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^yeah, you're probably fine dosage wise with the valium but are likely looking for the knockout punch which valium doesn't always deliver like a specifically hypnotic benzo like temazepam would do. this goes against harm reduction advice and i don't recommend it to the masses, but i always find that just a couple alcoholic drinks on top of the valium with a decent smoke of weed more than often not does the trick in sending me off to sleepy time. ymmv of course. just be careful with redosing also! it can certainly land you in some hot water.

pally pete said:
Yeah it's a good film, Bradley Cooper and Jennifer Lawrence are great in it, as is Rober De Niro. I especially like there over dinner conversation about, Trazodone, Klonopin etc :)

Btw how well does Ritalin + Diazepam + Oxy combine?
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sweet.

no idea on the mixture from an anecdotal point of view but purely from a drug pig view it looks to be a splendid little concoction that's sure to bring some good vibrations as a result of consumption. i say do it, within reason of course;)

have you used each drug separately beforehand?

very shorty, since i've a fresh bowl o' herb chopped up i'm going to cut a slice of my birthday cake, add a few small scoops of vanilla iced cream and a small serving of custard, chuck on the movie "silver linings playbacks", kick back, relax and enjoy it all! imma hopefully smoke myself to the brink of retardation and the verge of being unable to move as i'm set up on the recliner for the night. i've got my blanket, pillow, computer and headphones with me and most everything else i need within arms length on the table beside me. so i'll be camping out in the lounge tonight on the recliner lol =D hell yeah! just like high school nights up when the parents were away! i'm such a badass mofo!

all the while i've been talking to my dad on the phone keeping tabs on what he's up to and where he's at out of boredom.
 
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no, it wasn't a typo...was having a bad day so was eating handfuls of pills...like I said...I ate a gram of tramaLOL in 8 hours along with 2g of lyrica...
 
and you wonder why you can't get decent pain control from sufficient doses that even I would. every time, without fail from your accounts on here, you get your hands on opiates you abuse them all at once in one huge dose. you're not doing yourself a fucking favour in any facet of opioid use and pain management. you need to split your doses, minimally. simple as. otherwise you're NEVER going to get steady on a PM regime. you need to do something else besides this shit to deal with your psychological problems as well.

i recall you recanting you fucked your ankle in that car accident of, what, 22mg clonazepam. a few days later i see you've typed that you've a fucked ankle but have no recall. all the while saying that much clonazepam affects you. each time you dose like this, something bad happens. it's only a matter of going through your previous posts for evident. you do get fucked up, obviously VERY fucked up beyond remember any of it.

please don't be our next mugz.

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lollsy.
 
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28mg of clonazepam, but I sprained my ankle from a fall. I have an unsteady gait as it is. I do require a cane.

edit: and clonazepam, hydroxyzine, and lyrica aren't opioids. And tramadol is barely one. This coming from the man who shoots up 100mg of morphine at once. Making it equal to 300mg morphine orally and jacking his tolerance. Who are you to judge me?

One other thing. I wasn't trying to deal with my psychological problems with 28mg of clonazepam. I was wanting to get fucked up for once just like everyone on this site tries to do on a daily basis. Perhaps slightly I was trying to fast-forward my life so that I had less time to deal with, but for the most part, I was trying to get fucked up. So back off thinking that you know everything about my motives and intentions. You aren't me, so stop acting like you are inside my head.
 
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you never listen to a word of advice from anyone on here and the tough love shit doesn't work with you so good luck with it all including a proper pain management program the way you've been using what drugs when you do get them for whoever long now, doug. i'm done caring and won't bother anymore.

so i shoot 100mg morphine? i'm prescribed twice that a day. sure i run out early but i've got other scripts i can use or OTC meds if real need be. i don't take drugs to sleep my days away to wake up and do the same. i take them for fun, enhancement. not always because i'm depressed wanting to escape the world.

you're a bright young man. don't limit your potential because of fucking drugs, man. there/s a world out there to SEE and experience in a whole other way like you wouldn't believe until it's happening. anyone can stay home all day and night watching DVR reruns. trust me, i've been there. it's not that cracked up as some dole bludgers make it out to be,

but that's it from me. i won't bother no more, ok :)
 
Doug, I didn't read anything tentram said as judging you.

