Yep, I was 20+ clean for good reasons and shot up on the first day if summer. It's hard. But, take in the beauty of summer, listen to music, go running, go to a body of water, talk to friends,... There's a whole thread on this. Be stronger than me, I'm sure you are. And, relapsing once for me was enough but it's walking on ice. Good luck, if you need support I'm here, were all here.