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Ha sounds good. Substance wealth it just as nice as any wealth :)

Im doing good. Just relaxing tongiht.

Oh by the way, not sure when you started making posts again but welcome back! I think the last time I saw you around you said you were going to be in rehab? Pretty sure that was you...If not then how embarrasing =p
 
Substance wealth is always welcome in my life.

Being proud of your self control is certainly something to take pride in. It's a struggle sometimes, haha.
 
It is rather nice isn't it though. I think i'm enjoying having it there more so than using it haha.

Good to hear, I'm soaking up some fine spring sun. The day has turned out mighty fine I must say.

Yeah, well about rehab... I entered the program, wherein you do a 10 day detox before you go into the rehab program. I was deemed "unfit" for rehab and was shuffled into the general psych. However it was my first really successful visit. I'm loving life and for the first time in a long while actually happy. I ended up fully detoxing off all psychiatric medication as well as quite heavy substance abuse. I think the greatest thing to come out of it was managing to successfully taper off a huge benzo dependency. 12mg alprazolam, 120mg diazepam and 2mg flunitrazepam daily. Also dumped the quetiapine, escitalopram and sodium valproate.

For the first time in years my brain is functioning free of any substance dependence, be it psychiatric or narcotic. My life has taken a turn for the better. I moved home with the mother after a messy ending with my lady friend that I was living with and I think I'm in a much better place.

I got reinstated at my old workplace that I worked at in 2009 with a substantial raise, ah man, it's just all going good. I'm also volunteering at a needle syringe program and heading into university next year when I'll do an undergraduate of Biotechnology and medical research. The plan is to then do a graduate degree of pharmacology and hopefully one day run an opiate maintenance program.

It's probably a bit of a kite dream, but eh, I just want to work in harm reduction and help others.

It's funny how things can dramatically change in a few months.
 
Wow congradulations tripman :D I'm really glad it worked out for you as I hear alot of the times people complain about psychs not helping. And you're a superhero tapering off those benzos! I too have been interested in going into pharmacology. Also since after all that would you say you're cravings for drugs has lessened or are they completely gone?

Though I've been able to stop my drug habits I live with amphetamine cravings almost everyday which can really ruin my day when I spend it thinking about abusing my adderall. I take amphetamines almost everyday though (as perscribed) but I always get tempted to just take a couple extra...
 
Thanks Olab, yeah well it was the only helpful time that I have experience in a ward.

Oh yeah coming off benzo's was immensely painful, but so worth it. IMO they are a life wrecker. You become so, distant, so uncaring...

My cravings for a lot have lessened. I still crave heroin, I imagine i'll always carry that monkey on my back. However, I have a much more respectful relationship with her now.
 
Nice job Trip! I hear horror stories of benzo w/d's all the time hear on BL. I hope I never have to deal with that as I take diaz for my anxiety and also some recreational (cant lie about that). I do space out my scripts tho. There was about a 2 week period in between the current script I have and the end of the last one I had. I think, of all my fears of drugs, w/d's from benzos has crept to #1.

At work now. Disassociating myself. Lovely times.
 
Yeah my advice would basically be to steer clear from recreational usage of Benzodiazepines.

You play with fire you get burnt.

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You know what sucks? When you've sitting back with a beer jamming on the Harmonica, and decide to learn some cool song by memory. So I smash out Heart of Gold by Neil Young. Happy with my effort, I go to play along to the recording and suddenly realise i'm playing a chromatic harmonica and I need a Diatonic in the key of G so I learnt it tone or so off. Bah. Now I have to transpose it down a major second. Why did I not pick up my diatonic one... so much easier haha.

It's times like these I remember why I mainly focus on guitar haha.
 
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Yeah I'm pretty glad I didn't get deep into benzos or opiates. WD's sound very scary...



Tripman said:
Yeah my advice would basically be to steer clear from recreational usage of Benzodiazepines.

You play with fire you get burnt.

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You know what sucks? When you've sitting back with a beer jamming on the Harmonica, and decide to learn some cool song by memory. So I smash out Heart of Gold by Neil Young. Happy with my effort, I go to play along to the recording and suddenly realise i'm playing a chromatic harmonica and I need a Diatonic in the key of G so I learnt it tone or so off. Bah. Now I have to transpose it down a major second. Why did I not pick up my diatonic one... so much easier haha.

It's times like these I remember why I mainly focus on guitar haha.
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Ha I tried the harmonica once...just like any instrument I've tried I didn't stick to it. Actually the only instrument I wish I would've stuck with surprisngly is the piano =p haha
 
Gah damn, a bit of MXE, 1 Valium tab, gabapentin 300 mg, caffeine 300mg, and 200 mg DXM. I am high as balls! Feels good :D

Prolly not the healthiest mix by any means. I dont recommend anyone do this. I have tolerances to some of these drugs like the valium and only did a tiny bump of mxe.

There was a sale on DXM at the store that I couldnt pass up.
 
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Sup lou!
not much happening here. Trying to type a comprehendible sentence atm. I am off my rocker a bit more than I'd like to be.

Hows your day/night/afternoon?

Just checked my tracker and some of my RCs have reached a sorting facility near me. I am quite excited :D
 
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Hi aveo, I'm fine thanks. Seems to me you took too much drugs, lol. I can't accuse you though, my methylone is obediently waiting for my return ;)

And I plan on buying more JWH-250 too, if it's still in stock.
 
Need...Cigarette...Really...Badly...CAN'T SLEEP!

I was able to quit meth and weed...but quitting cigarette smoking is like quitting breathing to me!
 
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