By default you take everything said to you or about you as a personal attack. A lot of people here care and are trying to help you but all you hear is some assault on your character.

It's in your interest to try to step back and imagine if someone you cared about was saying the things you are; you'd probably say to them many of the same things that people here say to you. You wouldn't be attacking them and people here aren't attacking or judging you. The fact is that some of your actions are making things worse for you and it's not easy for people to witness that and hold their tongue, especially when they care about what happens to you.

I see in a lot of your posts that you do have a degree of awareness that many of your actions are making things worse for you but you either rationalize them by saying things like, "I was wanting to get fucked up for once just like everyone on this site tries to do on a daily basis" or you just say how pathetic you are or post similarly deprecating sentiments. It's always either 'not my fault' or 'I'm so _______ that it doesn't even matter'.

Until you stop that line of thinking, take responsibility and start thinking more positively about yourself, the same things will just repeat over and over again and you'll get the same responses from people like tentram who see what's going on. I don't expect you to be able to just stop this type of stuff, but there comes a point where you have to realize it's a problem and get help to address that.
 
That's the thing. I rarely get drugs for pain; the tolerance just stays. And I don't take drugs to sleep my days away and to wake up and whatever; did you not just read that I used that for recreation? And I've been up for 24 hours, so how am I taking shit to sleep my days away?

And no tough love doesn't work with me because it makes me feel insulted. And I rarely watch DVR shit anymore. I actually have gotten to where I go out now. Not to public places yet, but to friend's houses. I go to school; I make good grades. You don't know what's been going on in my life. Think about how often I've posted recently in comparison to 3 months ago. I'm just saying don't try to tell me what I'm doing in RL when you live half the world away from me.
 
^ perfect example of what I was trying to say.

You simply take everything people say as an attack. You ignore any insight or advice they give and respond defensively. If you step back and try to see it from other perspectives instead of coming from the position that they are attacking you and reading every post from that mindset, you will gain some useful insight.

In fairness, tentram was being a bit combative but that only resulted from trying to help and being met with YOUR combative defensiveness.

Please don't take this post as an attack. I truly think if you didn't approach every post towards you as some kind of attack, you'd likely glean something useful.
 
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and you wonder why you can't get decent pain control from sufficient doses that even I would. every time, without fail from your accounts on here, you get your hands on opiates you abuse them all at once in one huge dose. you're not doing yourself a fucking favour in any facet of opioid use and pain management. you need to split your doses, minimally. simple as. otherwise you're NEVER going to get steady on a PM regime. you need to do something else besides this shit to deal with your psychological problems as well.

i recall you recanting you fucked your ankle in that car accident of, what, 22mg clonazepam. a few days later i see you've typed that you've a fucked ankle but have no recall. all the while saying that much clonazepam affects you. each time you dose like this, something bad happens. it's only a matter of going through your previous posts for evident. you do get fucked up, obviously VERY fucked up beyond remember any of it.

please don't be our next mugz.

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lollsy.
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To be fair most them people were mongs even before they became addicts =D
Jktm said:
28mg of clonazepam, but I sprained my ankle from a fall. I have an unsteady gait as it is. I do require a cane.

edit: and clonazepam, hydroxyzine, and lyrica aren't opioids. And tramadol is barely one. This coming from the man who shoots up 100mg of morphine at once. Making it equal to 300mg morphine orally and jacking his tolerance. Who are you to judge me?
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Jktm said:
One other thing. I wasn't trying to deal with my psychological problems with 28mg of clonazepam. I was wanting to get fucked up for once just like everyone on this site tries to do on a daily basis. Perhaps slightly I was trying to fast-forward my life so that I had less time to deal with, but for the most part, I was trying to get fucked up. So back off thinking that you know everything about my motives and intentions. You aren't me, so stop acting like you are inside my head.
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<SNIP>Clonazepam is about as much use as a chocolate fireguard, regardless of what the equivilancy charts say (0.5mg Clonazepam = 0.5mg Alprazolam = 10mg Diazepam)

<SNIP>
 
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I ended up taking 40mgs of Diazepam last night :P Shouldn't have. Such a mental thing, always thinking i need more for the comedown....

