Vaya
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- Aug 5, 2003
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It's sooooo helpful wanting it this badly, isn't it? I can remember the first time I seriously attempted to get clean, I did, but I lasted just under three years before relapsing because that time around I think that a lot of it was pretty much handed to me. I was incubated a lot in a rehab and then the rooms of NA/AA, and though I still am a member of the 12 step program today, I definitely allowed myself to drift into complacency over those three years.
I'm pretty sure this is because I didn't feel like it was a privilege to be sober... I was happily sober for much of that time but the feeling that I'd been handed sobriety too early in life, without having yearned for it as painfully as I craved those hits when none were to be found, caught up with me and I lost appreciation for what I'd achieved.
Don't everrrr forget the way it was. That'll take you down so, so fast.
Keep up the progress, Anomaly This is all nothing but great news!!
~ vaya
I'm pretty sure this is because I didn't feel like it was a privilege to be sober... I was happily sober for much of that time but the feeling that I'd been handed sobriety too early in life, without having yearned for it as painfully as I craved those hits when none were to be found, caught up with me and I lost appreciation for what I'd achieved.
Don't everrrr forget the way it was. That'll take you down so, so fast.
Keep up the progress, Anomaly This is all nothing but great news!!
~ vaya