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What's up all? Had a rough ass morning.. woke up beyond sick.. just hurting real bad. I almost couldn't even make the drive to go get what I needed but thank god I pulled it together otherwise I'd be in the fetal position puking my guts out on my bed. :\

Oh the wonders of being strung out.

Hope everyone else's day is going better.

Damn man -_- glad u feelin betta...
 
What's up all? Had a rough ass morning.. woke up beyond sick.. just hurting real bad. I almost couldn't even make the drive to go get what I needed but thank god I pulled it together otherwise I'd be in the fetal position puking my guts out on my bed. :\

Oh the wonders of being strung out.

Hope everyone else's day is going better.

Ouch. Withdrawals? :(
 
Damn Scag, isn't it a fun life we choose for ourselves? Sounds like a lot of you guys had a semi-rough weekend, sorry to hear that. I had a decent day today, I got way higher than I should have last night and thought I was going to OD so I never went to sleep. Staying up all night tossing and turning lead me to feeling like complete shit this morning. I did a shot this morning thinking it would make me feel better but it honestly just made me feel even more nauseous. Once I started feeling better I just spent the day applying to places trying to find a job. Fingers crossed!!

I'm glad you aren't crouched over in the fetal position Scag...progress! :P
 
Depends. But judging by how high it seemed to have gotten you, it definitely won't be fun.

You get used to them though, so it's hard to say.

Mmmm...bombed some tramadol powder earlier and just redosed another 70mg. Feeling niiice :)
 
what up, all. glad you were able to cop before it got too bad, Mr. Scag. hope it won't be too bad, DonMakaveli.

man, i was down to .25 mgs of kpin a day. getting to that dose was nothing easy. and then in the last few weeks, i ruined months of hard work. an upcoming drug test has turned me back to things i get scripts for, and now i'm back at my 2-3 mgs of kpin plus 1-2 mgs of ativan a day, all washed down with plenty of liquor. just fucking sucks. will have to start all over again. and i haven't even started getting back on track and likely won't until i can start smoking weed and chipping with opiates again. is my own weakass fault, but there is no one in my life that i can tell, so i'm spilling here in BDD.
 
<3 <3 <3

Use these emotions as fuel for the next time. You'll be able to do it, you just can't expect to get it right the first times.

I know how it is not being able to talk to anyone about it. It sucks, doesn't it?
 
sorry, Don. i feel for those with a taste for amphetamines. a harsh drug. assuming you don't bail out with benzos, you should check out ASMR videos. i just found out about them last night. it's kinda silly, but it might help a little. they vary widely in quality, and some of them can feel a little seedy, but even trying to find a good one can help take your mind off things.

thanks, Venrak. nice to share with those know first hand. i don't wanna worry the people in my life that care about me, and i don't wanna tell a professional because i have it so easy getting what i want right now. i just so badly don't want to be physically dependent anymore. and of course this isn't my first time fucking up my taper. i was just really, really close this time. and usually i lose it over a longer period of time. i hopped up from .25mg to back where i started from so quick. depressing to lose months of progress in just a couple weeks.
 
You're right, it is rough and it does a number on your drive and willpower. I think that is the worst part. You actually know how much time it took you go get there, and it feels like you wasted all that time...But you didn't. Every day in life is a new experience. Different things were seen, felt, and thought. Just have to learn from them...
 
Aight well I thought I could tough out this Amp crash but after 130mg im about to hit a brick wall head on. lol fun
if i could have only one what would be better an opiate or benzo ?
 
What's up all? Had a rough ass morning.. woke up beyond sick.. just hurting real bad. I almost couldn't even make the drive to go get what I needed but thank god I pulled it together otherwise I'd be in the fetal position puking my guts out on my bed. :\

Oh the wonders of being strung out.

Hope everyone else's day is going better.

that sucks, brah. i'm so damn lucky being a legitimate pharmaceutical junkie apart from the times were i run out early.

getting my morning fix is as easy as rolling to one side of my bed to reach on the bedside table and pop out a morphine pill or two to wash the coating from then getting my spoon, crushing it, mixing, filtering, swabbing and then injecting. voila! it's all over and done within a few minutes, literally. it's crazy quick and fantastic for those days you wake up feeling a little off.

woke up to a lovely 200mg shot and gobbled down 15mg valium with my coffee and cigarette which i religiously have after my shot of morphine. it's the icing on the cake and ties everything in together. ua dig? ohhh yeah.

so what's everyone's plans today/tonight?

i've got more movie watching to do while i smoke a few little pipes of pot here and there. it's another lovely rainy, overcast day so perfect weather for being a vegetable, innit.
 
Yeah I love a fat shot + coffee in the morning, it's a beautiful thing. I think tonight I'm going to watch the series premiere of Red Widow and see how that is. Got a bunch of heroin left but I'm going to try and conserve and not go hard like I did last night.

DonMakaveli I would choose the opiate personally, but I never do stimulants I just love opiates haha and benzo's are so dull and just leave so much to be desired. I'd ask the more experienced psychonauts which is better for a harsh comedown.
 
