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Becoming physically addicted to meth, heavy drinker too.

Im in the program now. I sketched out the other night and couldnt bring myself to go. Especially while I still had some meth left. Yesterday while simultaneously on the hunt for more meth I also visited with a friend to talk about what I was going through being so ambivalent about going. I didnt feel ready.

Well I called the detox that afternoon and there wasn't any beds available - so, call back later. I callef after 11pm and initially I was told there weren't any beds again. Then the worker on shift asked me my name, so I gave it out. He said he remembers me, and to wait a minute so I was put on hold. He came back and I was told that there is a bed after all. I'm not sure how that worked out but hey that's awesome. 11AM, shortly after actually cause I stopped at The Source to buy my boyfriend a laptop for his birthday today, Ive made it. Im in.
 
So what happened, did you leave the program early? Quitting meth is a great first start, even if you are continuing to drink. Was going to detox/rehab something you really wanted, or was it something other people (friends, family or partner) wanted? It's unlikely to work for you if you're going to appease someone or because it's what you think you should do, rather than something you want to do.
 
I did leave progeam early. I freaked out and couldnt hack it.

I have some good news. Ive managed to stay off meth, my alcohol is much more under control and Im starting my new job finally todsy. Im feeling well.😁
 
I went to hospital rhe orher night and got referalls to outpatient programs, started gabapentin which will hipefully keep me calm and cravings down which it has so far and I have a psych appt over Zoom tomorrow afternoonm things didnt do as Id originalluly intended but are going well enough anyway.

Sorry for dbl posting.
 
yubacity said:
My bro you are just 30 that is nothing i know its hard to stop but this is your life at stake . You beat heroin and methadone so you know you got the will power to do it . At the moment it seems like you cant get through your day without meth but its not food or water . Try missing a day at first then work your way up . We only get one life my brother and you got your whole life ahead of you
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This. Meth is what I call ''Chinese's Drop'', it's the worst of'em all. You can do it.
 
Alex_1991 said:
Good day overall. Pretty happy, did a couple nirvana covers fuckin around after work.
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^ kurt kobain is EXTREMELY OVERRATED and actually really loved and adored to this day by specific choice of people especially in the US. When I lived in Europe, only England (US's cocksucker) talked about him a lot on their MTV.
The rest of us Euros used to enjoy completely different, and to this day in my opinion, more awesome music back in the 90s.

there is actually a family guy skit on him where he is so depressed and wants to kill himself but stewie goes back in time and just gives him ice cream to deal with it haha good shit!
 
Alex_1991 said:


Good day overall. Pretty happy, did a couple nirvana covers fuckin around after work.
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allone said:
^ kurt kobain is EXTREMELY OVERRATED and actually really loved and adored to this day by specific choice of people especially in the US. When I lived in Europe, only England (US's cocksucker) talked about him a lot on their MTV.
The rest of us Euros used to enjoy completely different, and to this day in my opinion, more awesome music back in the 90s.

there is actually a family guy skit on him where he is so depressed and wants to kill himself but stewie goes back in time and just gives him ice cream to deal with it haha good shit!
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I enjoy his music and the whole seattle sound.

Edited because was originally some rudeass snipe.
 
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Im doing well. Put the whole spiel in the social thread. Everybody get in there!
 
I just got a link to and a potential ride to a job at a plant out of town thats desperately hiring many people. Resume submitted. If it works Ill go from a part time construction labourer back to a machine operator. I have 4 years experience and a college certificate in CNC machine operation, thinking I might be a shoe in.

My current job is ok but the hours arent there. This will be about 48 hours a week. They run 6 days a week right now.

Itll be nice to have a good income again, I hope.

In other news Im out of vyvanse so fetting off that now too. I feel pretty good. Some vyvanse for a week wll be nothing compared to 4 months of meth at higher dose point for point let alone in potency. Ill refill when I can but I think this is more than manageable.:)
 
Alex_1991 said:
I just got a link to and a potential ride to a job at a plant out of town thats desperately hiring many people. Resume submitted. If it works Ill go from a part time construction labourer back to a machine operator. I have 4 years experience and a college certificate in CNC machine operation, thinking I might be a shoe in.

My current job is ok but the hours arent there. This will be about 48 hours a week. They run 6 days a week right now.

Itll be nice to have a good income again, I hope.

In other news Im out of vyvanse so fetting off that now too. I feel pretty good. Some vyvanse for a week wll be nothing compared to 4 months of meth at higher dose point for point let alone in potency. Ill refill when I can but I think this is more than manageable.:)
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Glad to hear things are looking up - sounds great.
 
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