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I've been doing legal highs for about 3 years in several episodes.
The first one led to a maniacal psychosis, very alike to schizophrenia, triggered by synthetic cannabinoids (my guess). In one month and a half, I've recovered completely and needed no more antipsychotics.
At almost a year after that, I've discovered bath salts, respectively Pure by Magic, snorting and snorting for 5 months or so. First times I thought it's some kind of speed, thou never done amphetamines, and used it for school purposes, unfortunately instead to make me brighter made me dumber and stupid. After some time, psychotic feelings overwhelmed me, but even so, I didn't stopped, addiction was my name. Every time I was a step closer to psychosis, luckily never happened.
The consequences come in, social withdrawal - avoiding friends, paranoid to meet people, walking on devious, discrete streets with few people, not answering phone calls, juts going out to buy a fix ... with a cap being camouflage.
I was forced to meet my psychiatrist, she told me I have GAD, gave me pills, and except 4mg/day of clonazepam nothing worked so well. After some time, I was dx with psychotic disorder. Now my new doc says it's depressive disorder :-??
The last episode began this year in February, I think, and last until early summer. This time the "new" drug was a soil fertilizer, called Ice Rock (another attempt to mimic amphetamines) - it was cool at beginning, since I had medication to keep under control any undesirable side effect. This time I used to inject it, in small amounts to avoid psychotic symptoms and worked pretty well for my imaginary ADD, until I run out of clonazepam.
I was told 2 times that my urine contains PCP (false-positive?), other compounds I don't remember, and once nortriptyline.
It make sens all the psychotic feelings now, because of PCP.
My problem now is that I have a "decent" treatment that don't work, I'm extremely scared to meet people, walking out without 2mg of alprazolam, thou my new-doc gives me only 0.5mg/day. Every time I accuse anxiety he increases Seroquel dosage - I'm on 150mg now. I'm also on Wellbutrin/Elontril 300 XR, pramiracetam 600x2.
I don't know what to do, what to ask my doc, I just want to be among people without being scared (2 years by now struggling to be as I was, shy, but pretty alright). After all, in October I have to start my last year of collage.
My primary question is about PCP damaging irremediable structures of my brain and if I might be recovered soon. Also, is there any specific treatment to improve patients previously on PCP?
Thank you very much for your time.
The first one led to a maniacal psychosis, very alike to schizophrenia, triggered by synthetic cannabinoids (my guess). In one month and a half, I've recovered completely and needed no more antipsychotics.
At almost a year after that, I've discovered bath salts, respectively Pure by Magic, snorting and snorting for 5 months or so. First times I thought it's some kind of speed, thou never done amphetamines, and used it for school purposes, unfortunately instead to make me brighter made me dumber and stupid. After some time, psychotic feelings overwhelmed me, but even so, I didn't stopped, addiction was my name. Every time I was a step closer to psychosis, luckily never happened.
The consequences come in, social withdrawal - avoiding friends, paranoid to meet people, walking on devious, discrete streets with few people, not answering phone calls, juts going out to buy a fix ... with a cap being camouflage.
I was forced to meet my psychiatrist, she told me I have GAD, gave me pills, and except 4mg/day of clonazepam nothing worked so well. After some time, I was dx with psychotic disorder. Now my new doc says it's depressive disorder :-??
The last episode began this year in February, I think, and last until early summer. This time the "new" drug was a soil fertilizer, called Ice Rock (another attempt to mimic amphetamines) - it was cool at beginning, since I had medication to keep under control any undesirable side effect. This time I used to inject it, in small amounts to avoid psychotic symptoms and worked pretty well for my imaginary ADD, until I run out of clonazepam.
I was told 2 times that my urine contains PCP (false-positive?), other compounds I don't remember, and once nortriptyline.
It make sens all the psychotic feelings now, because of PCP.
My problem now is that I have a "decent" treatment that don't work, I'm extremely scared to meet people, walking out without 2mg of alprazolam, thou my new-doc gives me only 0.5mg/day. Every time I accuse anxiety he increases Seroquel dosage - I'm on 150mg now. I'm also on Wellbutrin/Elontril 300 XR, pramiracetam 600x2.
I don't know what to do, what to ask my doc, I just want to be among people without being scared (2 years by now struggling to be as I was, shy, but pretty alright). After all, in October I have to start my last year of collage.
My primary question is about PCP damaging irremediable structures of my brain and if I might be recovered soon. Also, is there any specific treatment to improve patients previously on PCP?
Thank you very much for your time.
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