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I dont think the patterns themselves have a mystical meaning.. I think that a persons ability to start to see them is mystical.. if we can connect the word 'mystical' to words or concepts like 'awakening' or 'understanding' or 'enlightenment'.
I think people can get arrogant and prideful due to the things they are seeing. Some see their connection to God for the first time. or even see themselves as God.. If there is still ego this
can cause a kind of proud insanity. As high as people are lifted they then fall..
( Pride comes before a fall .. :) )
Often people that get glimpses of Truth through drugs havnt done the work eg lost the ego.
The chemist Baba Ram Dass ( Timothy Learys associate) writes about this in Be Here Now ( a seminal hippy book :)) He took far too much acid after they had started to synthesise it,
saw God/patterns in the universe etc.. cracked up, moved to India came off the drugs and
gained the understanding to get high but stay grounded. Knowing the Love of the universe keeps us stable. THeres no pride in Love.

The most important aspect of love is not in giving or the receiving: it's in the being. When I need love from others, or need to give love to others, I'm caught in an unstable situation. Being in love, rather than giving or taking love, is the only thing that provides stability. Being in love means seeing the Beloved all around me.”
― Ram Dass

God ( the Beloved ) is in all things. It takes a kind of spritual evolution to see that.

There is a pattern to your eating a pork chop yeah.. I dont know what it is though. Im not
omniscient ;)
 
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offtopic - anyone know the name of the drawing of laCsters profile image, the eye with multiple irises?

thinking up tattoo designs :P
 
it is cool to trip out and stuff, but if you are trying to see patterns in things, events, life, it is important to come back to reality for a few weeks in between to re-intigrate that stuff, or else everything becomes synchronous, even when it isn't. Also, you really lose the mystical appeal that way.
 
muvolution said:
it is cool to trip out and stuff, but if you are trying to see patterns in things, events, life, it is important to come back to reality for a few weeks in between to re-intigrate that stuff, or else everything becomes synchronous, even when it isn't. Also, you really lose the mystical appeal that way.
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I tried the whole look for patterns in life thing and all it made me do is hate myself. Now I just look for patterns in myself both positive and negative and try to nip the negative ones in the butt before they get out of control.
 
Shocking: My will power broke and I got the energy back (caffeine finally kicked in). I should not have brought MXE with me today but... I did a small amount, just enough to feel good and it was right on time. A nice lightning storm has broke out around me and its awesome! I am enjoying natures show :) Its also very peaceful. Theres no thunder. Serene. *.*
 
Goddam I want a toaster strudel. Off to get some (less satisfying, now ;) ) food!

How are you, Oxide?
 
It's kind of between amphetamine and MDMA - it's less stimulating and jittery than amps and less empathogenic/entactogenic than MDMA. It's not nearly as serotongeric as MDMA nor is it as neurotoxic as amphetamines or MDMA. It has much less pronounced crash that most stimulants as well. Common doses are typically between 100-200mg but I've seen people satisfied with doses as low as 35-50mg and as high as 200mg+

Also DO NOT snort it, it makes the 2C-series feel like saline spray.
 
Uh oh I'm being a tweaker.

Bad.

But I mean getting slung a half of shards for free... I spose I could turn a profit. Or I could sit here with the glass dick all night...
 
Hah. Take care of yourself Tripman, free drugs doesn't necessarily mean you have to take em! S'good to have you back, how have you been?
 
Oh I've been good Effie. I got a job today, my old work heard I was back in town and rang me up for an interview, bang 3 days a week doing accounts for them again AND with a raise. Pretty stoked, The meth was a congrats present from my dealer lol. Cause it's been 10 months since I've worked.

I'm reckoning I'll sell/give away most of it. It's cheap drinks night here so I'll shout a few mates and get drunk probably.

I'm feeling almost over my PTSD which has made my depression disappear pretty well. I personally put it down to getting the fuck away from Benzo's.

I'm exercising myself to sleep now. Going for like 12 K runs and that.

For the first time in a long while I can say, it's good to be alive.
 
Haha, i'm going to get on the mxe for dessert! Been at the pub, smashed some beer, smoked some shards.

Now home to relax with some mxe.

Anyone IM'd mxe before? I'm curious to try it.
 
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