Damn those benzo's when 3 days ago i managed to buy 200 ten mg tranxenes, which is okay, but then i find out that the lady who sells me the tranxene that she was sitting on a few years stash of alprazolam the 0.5 mg instant release, because in my country the 1 and 2 mg alprazolam versions are time released and only rarely prescribed so 120 of those alprazolams its cheap enough for $30 only now its thursday morning and i see that i finished 50 of those little pink suckers.
My tolerance was just nicely low for benzo's, but lets hope that three days aplrazolam abuse does not make me dependent as i am scared shitless about gaining a dependency for one of the high potency benzo's.
Clonazepam doesn't work on me for a reason i dont understand, but alright atleast i wont become dependent to that one only what to do with the 70 alprazolams i have left, because even if i would limit myself to 5 mg a day for seven days then when the xanax is gone ten days passed and i fear i will feel bad by then without the benzo, however i have plenty of benzo like tranxene, oxazepam and librium only to cover alprazolam dependence the usual benzo's are not good enough.
Once xanax dependency is fact then this benzo has to go slowly while another, usual one, can slowly come in, but i lack the alprazolam to do this so maybe i better finish the remaining 70 fast like in another 3 days more by then i dropped a lot of alprazolam for six days i hope this is not enough to get dependent.
Something i like to mention is the effectiveness of a med called lyrica when it comes to benzo withdrawals this works really very well, but what strucks me as weird, i dont complain though, is why i dont have to withdraw from lyrica behind about a year and a half at 900 mg a day so this stuff works very well against benzo withdrawals like mentioned it also potentiates benzo's bigtime so when i started the xanax out of precaution i dropped the lyrica from 900 to 300 mg without a problem.
The difference was high taking alprazolam without 900 mg lyrica so last monday taking 5 mg xanax with 900 lyrica got me too wasted while yesterday at 300 mg lyrica the same 5 mg alprazolam barely worked.
I read about the poster who cant feel any benzo effect, but the why slips me here aside from thinking your GABA receptors got wacked or so only there are several benzo types i cannot feel regardless of the dose being clonazepam and lorazepam come to mind first there are two others i cant think of now oh yeah midazolam no chance to feel that either.
For the poster who complains that benzo dont work and that you do need a med against anxiety then maybe it interests you to know that in Europe lyrica is approved for anxiety disorders and it can be very effective, but what sucks is that lyrica works well at first then two months later it might stop to act so you might ask why i took it for a year and a half then well that's easy enough i used the lyrica to potentiate everything else i take, especially benzo's and methadone so without a doubt in my mind i am going to miss the potentiating, but i decided that i want to feel that lyrica buzz again so not using it for say a week makes this possible again twice weekly when you dont push things.
What i really dislike about the xanax is that 5 mg cannot be felt by me, but to drop 10 mg then no better not it will only make me lose memory so for me there is a very thin line between feeling xanax or losing memory, because i also dont feel 7.5 mg while 8 mg made me lose it and now without lyrica i am not even going to try alpraz no matter that i said above i would finish 70 of them in a matter of days, a bad thought it wont happen.
Something else what comes to mind when i think about xanax and that is that the combo xanax and methadone is responsible for thousands of so called methadone deaths in the US so me needing 160 mg methadone plus too much aplraz and what more my tolerance is very high, but please dont copy what i do its very risky and i dont have a death wish.
In 25 years of addiction i never came across towards a med what can help both benzo and opiate withdrawal, but lyrica does exactly that so a year and a half ago i managed to make myself dependent to about 300 mg oxazepam a day making me dread the day when i saw the bottle getting empty so one day they were gone and i expected a very rough ride, but the lyrica it not only minimised benzo withdrawals it made them completely gone and that was much more then i dared to count on.
Also when it comes to opiate withdrawal i used to feel this mildy 23 hours behind my last methadone dose, but i always would take lyrica an hour before the methadone and when it was finally time to take the 'done i asked myself what happened with that mild WD feeling.
Now i have absolutely no idea if lyrica can be useful in full WD, but my guess would be yes and since pregabalin is a schedule 5 in the US its not that hard to get it if you need it only since pregabalin has a certain abuse potential makes me think it might become a schedule 4 within not much time in the US just like benzo's. Well so far excuse me if i ramble too much.
