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BDD Social/Information Booth v.IX - Au revoir Mugzy, we love you

thought I would pop in and say hi seeing as I can't seem to be able to sleep tonight, I refuse to take mirtazapine to sleep as it makes me sleep through my alarms and feel groggy as hell. Going to try and get some sleep again now.

Had a nice day today, a sad one though, as the best guy from work left today, so it was a sad day, on the plus side, I bought myself some new bedsheets, duvet cover, bath towel and a tea towel today.

Also had a good counselling appointment with the addiction counsellor, going to take things from the beginning and start focusing on motivating myself to do the daily things that most people take for granted, which are a massive struggle for me, it may not seem like that is going to help me stay off drugs, but I think it will, if I can build the foundations slowly, starting from the beginning at the bottom then I think/ I know that I can work my way back up to the top again and will be able to be proud of myself for conquering the self destructive part of me and replacing it with a productive part.

Drugs will come back again in the future, but not for a while, I need to get them out of my system for quite some time and live in the real world.

/end rant

Going to attempt to sleep once more.

Goodnight BDDers :)
 
Good luck Mugzy <3 you can do this. And good night, sleep well :)

I know what you mean about rebuilding from the bottom, and all the normal things seeming hard - am in a similar position myself.. we can do it though :) we have to! And it will feel so good when we have.
 
Night Mugzy, I just came out of a very similar hole.

PM me if you want to chat about things. I went through addiction detox and counselling recently.
 
I just wish that I could have done it whilst still staying on here, but I am pretty sure that I am not strong enough at the moment to do that, is just sad :(

Counseling was good though, am glad to have a good key worker that I can see once a week every week until I am fixed :) he's a really good guy too and I think that we are definitely going to get me back on track. Things are looking positive, I just hate to leave this place, but it has to be done for the time being.
 
Hey I see my psychologist tomorrow too!

I had to leave here on and off for almost a year mugz, I only came back full time recently. Sadly it does help, but you can always come back!
 
Seeing a psych counselor every week is a very good thing, I do that too ;)
 
Nothing wrong with a little counseling, I wish I could afford it. I had a good chance to pursue that option with quality doctors I really liked, and my insurance covered it. I guess I wasn't ready cause I routinely ditched appointments and stuff until they eventually dropped me altogether.

Whoops.
 
no it doesnr heurt at all it felt good. i feel really good right nwo, ther dsxm AND mXE is stynerngizedin really nicely back to my mohole
 
Oxide said:
Nothing wrong with a little counseling, I wish I could afford it. I had a good chance to pursue that option with quality doctors I really liked, and my insurance covered it. I guess I wasn't ready cause I routinely ditched appointments and stuff until they eventually dropped me altogether.

Whoops.
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That was pretty much my MO for the last 5 or 6 years, would just ditch appointments and have the "I can do it all on my own" attitude, now I'm in a position though where I really think that I do need to sort things out with the help that has been offered to me. I don't regret ditching the appointments in the past and not turning up, I was just not ready then, but I am ready now and I just hope that it works.

Take care oxide, sucks over there that you have to pay for all of it rather than getting it for free like we do here, unless we want to go private. You don't seem to be doing too bad for yourself anyway :) the option will always be there in the future though :)
 
Damni it all to fucking hell. I was one off getting the fucking trifecta in the melbourne cup and winning thousands of dollars. ARGH
 
Or for your trip down to my castle, your ass loaded with contraband.
 
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