Yeah I love a fat shot + coffee in the morning, it's a beautiful thing. I think tonight I'm going to watch the series premiere of Red Widow and see how that is. Got a bunch of heroin left but I'm going to try and conserve and not go hard like I did last night.

DonMakaveli I would choose the opiate personally, but I never do stimulants I just love opiates haha and benzo's are so dull and just leave so much to be desired. I'd ask the more experienced psychonauts which is better for a harsh comedown.

Yeah, fareal. lol
 
ferreal for real my nuggas.

waking up to a shot of morphine, fresh pot of coffee, freshly rolled cigarette, having an awesome dump then a bowl of fruit salad has been my routine for the last week and it's been splendid. i'm not even going to run out of meds early this fortnight!

FUCKYEAH.JPEG
 
ferreal for real my nuggas.

waking up to a shot of morphine, fresh pot of coffee, freshly rolled cigarette, having an awesome dump then a bowl of fruit salad has been my routine for the last week and it's been splendid. i'm not even going to run out of meds early this fortnight!

FUCKYEAH.JPEG

Sounds like Win.
 
THAT'S WHAT'S UP, MANG!

i'm only just now putting Argo on to watch. i'm smashing a few pipes of weed while it begins and have a coffee and cigarette prepared to hammer down after the weed. i just ate me a couple of fresh carrots and watermelon for lunch and they were both deliciously crisp and yummy for my tummy. i love chewing on carrots as if they were an apple, the same as with those little mini capsicums that come in red, yellow and green - they're so sweet and the bees knees.

don't know what i'm making for dinner yet but no doubt i'll have the skills to throw something together out of nothing. until that time imma just gonna smoke drugs and watch entertaining movies and televisions shows, perhaps a little pornography to see if there's still some life down below. i haven't masturbated in near 3 fucking weeks if you can believe that. i wouldn't joke about something like this. i might need to consider the happy ending massages that are being advertised in the local classifieds and get myself a hooker who's a junk addict herself so she's able to deal with me and doesn't mind getting paid for almost nothing but a shining 15 seconds! if ya'll know what i mean and i think ya'll do so keep the laughing behind my back and out of site. bunch of insensitive pricks :(

a guy just wants to get a load off with some good sex involved. is it really too much to ask for? well apparently so :( !

talk to you bunch of fuck asses before you all know it! ohhhhhh yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaahhhhhhh!

Yippee ki-yay, motherfuckers!

ps - oh, i just ate 20mg valium too.
 
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Hey guys, last few days have sucked. My granddfather had a heart attack over the weekend and they're doing surgery tomorrow morning. :(

I am taking xanax tonight and smoking a lot of pot. About to take some more xanax...will bring me up to 5mg for the night.

Just so worried about this shit and needed an escape I guess. Want a beer but not sure if I will...probaly not a good idea anyway.

Wishing y'all the best.
 
Hey guys, last few days have sucked. My granddfather had a heart attack over the weekend and they're doing surgery tomorrow morning. :(

I am taking xanax tonight and smoking a lot of pot. About to take some more xanax...will bring me up to 5mg for the night.

Just so worried about this shit and needed an escape I guess. Want a beer but not sure if I will...probaly not a good idea anyway.

Wishing y'all the best.

Aww, That's too bad man. Hope everything goes well with the surgery.

And no, fuck the beer. That's a lot of alprazolam as it is.

Chin up dude, it gets better.



THAT'S WHAT'S UP, MANG!

i'm only just now putting Argo on to watch. i'm smashing a few pipes of weed while it begins and have a coffee and cigarette prepared to hammer down after the weed. i just ate me a couple of fresh carrots and watermelon for lunch and they were both deliciously crisp and yummy for my tummy. i love chewing on carrots as if they were an apple, the same as with those little mini capsicums that come in red, yellow and green - they're so sweet and the bees knees.

don't know what i'm making for dinner yet but no doubt i'll have the skills to throw something together out of nothing. until that time imma just gonna smoke drugs and watch entertaining movies and televisions shows, perhaps a little pornography to see if there's still some life down below. i haven't masturbated in near 3 fucking weeks if you can believe that. i wouldn't joke about something like this. i might need to consider the happy ending massages that are being advertised in the local classifieds and get myself a hooker who's a junk addict herself so she's able to deal with me and doesn't mind getting paid for almost nothing but a shining 15 seconds! if ya'll know what i mean and i think ya'll do so keep the laughing behind my back and out of site. bunch of insensitive pricks :(

a guy just wants to get a load off with some good sex involved. is it really too much to ask for? well apparently so :( !

talk to you bunch of fuck asses before you all know it! ohhhhhh yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaahhhhhhh!

Yippee ki-yay, motherfuckers!

ps - oh, i just ate 20mg valium too.


Haha I don't like eating raw carrot...well, I don't hate it, I will eat it but it really isn't my favourite.

Smokin some JWH-210, wondering about dosing a bit more tramadol. It:s 01h20 though....
 
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