bad trip? panic attack? anxiety?

[gio89]

sorry if its been asked before but here it goes
..so i was gettin treated for severe anxietty.over came it. off my meds.its now been a bit over 2 months..my dose was 10mg a day of paxil.
i used to pop like crazy 2 years ago.but it got out of hand.and ofcourse stoped..its been quite a while.and i been wanting to roll again..
so my question is:

has anyone else suffered from severe anxiety due to drugs..got treated.got better and rolled after they got off?
if so how was it? bad idea?

also does anyone WITH anxiety take mdma and have a bad trip or anxiety/pannic attack?

i dont need lectures i know i caused this to my self..but im all over the bad habbits..
im alot more aware of my actions.and alot more responsible.
but i wana make sure FROM SOMEONE WITH EXPERIENCE..if takin mdma will triger anxietty while rolling
i dont wana have a bad trip. and i dont wanna end up in the E.R for thinkin that im dyin.

ofcourse i plan only on takin good pills only MDMA and i plan to test all my pills...so yes im talkin out mdma not pressed pills combined wit other stuff.
any info/experience would be great

 

[how the gods chill]

I used to take paxil as well. I took it for about a year about 3 years ago. I've been diagnosed with ADHD and "Anxious Depression." I never rolled before i took paxil.
Ive recently had increasing problems with anxiety due to troubles with obsessive thoughts which i believe has worsened from using way too many psychedelics and stimulants within the last year. i feel very traumatized by the helplessness i feel over my thoughts and my how my life is very centered around drugs.
The last time i rolled was at a festival and it was nice. kit tested positive for mdma, dose was 110mgs. but the time i rolled before that I eye-balled 80mgs of the same batch of mdma and was by myself at home waiting for my girlfriend to get off of work, she wasn't aware i was going to roll.
the come up was fine and everything was normal, my girlfriend called me and asked how things were going, i told her everything was awesome and ate a roll and i was coming up and feeling great. she asked if it was cool for her to hangout with her friends for a little while and i said of course, even though i really wanted to see her.
i continued to feel great for about another 20-30 minutes then my mind started to fill with thoughts of what i dont like about my life and how i can fix those things. i began to feel overhwelmingly dissatisfied. my thoughts then deteriated into a black hole of self-pity, helplessness, and hopelesness. I called my girlfriend and told her things were not going well and that i needed her. she had already driven to her friends house which is about 40 minutes away and thought it would be best to call a close friend up and have him come help me. he told her he would be right over and that he cared about me alot and blah blah blah.
well it turns out he was also rolling on the same batch of mdma as me, he never told my girlfriend and he never made it over to my house. at this point i felt betrayed and had overwhelming anxiety. so i grabbed my skateboard and tried to go ride around hoping that would turn things around. it didnt, i couldnt even skate for long. eventually my girlfriend came and got me and i was a wreck. everything i was saying to her was pretty messed up and was very hurtful. we went to her house and then our friend that was rolling showed up. me and my girlfriend were both confused when we realized he was rolling too.
he tried to be helpful and talk to me and everything the came out of his mouth honestly made it worse because he was rolling hard and thought he was Dr. Phil or something. eventually he left and i camedown and i started to see what had happened. i apologized to my girlfriend and we worked through all of it the next day. yeah. anxiety sucks.

 

[mj1945]

I never took any medication but I had pretty bad anxiety which I had to stop rolling because that's what caused it even though I never panicked when I just rolled. I took a 5 month break and rolled really hard at a skrillex concert, after the night ended we smoked some green at about 5 am. I was fine until I smoked that bowl, got all these paranoid thoughts, felt my heart beating and even heard it which made me freak out. I got pretty jittery and just waitedd till the high passed. I can say though i never have panicked just on mdma it always seems to be when I added weed to the mix, but it is not a problem after I've controlled it.

 

[RobotRipping]

i dont roll anymore but still use stims/methylone type stuff. I suffer from anxiety and sometimes the drugs will push me into panic territory but from what i remember of MDMA, it is rather anxiolytic (relieves anxiety). Even with methylone i was fine without benzos. I' always keep them around just in case though.

