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BDD Social and Info Booth Vs 28 - my dealer told me that this was the last time

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Haha yes tentry, plus some ingested 4-FA :)

Managed to sleep a bit, food and plenty of fluid - all is good, all is great ;)
 
and 4-fa? man, i was quite disappointed with that chemical. i don't know why i bothered ordering a couple grams of it after i was sent a free sample. was pretty lame really. i could see myself being motivated to study with the ability to concentrate on lower doses but recreational wise it didn't do it for me.

take it easy on the stim combo, bud - and the masturbating;) good to hear you've had sleep and eaten though. some vital shit right there, brah!
 
synthetix said:
Well you're both lucky bastards. I lost two weeks of my life which I'm still unsure exactly what happened within then, apart from shitting myself in a restaurant and smoking crack. Fuckin phenazepam, it was fake diazepam
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Agreed.

For me Phenazepam is like the scum of Benzodiazepines.
 
Yeah Tentry, 4-FA is quite mild, but I like it for working and it's not a bad stim.

Give me 2-FA over it any day though, no questions asked ;)
 
I like 4-FA, it was a little like MDMA but weaker and I mixed it with my dose of speed. Was pretty pleasant for me, dunno.

Just waking up now, 12.30am ahhhh. It's sunny here today, for the first time in weeks.
 
synthetix said:
Not too bad Pete, and yourself? Still managing to stay sober? You're doing well bud keep it up.
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Hah! I was actually asking if you were in the U.K with regards to your weather observation... It's been cold and icey/snowy here for the past 2 weeks and only today do we finally have sun.

Anyways im ok thanks, still sober but struggling! The desire to use is almost uncontrollable, i'm still suffering remnants of Physical withdrawal aswell (Headaches, sever night sweats, restlessness etc etc) I'm running through my head reasons and excuses to use, i fucking hate being an addict!!!

How are you?

IIRC are you still without Oxy?
 
Ah right yeah pal I'm London myself :) where abouts are you from? It was sunny this morning for the first time in weeks! Was a beautiful morning.

Man just remember that those problems will go away in time. Don't make excuses you don't need them. You can make it though it this time, just hang in there and don't give up.

Alas I'm not without oxy luckily. Had a week without and was maintaining on codeine but I've finally got my hands in some OC120s, about 100 OC 20s and 56 OC 80s. I'm sorted for a long while now and very happy and content. Was such a damn problem to get ahold of stuff, and I've finally found relief. I seriously want to get off the gear but I've postponed until march.
 
o what to do what to do what to do. I recently started sub maintenance (like 2-3 weeks ago). ive got myself dwon to about 3mgs a day but i dont feel it, im just going crazy from the craving. Ive been snorting ezipiclone(lunesta) for god sakes just because i want a buzz! Im out of soma's those helped a bunch but i need more all i can get now is alprolazam but i hate that stuff. I want a freaking opaite buzz, any suggestions? nothing is off the table lol (im on sub for maintenance i obviously dont want to quit... yet.
whoops nevermind i forgot that suggesting drugs to do is not allowed.
any suggestioins on the cravings?
 
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Hi pally... :)
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Hello there debaser :) How are you?
synthetix said:
Ah right yeah pal I'm London myself :) where abouts are you from? It was sunny this morning for the first time in weeks! Was a beautiful morning.

Man just remember that those problems will go away in time. Don't make excuses you don't need them. You can make it though it this time, just hang in there and don't give up.

Alas I'm not without oxy luckily. Had a week without and was maintaining on codeine but I've finally got my hands in some OC120s, about 100 OC 20s and 56 OC 80s. I'm sorted for a long while now and very happy and content. Was such a damn problem to get ahold of stuff, and I've finally found relief. I seriously want to get off the gear but I've postponed until march.
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I'm from Coventry.

I've been out and about today and talking to people who i would usually associate with my drug taking, yet i've managed to stay sober thus far.. Still got the urge but i know the feelings well as i've been down this path before so i sought of now what to expect.

Sounds like you have got yourself looked after for a while with regards to the Oxy :o :D If i'm honest, reading what you have does make me a tiny bit envious but i really don't want to go back there.. I was talking to one of my friends last night and i was saying i wish i had some sort of physical reminder of how awful the addiction & withdrawal feels so that i could jog my memory into having those horrific feelings and therefore put me off regressing.

Like you say time is the best thing for me but the flip side of the coin is that i tend to forget the pain of withdrawal and i begin to believe 'it's not that bad'

Best of luck to you when you decide to quit, i don't mean to be stating the obvious but the longer you leave it, the deeper you will get and the harder it will be to knock it on the head, i know you've been into your Opiates for some years (6 years IIRC?) So you may be thinking ' 2 more Months won't make much difference'
 
yeah i've got myself sorted for oxy for a little while now thank god. it shouldn't make you envious - it set me back a small fortune i could have done so much with. you need to stay away from those people that are normally associated with drug use if you really want to quit. unfortunately for me, me myself and I are the only people that are associated with drug use. i love to use on my own, not with others.

i've been off and on opis for 6 years, and i know it gets harder and harder. i just don't want this high to end. i'm giving myself until march as a realistic goal because quitting now would be impossible for me.
 
I just spent way too much time making my new avatar. I do like it at the least though.
 
What do you mean, Sicc? ... Want to harm yourself deliberately? Or am I totally out of tune? 8o

How are we today, my debasers? Debasing? Good? Ok :)

DUB is the answer...

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What up everyone? My breakfast of champions was 0.5mg bupre, 30mg vyvanse, 150mg lyrica, and 0.5mg xanax...and ciggies ofc. Im feeling mighty fine!

What's up everyone else? Nt, phatass, Tentram, synth, pally, debaser, Bronson, sicness, yellow, and everyone else? Got any good drugs today/ how was yalls weekend?


I ate a chocolate packed with shrrooms and had a nice Tripp with a buddy on Friday night, each chocolate had around an eighth oShrooms and we each ate one. Saturday I worked out for an hour and lifted weights, but was taking it easy.
 
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