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  • BDD Moderators: Keif’ Richards | negrogesic

BDD Social and Info Booth vs 32 - I Stopped Drugs, Only While I'm Asleep.

i hear ya on that maniac. it will be sweeter at least since you had to wait!

haha thats rough baby, i hate when "dealers" fall off the globe for a few days since they do too many of their drugs. how come oxy would panic you? it has an anti anxiety effect for me, albeit not on the same level as benzos.

welcome to BL Dr :)


I had a really bad day riddled with massive amounts of anxiety attacks. 1mg of ativan got me through the morning at work but i was pretty much stuck in this never ending panic attack all afternoon. thank fucking god that my friend hooked me with another ativan and some clonazepam to try for tomorrow.
Ive decided i can absolutely not do any meth or coke for that matter for a while, its been bringing out some sort of anxiety disorder which has now got a power level over 9000.

have a good night bdd
 
yers I smoked some high grade marijuana and drank a 12 pack a beer so I gotta buzz goin on. so not to bad tonight. and yeah speed and worth much Noways bruh! then again I'm biased towards opiates an benzos lulz. but yeah keep it easy and give that sped out brain a break.
 
So I somehow went from days on end of everyone telling me they were dry, to everyone coming through at once. I'm working on creating an emergency stash, or maybe at least a few days worth of a variety of opiates for after next drug test. I always try to score the day of my test but then shit doesn't work out and I get so mad. And if I try to get stuff in advance, I end up doing it. So hopefully if I put a little bit aside now when I'm flush with product it won't serve as as much of a temptation.

I did a bundle today somefuckinghow. The bags were small but damn they were fucking good. I did 1 to start, and didn't feel much. So I loaded the other 4 I had at that point up, thinking I could handle 4x the tiny effect from the first one. Wrong! I was totally overwhelmed and surprised I didn't fall out, which just fucked up the whole experience for me. So of course I got get another 5 bags and do them in two separate shots which felt damn near perfect.

Anyways I'm fucking high, and my phone is such a piece of shit it takes forever to type because it keeps freezing up, which gives me enough time to nod out and then I wake up with a jumbled mess of a sentence on the screen.


Also,
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this is so cool! well done.
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...What?
 
Anyways I'm fucking high ... my phone ... time to nod out and then I wake up with a jumbled mess of a sentence on the screen.
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Always the best, laying in bed, getting coherent enough to text, nod out, come to with gibberish everywhere, erase & type, nod, come to, erase gibberish, repeat.

I'm finally really starting to lose the desire for dope--thank God :D. Life off the shit is just so much better than the shit associated with dope; the scuzzy fuck junkys, waiting, etc.

In other news, one of my co-workers unknowingly drove home on his moped with a sticker saying, "Honk at Me for a BLOWJOB :)" lol. How's BDD today? I got the next 3 days off, should be moving into a house with one of my best friends this weekend & will see The xx & Grizzly Bear Saturday night. Fuck yeah :D.

P.S. It's alcohol time!
 
got to take my half day today so i dont have to work at my second job and i got off at 10, which i great cuz i didnt have a day off. i had to work 10-2 yesterday at my second job and sunday is my only day off from both jobs.

did some sub before work and just a little bit ago and about finished my hash. smoked some good bud, and plugged another 1mg of sub. im gettin a sub pull thats owed to me tommorrow i think. im gonna try to just do 1 mg at a time and see where that gets me cuz that 1mg i plugged a little bit ago has me feeling REALLY nice.

im probaly gonna take a nice nap in a few hours. sure is nice chilling in the air condition while i should be working in the heat. im glad my boss is flexible with my schedule and basically lets me take my half day whenever i want/have to. usually its on thursday.
 
Man I haven't been on in a while. I dunno why, completely forgot about posting on forums. Just sidetracked I guess...

Got an ecstacy pill today. Friend told me it's some pretty good shit, so here is to hoping it's real MDMA. I think I'm going to plug it, been taking adderall way to often to try and eat it and possibly have a weak effect.

So what's up guys ?
 
Woke up to a ~0.25mg shot of bupe I had made the night before. A few bowls to put my mind at ease. Bupe rarely has me feeling 100% despite the potency (bupe is like ~30x stronger than morphine, I do belive, but the analgesic properties are much weaker than morphine).

Just ran to the west side of my city with my dude. Picked up about a gram of some fire dope for an even better ticket! Just booted 300mgs of heroin. My nose is so itchy! Fuck!

Haven't been on BL in a minute
 
That feel when you realise you blacked out before passing out & look online to pick up the pieces...

Woke up at 7:30 still buzzed... Time to walk to the store for some more 40zzzz
 
Lol bobby. I can hardly drink anymore, I drank soooo heavily for a few years and just primed my brain to blackout constantly. That combined with stomach ulcers that make drinking fucking painful and the fact that I get hangovers to the point I can't sit up without puking and I rarely drink more than a six pack of beer or bottle of wine or so.

