Sic-why make posts saying your going to heed everybody's advice but then you do it anyway? Makes it hard to help somebody who won't help themselves. I'm not trying to be mean to you, and I know we all at some point do some dumb shit, especially when you are chasing that high, but you got to learn how to take car of yourself. Just listen and follow through this one time and I can almost guarantee I will save you from a hospital visit and a stay in a psyche ward which are not pleasant. Your body is more fragile than you may understand, no matter how resilient it may seem, it can only take so much. You may want to stop pushing it for a while as you are altering your brains chemistry drastically. I know it may not seem like it, but as an old pal who used to frequent bdd quite often has said, others around you will notice the changes before you will and often people don't say anything for a while out of fear hurting a persons feelings or they just can't recognize what's different. Again, I am posting this for yours and others benefit, not try and single you out for anything. We can't make your decisions for you, but you should heed the advice of others who have seen or been in in bad situations and wouldn't want that to happen to someone else. It's hard to watch a train wreck in slow motion, ya know?