Not only was this my first time with Benzedrex, but my first experience with uppers of any kind. This may be valuable for the fact that I wrote without knowing how Adderall/Amphetamines feel at all. I can say I had an overall positive experience, but with numerous caveats. It hasn't turned me off to ever trying an upper (preferably a "real" one someday), but I see why Benzedrex is legal now...
T + 0:00 [7:05 PM] - ingested half of the benzedrex cotton. I took a half filled 20oz Gatorade bottle, carefully pulled apart the cotton fibers, and dropped it in. After shaking the bottle and cotton up a bit, I took down the Gatorade in a few good gulps. I had to be careful not to let the cotton get in my mouth. After it was finished I took the cotton and squeezed it dry, but didn't eat it. My first reaction to smell/taste was "eh, not as bad as I thought", but I can easily see myself building up a taste aversion to it. I'm just hoping I didn't waste a lot of psychoactive material.
T + 0:15 - it's got to be placebo, but I feel pretty upbeat, energetic, and all around having a good time listening to music and eating Doritos.
T + 0:40 some feelings of increased heat rate and blood pressure. I can feel and increased flow of blood to my head. Literally, the veins by my temples on either side of my head are pumping hard and fast. Overall a positive tingly/glowing sensation. My cheeks feel flushed and have an almost pins-and-needles type sensation going on.
T + 1:05 - Still an overall good feeling, and a great energetic buzz. More than any other drug, this feels like a “utility”, not intoxication. That's not to say it isn't fun, though. I feel like it's easier to focus my mind, although my thoughts aren't necessarily clearer. It's definitely less powerful than I thought it was going to be, so I'm going to take the other half of the cotton. I just prepared another Gatorade cocktail, and will ingest that after this Flight of the Concords episode %)
T + 1:20 - took the rest of the cotton in Gatorade, and then just ate the cotton too, although it seemed bone-dry and completely inert. Why do people even eat the cotton anyway? It seems like just by soaking and rinsing it out, you can get the entire drug in there.
T + 1:40 - I don't think my re-dose has kicked in, but I am feeling ever tinglier sensations, even the "hair growing" sensation amphetamine users talk about. One thing about benzedrex: I never feel speedy or anxious. Most of the time, I am content to just sit and chill. I thought all uppers would have made me jittery and hyper, mind going a mile a minute, but this is probably due to Benzdrex’s narrow nature of effects.
T + 3:00 - For a while I was contemplating taking another cotton, and decided against it when my BP clocked in at 182/72. For the past couple hours, I was feeling the same sort of focused/pleasant high, just slowly subsiding. I never noted a strong pickup of effects from my re-dose. I still feel it now, but the effects were never particularly strong or well pronounced at all. I loved the come-up, but felt short-changed on the strength of the effects when they stopped growing. But I didn't get all pissed and start fiending for more, so I was able to enjoy what effects I did have. I definitely regret swallowing cotton, too. Maybe it's just all the GI Tract horror stories I read about the cotton, but it I can almost feel it just sitting in my bowels. I wonder if this is all this drug offers for me, and will probably try it once more to come to a verdict on how it affects me, and if it's worth it (definitely through a CWE next time). I imagine real amphetamine feels like this, just better. My only hope is being able to get some sleep tonight.
T + 0:00 [7:05 PM] - ingested half of the benzedrex cotton. I took a half filled 20oz Gatorade bottle, carefully pulled apart the cotton fibers, and dropped it in. After shaking the bottle and cotton up a bit, I took down the Gatorade in a few good gulps. I had to be careful not to let the cotton get in my mouth. After it was finished I took the cotton and squeezed it dry, but didn't eat it. My first reaction to smell/taste was "eh, not as bad as I thought", but I can easily see myself building up a taste aversion to it. I'm just hoping I didn't waste a lot of psychoactive material.
T + 0:15 - it's got to be placebo, but I feel pretty upbeat, energetic, and all around having a good time listening to music and eating Doritos.
T + 0:40 some feelings of increased heat rate and blood pressure. I can feel and increased flow of blood to my head. Literally, the veins by my temples on either side of my head are pumping hard and fast. Overall a positive tingly/glowing sensation. My cheeks feel flushed and have an almost pins-and-needles type sensation going on.
T + 1:05 - Still an overall good feeling, and a great energetic buzz. More than any other drug, this feels like a “utility”, not intoxication. That's not to say it isn't fun, though. I feel like it's easier to focus my mind, although my thoughts aren't necessarily clearer. It's definitely less powerful than I thought it was going to be, so I'm going to take the other half of the cotton. I just prepared another Gatorade cocktail, and will ingest that after this Flight of the Concords episode %)
T + 1:20 - took the rest of the cotton in Gatorade, and then just ate the cotton too, although it seemed bone-dry and completely inert. Why do people even eat the cotton anyway? It seems like just by soaking and rinsing it out, you can get the entire drug in there.
T + 1:40 - I don't think my re-dose has kicked in, but I am feeling ever tinglier sensations, even the "hair growing" sensation amphetamine users talk about. One thing about benzedrex: I never feel speedy or anxious. Most of the time, I am content to just sit and chill. I thought all uppers would have made me jittery and hyper, mind going a mile a minute, but this is probably due to Benzdrex’s narrow nature of effects.
T + 3:00 - For a while I was contemplating taking another cotton, and decided against it when my BP clocked in at 182/72. For the past couple hours, I was feeling the same sort of focused/pleasant high, just slowly subsiding. I never noted a strong pickup of effects from my re-dose. I still feel it now, but the effects were never particularly strong or well pronounced at all. I loved the come-up, but felt short-changed on the strength of the effects when they stopped growing. But I didn't get all pissed and start fiending for more, so I was able to enjoy what effects I did have. I definitely regret swallowing cotton, too. Maybe it's just all the GI Tract horror stories I read about the cotton, but it I can almost feel it just sitting in my bowels. I wonder if this is all this drug offers for me, and will probably try it once more to come to a verdict on how it affects me, and if it's worth it (definitely through a CWE next time). I imagine real amphetamine feels like this, just better. My only hope is being able to get some sleep tonight.
