Being stupid and human

[Cereal eater]

Well once again my demon got the best of me. I used to have a drug problem. A bad one. And by iv at that. Well it's been around 5 years and I just had random cravings for meth. I won't fight the demon I'll let him in because I know I'm strong enough to fight. But I have been doing it for a few days now and I snorted some ice tonight. Not even a lot. And I feel everything of the opposite. Quality dope for sure. I don't feel terrible but I wish I wouldn't have done it. I have this weird feeling in my chest, it doesn't hurt. Sometime I feel my heart beat in my neck for like 5 seconds. I'll have random spirts of headaches too. Somewhat breathless. And I'm cold but my temperature is averaging around 99.5. I know I'm not going to die but I think (know) I'm harming my body. I am scheduling a doc appt. but that's not for a while. I'm writing this to see if I can get any closure. No more dope for me. And I have taken a qtr of Xanax for the anxiety. Any info helps

 

[assclass]

In all likelihood there is nothing really wrong with you, other than the psychological effect of your body trying to trick you into hating drugs.

 

[Cereal eater]

Thanks a lot man

 

[Cereal eater]

Another question, what if I were to do more? What do u think the result would be

 

[Elis D]

It sounds to me like your body is listening in on your mind and trying to tell you something in my opinion. The mind is a powerful thing and you can talk yourself in and out of nearly everything. If you were to do more i don't think it would hurt you but sounds like you should stay away from it!