much love, im currently coming off klonopin and suboxone and it fucking sucks so i know how shitty things can get especially when i was on hundreds of mgs of methadone and like 8 mg xanax a day for a year and went cold turkey until i finally broke down and went to the sub clinic which truly saved my life but now im still going through hell tapering of the subs and k pins. sorry for rambling. i hope everything works out.
 
If you end up getting a low taper dosage of Valium that's too low to keep withdrawals at bay, you can try 200-400mg L-Theanine and Valerian root capsules, even Kava-Kava tincture in glass bottles. However, don't use these supplements to taper without using Valium at the same time, as your dosages are too high.

Also, if you end up getting a new script but you're taper dosage is too low, you might be able to use illegally bought Valium to supplement while not worrying about testing positive, just be careful not to use more than you absolutely need to keep withdrawals at bay.

Check out the Ashton Manual, print out the taper plan and show a doctor who's willing to help you. The plan is great, some think that the taper is too slow, but it works for most people, myself included.
 
Thanks everyone! I'm sooo glad I asked you guys for ideas/help bc evidently the drs & crap are morons here..
I see my fam dr in an hour. Gonna talk to him & if it comes to it I will say I'm suicidal to get the freakin help I need.
Update you guys in a few!
EM, lol @ psychic unit reply ;) And thank you for the supplements that could help!
 
Great to hear, Baby! Glad to see there are still some people with a shred of compassion around you. The more documentation the better, so ask him to write you quick letters on reasons for tapering and how you're progressing if he knows you're on probation.

The road to benzo freedom is a rough and bumpy one, so be prepared for discomfort, but at least you have a taper, which makes a huge the difference in reducing a majority of withdrawal symptoms, and also is most likely to keep you clean. Slow and steady wins the race with benzo tapers: the slower you go, the quicker you will get away from benzo dependence for good. The Ashton Manual is definitely worth a read, btw. Good luck! :D
 
ErgicMergic said:
^ BabyGirl, you might want to try the psych ward instead. ;)

Psychic wards are never any good, no drugs, just fortune telling :(

Best of luck, Baby! I hope everything works out well for you. Just try to get everything documented in writing, doctors stating that they are doing this since your life is in danger, etc.
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lol this morning..good way to start today..

good luck w/the dr's this morning baby!
<3
 
Thanks EM! I mentioned the Ashton Manual and he seemed to be familiar.
He knows I'm on probation & said they cannot risk my health like that & he would be willin to have a talk with my dick..er PO lol. I signed a release so he can give my PO the what for..
Thanks token =)
Thank you all! You guys rule!
 
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