thought I would pop in and say hi seeing as I can't seem to be able to sleep tonight, I refuse to take mirtazapine to sleep as it makes me sleep through my alarms and feel groggy as hell. Going to try and get some sleep again now.
Had a nice day today, a sad one though, as the best guy from work left today, so it was a sad day, on the plus side, I bought myself some new bedsheets, duvet cover, bath towel and a tea towel today.
Also had a good counselling appointment with the addiction counsellor, going to take things from the beginning and start focusing on motivating myself to do the daily things that most people take for granted, which are a massive struggle for me, it may not seem like that is going to help me stay off drugs, but I think it will, if I can build the foundations slowly, starting from the beginning at the bottom then I think/ I know that I can work my way back up to the top again and will be able to be proud of myself for conquering the self destructive part of me and replacing it with a productive part.
Drugs will come back again in the future, but not for a while, I need to get them out of my system for quite some time and live in the real world.
/end rant
Going to attempt to sleep once more.
Goodnight BDDers
