Lol. Is that really the room homoerectuses are in?
wtf lame bro
why u no respond to my aimz
Haha great minds think alike. On the bright side, the kid who owes me monies & tried to get me kicked outta my house just hit me up on fasebook. Me being the conniving fucker I am played it cool, said we should hang out. I guess his moronic dumbass doesn't realise I know he narc'ed on me...
He said totally & now I can't fucking wait to lay waste to his ass. Time to steal that 18" piece of scrap pipe from work & possibly get another set of brass knuckles. Damned cops took all my weapons awhile back.
damn i remember the days when i was in rehab, getting high was such afucking chore!! i hated my life sober; i dont understand why we have to be sober? Everyone has problems, being an addict is not that bad of a problem if you play your cards right !! lol.... or not even being an addict, but you could smoke weed and still be happy. happiness is a tricky hing because it is our perception of reality; humans connect past experiences, analyzed and form attitudes and emotions based on passed experiences.
you will get through it bob! i know it sucks, but life will get better!! dont say living in a halfway house sneaking around and getting high is fun, trying to dodge and scheme to get high added so much stress and anxiety to my life, i lost all my confidence because people were telling me what i was doing was wrong, but i couldn't grasp how being sober makes someone a better person. in my experience in multiple rehabs, inpatient and outpatient and AA/NA meetings brought sorrow to my life, not to mention i went ot a wildeerness therapy which was one of the worst experiences of my life!!
on the flip side, i am getting high sometimes, but most days i am just getting by with chipping. the only bad days are well, i havent had but 1-3 bad days since i started school 2-3weeks ago. being a functional addict has made me THE HAPPIEST I HAVE BEEN IN MY ENTIRE LIFE!
good luck man, i know you can do it. if i plowed through it and kept my using to a very low minimun, you can definitely pul yourself up by your boot staps easily!! stay focus and dont drink to the point of getting soo fucked up, don't be stupid and be high around them. plan out when you are getting high and NEVER get high with \someone in rehab/halfway house! i sold this girl heroin and the fuckig idiot did lock the bathroom door and after 15-20mins of being in the shower, her roommate came to see what was up because she was an ex heroin addict. so she knocks on the door, the girl like freaks, and then the drug-couselor or therapist whatever you want to call it turns the handle and the door opens and she has like all her paraphernalia oun like the spoon and everything. a belt was around her arm, the needle was on the floor, and blood/track marks because she was used the same needle over 10 times!!!! and guess what, she fucking told on me!!!
whatever, it didnt matter that much because me and my friend both got kicked out that day (i forgot why he got kicked out) but anyways his mom bought him an appartment because she didnt know his mom left him to his grandma and the grandma was senial as fuck hahahahah she payed rent and utilities for a 1 bed rooom apartment. and that was when heroin came into play hahahah but that is different story, way before i got on subs
Foolishly, IV'd 30mg of zolp... oooppss terrible for the veins, I know. Such a strange, cokesque, hypnotic rush with subtle euphoria. Eases my IV heroin WDs and cravings for a shot of some potent dope.
Glad I saved my 20mg of diazepam for tomorrow though. Got plenty of Bali kratom and Thai with "full-spectrum kratom powder & extract" Have a tiny little rock of heroin (~0.2 g lol) just to aid some of the impending doom I tend to get in the early AM if I don't have a nice shot of heroin to make and use. Should I dose rather large on the kratom? Gonna wash it down with OJ for potentiation. Take the 20mg of diazepam I have left and spread out through the day or one big sublingual morning or afternoon dose?
first of all, BUY LOPERAMIDE!!!!!!!! immodium is the shit for WD, seriously i know from perspanl experience.
defintiely do the heroin in the morning, wait 8-12hrs so you are starting to go into minor WD, then take 7-10gram dose of kratom. i would just use 10mg spread out the day, take 5 with your first dose of heron, and then your dose of kratom. you definitely want to conserve at this point, you are not going to feel 100% better. you will be feeling like shit still but the valium will take a slight edge off of the WD. taking more won;t really do much and it would be much more useful is you used it the day after.
same with the kratom, you probably wont feel 100%, but you will be able to actually go out and do shit. you just have to accept that you are going to feel like shit. boy is some powerful shit man!!
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