Also re:your last post on the social, that's really great you're seeing life without dope as a positive experience. I think I'm finally nearing the end of my run, I've been basically too high to function for the past day or so (time seems to morph when you're nodding constantly but unable to get a wink of sleep) and although I still feel that overpowering urge to redose, I'm not enjoying myself the way I used to. I never thought I'd see the day where I didn't want dope, I hear about people who get clean and have turned down free heroin or help a friend hit a vein and that just seemed so completely unrealistic to me. I'm still nowhere near the point I could turn down free dope but I guess you could say I see a faint, tiny, flickering light at the end of the tunnel which might mean there's hope for me after all.

Ah, none of that probably makes any sense, I'm still messed up. I wish I could just finish my binge alone in my room but everyone keeps texting me and people are over right now and I can't disappear off the face of the planet for longer than an hour or two or my bf will flip out. Basically I've been on edge the past two days waiting for him to want me to come over because he's been off work, but he's hardly spoken to me. But I've still felt compelled to text him legthy dumb dope fueled messages, and it's really pissing me off. I wish I could just know for sure no one expected to hear from me for the next 24 hours and I could just relax.

Fuck I can't shut up. I'm just gonna end this here and hopefully not embarrass myself too badly.
 
haha bob ive done that so many fucking times!

im jealllous of all this heroin and good oupiates you guys are getting. i think its time for me to start looking around so i have something to keep my mind off of the blaow and speed cravingsd.

i am having a fucking badday. i honestly just wish i could leave this place and never look back. took just under a mg of clonazepam and a 3.5d aps of reaaly strong fi ghb.
 
Aww tsof I'd type a long reply. but I'm still drinking. So I'll paraphrase: Shit sucks about your BF, but at least you have someone at the end of the day :|.

^Haha I woke up & all of a sudden it's 5 hours later, my laptop has been put away, my speakers are off my bed & turned off!, so clearly my drunk ass intended to go to sleep. I am so impressed & disappoint. OTOH for the first time I had pizza & beer tonight. I am in love <3.
 
Ahhhhhh wassup mudda fuckaaas!

So i read yall been missing me? Well guess what? Im here right now for a while while i drink whisky and check on the roast lamb over the next hour n forty five, that dad just threw in the oven. Bit of an early dinner but im poly-fidged up in about 5 different ways in a downers mixture apart grom the rolling tobacco and caffeine.

IV morphine, oral oxy n val, whisky, weed, coffee and, of corse, freshly rolled cigarettes. Heavenly. And im pain free for the first time in 5 days. I had a week off the steel before this morning as well. Good effort for me i think. I was happy with it.
 
Don't fuck around,





I wish I could say what I think without being a totall asshole about it, well geuss wahjt iM about to be more drujnk in the nesxt fewq monsh
 
Nothing bad about being a straight shhoter man. Im a bit that way myself but know the feel of coming across as a total cunt and asshole with how frank and blunt i can be. But seriousky it keaves no room for misunderstanding and some oeople just misconstrue the straight truth when theyre used to cushioning the shiyte.

Nawadimean if dat makes just an inkling of sense to you booboo¿
 
What's up tent? Glad your back.

Plugged 2mgs if sub. Suboxone has treated me pretty well lately. I'm getting a 8mg pill when I get to work to. Monday it should be the real deal tho

Man I feel pretty damn good right about meow
 
Thanks smokey :) good to be back around harassingvyou folk :P

how ya going yourself, dear? Apart from feeling oretty good nao.

Question time! Should i plug a further 100mg of oxycodone. Its really for the shits n gigglz n see how high i can get before falkung face down onto my desk or bed. Wherever i happen to be...
 
You typing quality has already started to degrade a bit. If you're positive you'll wake up breathing go for it, but kinda see it being a waste lol. I'm not gonna tell you what to/not to take though - I'm not your momma. ;)
 
Yea I also see it as a waste, taking more opiates when already high usually just results in more sedation for me and then I wake up disappointed a few hours later :p

My friend's wife has left town, so now we can party like when we were kids again :D It's time for me to go pick up some weed, ketamine and some good quality #3 dope.
 
Eh i get lazy correcting my spelling andcshit from my fat fingers on this touch pad dougy baby. In all good, not nodding hard lije my dad after i gave him 20mg valiuum n a 100mg morphine tablet.

Hes looking pretty fucked up too lol.

Thanks for the concerns but i know ill be fine because im not pushing boundaries any further than my usual high dosing range.

I just went ahead and prepped 100mg oxy in 2 * 5ml barrels and stuck em straight up the ringer, penetrated back n forth for a while before squirtin em right up thurr. Yeow. Water was extremeky cold out the tap so gave me a little shiver as i felt ut filling my anal oassage. Felt pretty good/nice and thats no lie lol.
 
What's the rectal BA in comparison to oral? I know oral is already really high. Just don't see why plug over IV for onset when you already do that with pills (not trying to advocate it at all, just wanting to understand the reasoning behind it). I just have an aversion to sticking things there lol. Also, since you're experienced with it, does a 3ml rig work for 60/100mg morphine tablets (only have experience with slamming bupe/crystal/shake-n-bake anhydrous)? I just like to use a bit more water than necessary. Less loss if some is missed (which has only happened to me once, and I didn't hit myself), and ensures more fluid solution - would rather not inject goop.

edit: and I wish I could feel 20mg of diaz with 100mg of morphine, haha.
 
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