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  • BDD Moderators: Keif’ Richards

BDD Social and Info Booth vs 32 - I Stopped Drugs, Only While I'm Asleep.

Restaurant life is bonkers, im actually really happy i dont cook anymore (for a living) and i love cooking.

oh my god. Monday just crept out of nowhere and kicked my ass so hard today. got a few lines of blow to keep me from snapping till i can get some more, or just a nice big bag of ice. God damn bank fucked up an automatic billing thing and im going to be fucking pissed if it isnt fixed before they close tonight. grumble grumble.
 
loool so today i got a fake check in the mail today for almost $4000!!! i was about to cash it and then i was like wait.... loll. so i did some googling and i called the company and they had no clue, someone scammed them.

for being an outstanding citizen they are going to send me some money in the mail once i send the check back to them :) woohooo!! free coke money hahahah
 
@dyno- I've worked in food for 8 years till I got the golf course job last spring. It will never be my first line of work ever again. I hate cooking for 65 hours every week.

@lac- I work at a little mom and pop pizza place outside of ocean city md. I've quit once and been fired and now they asked me back after firing me. I've been here for 4.5 years starting since 2005 when I moved here. It sucks but its money. I got 115 hours between both jobs for 2 weeks of pay. Can't wait till Friday

Just smoked a bowl after a dinner rush and this Marlboro is mighty delicious as well.
 
Still keeping up my Adderall use. Pretty much daily as usual. Actually had to use a 20mg XR plugged just to go to work yesterday because I only got 3 hours of sleep at most, then had to do a bunch of work at home I wasn't expecting (thus woken up early....)

Got some B6, taking that and magnesium daily to help with my Adderall use.

I have a pretty awesome vaporizer now, not sure if I mentioned. It's pretty much a mini volcano. Even has a remote to power it on/off, turn the fan setting to 0/1/2/3, turn the light on the bottom on/off, some direct temperature buttons, +/- temp, and also to set the timer.

I like it. I even have the attachment for using a bag to fill with vapor instead of the 360 swivel whip. I prefer the whip though.

I don't smoke often though really... so my use of it is occasional.
 
Need a remote for the vape? That thing must be made for the lazy stoners lmao

Learned how to mow greens at work. I already know how to mow tees and fairways, pretty much the same technique. Pretty high off alot of weed, 15mgs of oxy, and some cigs lol

No work tonight. Thank fucking god.
 
Thank you, some people. I'm sorry to hear that, other people. I'm glad to hear that, even more other people.
 
Day two. No subs. Not bad. Yet. Jumped off after 1 wk and tapered down to .25. Getting some kpins after work for sleepy times. Hope this is mostly pain free
 
Lmao @ vape with remote. Guess it's for those "fuck I smoked too much n can't move now" moments. Ahh, the good days.

Just got home & had a special delivery of some opies. Woot woot! Nothin like that, perfect timin n drug dealin...what more could u want?

N gettin some xanny bars tonight ;) I'm bout to b on one lol.

ttw - good job!! Keep it up & u'll get there. Glad it's goin smoothly so far. Hope it stays that way.
 
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I cant wait for 5:30 to get here, im exausted. I worked from 8:30 am saturday to 2:30 am sunday night/ monday mornin, had to b back at 11:30 am monday, n was here till 530. Did it mostly sober too. I was good till bout 6am sunday, but then i was outta go, n it wore off. Havent caught up on my sleep yet. Went to bed around 8 last night, n 11 got here way too fast n i sho didnt wanna get up. Now im tryna decide if i wanna go home n go to bed or if i wanna try to sweet talk a front out of my connect.
 
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fuck that. i couldnt do that.

acquired 3 15s a little while ago. i plugged 3/4 of one and chugged some bacardi gold and smoked some bud, i feel nice af. tommorrow should be nice to, at least in the morning. as soon as i wake up imma smoke a bowl and plug 18.75 mgs of oxy (weird number, i know) and i already got coffee ready to be made. it should be a nice morning.

im getting 20 15s on sunday to. im gonna take off monday so i dont have to worry about my boss at my second job peeping my eyes all night. ill still have 5 days on the next check which is good enough for me. i want 6 but i can do a day off, especially on a monday. i just wanna nod all night, especially since ill just be picking up on sunday.

i gotta go to bed soon but i feel to good so i think ill stay up for a little bit.
 
Bob, finally just insufflating my zolp, not IVing that white sludge of a solution haha.

20mg zolp + 15mg mirtazapine ( I don't mind the heavy, sleepy feeling and the heavy sleep it induces... and one helluva appetite). Time to pack a bowl I suppose.

*OH! and got .2 of some free testers of this cement-white, chunky ECP from my new dealer, straight FLAME. Obviously, he's the man. Gets on with REAL molly, good Lucy, dope, and medical-grade buds. So I guess I'm loading up with hypnotics so that my ass can wake up and do that shot... I'm pathetic
 
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laccy babe. sweety pie. i just finished my lunch so gonna have a cig n coffee n likely then head into better computer access. ill pm you again shortyly brother.

hows bdd people going?

ive had a couple of exvrutiating days of pretty constant pain and one decent.nights sleep last night. was so glad when the xr morph n oxy kicked in to eliminate most my oain then the valium loosened me up and im able to move freely again.

no abusing if my meds today! id normally come home ready to shoot the morphine n eat a strip of valium. im getting things under control again which is nice. oh n i get 180 * 30mg codeine tablets again as my dic doesnt want to.raise my ir oxy dose. im on 3 painkillers and one benzi. feels ridiculous, even looks ridiculous (specially to the pharmacists) but ive always found 2 or 3 (as it is now) painkillers to be more effective rather than one large xr morphine dose n a higher ur oxy for breakthrough. 9 fycking boxes of codeine is what i walk out with haha. ridiculous right?
 
^That's good to hear things are turning better for ya :). Crazzy fucken Ossies...


lol nice HYH, I've such bad, hazy memories of compulsively banging Ambiens @___@
 
heh thanks man. i figured with all the extra codeine now and popping one or two 5mg ir oxts when the pain gets excrutiating will help transitioning back to oral dosing. the valium on top certainly works its magic as needed.

back to the weekend blitz i guess for when i get a tingle. or just a codrine cwe with a small shot if morph or a small mouthfull of oxy for a little lift. things have been getting out of control and with a few goals down and the few im pusuing now really holds no room to be booting everyday ruining my veins amd destroying my tolerance.

how you been mate? whats crackin in NC at the moment brudda?
 
Sounds like a good plan, mate :).

I've been doing pretty well, had the week blur on account of mixing downers & such, but that's to be expected. I'm about to pick up VIP tix for this festival :D
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