 

[chickenpantz]

i know how you feel. i used to roll like crazy before ever having bad trips. Then the bad trips started. i had them for like a year, and it got to the point where i could not roll ONCE before getting that feeling, if at least for a few minutes. Feeling that you´re gonna die because your heart is racing, thoughts about getting "bAD" pills or the sort... the only thing that made me relieved was that i eventually came down, the effects of the drug wore off and i was fine. I could blame all the anxiety on the drugs. Then the real nightmare started when i started having panic attacks WITHOUT drugs at all. How could i ever get out of a situation like this??

The good thing about panic though, is that it makes you feel AS WORSE as you can ever feel. And once you get carried away with that feeling and totally lose control, you know what that kinda experience is like. And if you ever feel it again, you know that you survived it once and you know that you have the strenght it takes to go through that once again. You´ve gone to the doctor. You know you´re not sick (as in, heart disease) and that it is all in your mind. You just have to learn how to control it. And i know that it is easier said than done, but take the word of someone who used to freak out so bad.. i couldnt sleep, i actuallyhad to go outside and just walk around like crazy, crying, because i was sooo afraid. Mind is so powerful it can make you feel uncomfortable to the point you´re feeling physical pain, heart attack, whatever. But like i said u already gone to the doctor and i guess he said you are PHYSICALLY fine. Just focus on that thought and the trip will be over.

You can always carry benzos in case things get really bad, but just dont think about it and you´ll be fine. You wont have a bad trip. And if you ever do, my advise would be have the damn bad trip. Becuz it will be over and you will learn from it. You have to face your fears instead of running away from them in order to get over them. And dont ever think of yourself as unlucky for having those experiences. Thats why psychedelic trips are the way they are, they have bad things and good things, both complement each other and that is why tripping is so rich....

if u do have a bad trip and take diazepam, you´ll feel like you NEED it to stay calm everytime yyyou roll. Dont do that to yourself.

But hey, thats just my opinion. thats the only way i could overcome my anxiety. cuz honestly, it was killing me, and if i have had the courage to go and ask for help and get treatment, i would have taken paxil too.

 

[eLW]

I had panic attacks and horrible anxiety when i was 20 due to alcohol and drug abuse. I was on sertralin for 4 months - then when i noticed changes i got of off it. Sometimes i took valium, but not daily( i didnt take any single benzo for 2 years now ). So i got pretty damn good pills 5of them - on the previous week.(after 6 years brake from drugs!!) - http://www.pillreports.com/index.php?page=display_pill&id=30276

So i thought i will save them, for something special. Bought few beers went home started to plaing some games. After 4th -0,5beer. i thought - well lets test half of the pill.

So ended up taking 2 that evening, and then i took 3 pills the next day! and got drunk.
Monday went to the work, bought 5HTP. I felt empty, but still i knew why it is so.

It was hard to fall a sleep, i didnt want to eat first 2-3 days.
Still, i eat healthy everyday, and take alpha lipoic acid, multi vitamins.
Today is a friday and i feel like im almost back to normal after that big dose of MDMA after 5 days.

I think it is possible that you can fuck yourself up after 1 single dose of MDMA and get into your "nightmare" back.

Everyone is different, it depends if you want to take that risk or not. I dont think u will have any panic attacks/anxiety during roll.
You should be worried what will be after that.

And it was the dumbest idea by me to roll 2 days in a row, on that strong pills.
I just waisted that beatifull chemical and squeezed my last serotonin.

3months minimum for brake for me now.

 

[thizzlemonster86]

my advice is to not take too big of a dose. for the love of god dont take more than 200mg in the night and dont roll the next day lol. jus from my experience. iv not been the same since the night i rolled 2 nights in a row. the second night being an un godly amount an dont even wanna say how much it was lol. thats my best advice i can give for MDMA. learn from my mistakes cause every time i pop now its jus not the same. i hope some day i will go back to normal and be able to roll again. wish me luck!

 

[gio89]

thx guys....really im just scared of comin up and trigering my anxiety to thinkin im dying/overdosing and end up goin to the E.r ....just wana make sure from others that deal with anxiety and roll..so im a lil more comfortable doin it...so what about the next day after rolling? should i be worried about?