Tsk tsk. Now I must limit myself for the next 2 weeks before refill.
 
lmaooooo @ that pic tentram

well boys, it looks like it is a bupre, DXM, and weed day for me. just took 130mg IR DXM, about to go buy another bottle and take another 200mg. shit my slow ass friend is supposed to roll through with two oxycodone 30mg IR but he is a fuck face. i guess i cant complain because i am not in withdrawal and bupre feels good. if i dont have atleast 60-75mg oxycodone, id rather just have bupre. i think i have said that before? idk i am smoking weed because my fucking doctor pulled down my pants and fucked me over with all my medications. fuck that shit. now i am just rambling, i guess i better get the DXM bottle early in the day so that i dont have to drive fucked up. more bupre up my nose, come to papa. instant opiate relief! i just snored literally .2mg of bupre and i feel better than if i swallowed a whole 30mg roxicodone. fuck i need to get my hands on some opana, dillies, or boy. but i know that i shouldnt. im really "PUSHING" it with fucking around with oxycodone, even if it is oral.

whatup guys?
 
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Mass08 said:
Good Morning BDD. For some reason I've spent the last 2 hours reading about IV DMT lol.
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I love researching drugs. My mom just sat me down saying she was concerned about how much I knew about suboxone, and especially concerned with the fact that I knew about new formulations of other opiates before her doctor. I mean seriously? I'm not supposed to research what goes into my body? And it's not my fault her doctor just waits for them to tell him about a new drug and reads the little insert that comes with it whereas I am actually interested and want to learn about them, fuck.
 
i just injected some morphine. it was splendid! now i might go spend some time in the shower and explore the place underwater! hell yeah, my men! how intensely intense...if you don't mind me saying so, or otherwise. well otherwise i'd have had to say something else. if you know what i mean. and we all know what that means!!! uh-oh someone pooped their pants just a little and needs to have them replaced by the holy catholic arch bishop we have rented out for the evening. see, we don't rent any old priest catholic for your one hour of time on wacky TV but we go garuntee a return if...


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...you have a penis over 5 inches in length when FULLY ERECTED. in other words, A FULL ERECTION, A HARD DICK, A BONER, WEAPON FOR PUSSY DESTRUCTION, RIB TICKLER, THE TRUTH STICK, THE WAND, A PEEEENIS, A COCK WHICH WHEN PROPERLY STIMULATED WHILE ERECTED WILL EJACULATE WHATEVER SPERM THE GUY HAS LEFTOVER IN HIS BALLSACK TANK FROM THE PRECEEDING 45MINS AS HE HAS TO JACK-OFF AND CLEAR HIMSELF OF ANY EXCESS EJACULATE WHICH HE IS STORING IN HIS EJACULATE STORAGE SHED. THINGS COULD GET STICKY, SO USE CAUTIONARY SKILLS, PLEASE, WOMEN, AND A FULL BODY SUIT WITH YOUR VAGINA HEAVILY WRAPPED IN SARAN (CLING) WRAP SO AS TO FURTHER LIMIT YOUR CHANCE OF GETTING PREGNANT! YES, CRAZY IKNOW BUT IT HAS PROVEN TO HAPPEN YEAR AFTER YEAR WITH THE OLD CUNTS OF BASTARDS!!!
 
wow I gotta pretty smashed at hooters last night and then drove 3 hours to the beach hahahaha wtf!?!?!? anyways I'm now just gettin back from the beach where iv Been smokin some blunts and drinkin some tasty ass Budweisers! Fuck yeah America.
anyways Tentram from what I was reading on the hooters
menu they do have location in Australia!!! what city exactly I'm not sure (I was pretty smashed) but yeahhh time
for me to chill the fuck out all weekend. I have some weed and beer and no other drugs for the rest of the weekend. (literally I have no chances of scoring drugs down here because I have been tryin for years and literally can't get anything!!! not even pot it's kinda sad.) but maybe it's for the best. but damn would atleast a benzo feel pretty
nice right now... (or anything really literally anything) fuck I'm
thinkin about trippin dxm because I can't get anything else lmao. (I fucking hate dxm)

forgot to mention my family owns a beach house at Atlantic
beach and wer on vacation there for Easter or whatever. hence why the struggle of
findin drugs and driving and all that
 
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