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Bad Ecstasy Story

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When I was 17 (just a couple months ago) I had a pretty unlimited supply of ecstasy for reasons I will not share. For a whole month I went hard in da paint with them, but there was 8 days I went EXTRA hard with them, it started out small, maybe 1 1/2 pills a night, next night 2, the night after that 4 etc...etc. By the end of that 8 day time period I was up to 15 pills a night for the last few days. (Seriously, and I'm not proud of it, there's a reason I'm telling this story) I think it was the 6th day, I had school in the morning and I was already up basically all WEEK high on pills, well I went to school not feeling so well, making some profit.

I met up with one of my close buddies, he told me I should take just one to help feel better, "even after all I've done this week?" I asked "yes, you WILL feel better" in reply, so I took one. I waited two hours and still didn't feel better, so I took another one a half, an hour later....still nothing. I ended up taking 4 in total at school in the parking lot without feeling anything at all. My friend decided he wanted to go for a drive and smoke a blunt, of course I was down to go. So he lights this blunt up and I'm puffin' on that thing like no tomorrow, even though I had BAD anxiety and weed makes me TWEAK hard.

Well as soon as we got back to the school I started tweaking REALLY bad, it must have been whatever was in those pills other than M, my head felt like it was going to explode, I felt I could hear people talking from 3 blocks away, everything seemed like a huge rush, I ended up climbing out of his car window in the parking lot and running away with my only sweater half on and RUNNING all the way back home, I felt as if my heart would blow up out of my chest, I couldn't remember ANYTHING I was thinking literally .5 seconds after. People on the street I was on KNEW I was fucked on SOMETHING.

I ended up getting home and calming down after about 4 hours and falling asleep. The next two days I kept going hard until I convinced myself I would probably die if I didn't stop. The 9th day was HARSH, no pills all day, I couldn't walk 4 steps without being out of breath, every time i stood up i felt like I'd pass out, I had the most nauseous feeling I've ever had also. The worst of all, though, were the brain zaps, I didn't sleep for about 2 days straight after that, I ended up trying to ignore them the best I could, and eventually fell asleep. I had those brain zaps for about a month and a half afterwards. It's been about 3 months since I stopped doing e and the cloudy headed-ness is just starting to go away, everything felt like a dream for a very long time and I'm just starting to get over it. I KNOW what I did was extremely dumb, I had to get this off of my chest because every time I think about it, it gives me a VERY bad vibe, almost like I'm about to re-live it. Anyway on a side note, sometimes I get this good "spinning" forward feeling when i shut my eyes, I have a feeling it's a serotonin release, but I'm not too sure. I left out a couple large chunks of the story, but got most of it. Also the brain zaps are gone, which is AWESOME, sometimes I scare myself awake although, and I hate it. Anyone have any stories? (ALSO, the pills I had were green pistols/ green gats. VERY good stuff)
 
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Well, obviously that much mdma is absolutely abuse to the 'T', and absolutely HORRIBLE for your body, brain, and about everything else that helps you function normally in life. I know you're young, but you really should've researched this before you did that. There are all kinds of stories on here about mdma abuse and effects and comedowns that last for months, even years in extreme cases. First I would make sure that you were injesting only mdma, and nothing else mixed with those pills.
Also I would wait another year, at least if you feel normal to even try to take mdma again. Most consensus is to wait at least 3 months in between rolls, and longer is even better.

There are ALOT of people on here that can help you out with ways to cope with all the toxicity that you have done to your brain, such as taking supplements, excercising, eating well, getting good rest, and keeping yourself busy with stuff that will fill your day positively.

It's good to hear that you are feeling a little better, but as much as you took in two weeks it could still take another couple months at least. My advice is wait a long time before doing this again, and read up on some other threads on mdma abuse and how people have coped and recovered from such.
 
You guys can relate and very nice, exactly the reason I signed up on this website, to be completely honest, I did research everything, it just got out of hand because of situations in my life that I didn't know how to deal with. I will not be doing Mdma ever again, that experience was very traumatic, and I can hardly even think about it without REALLY bad vibes, I just wanted to be a part of this forum so I can have someone to talk to. You guys are awesome ! Cheers
 
This story is an excellent example (although unfortunate for the Writer to suffer this way) as to why this site and especially Ecstasy Discussion Exists.

MDMA needs to be used responsibly, and with proper wait times between if not you will definitely notice all the usual side effects: Paranoia/anxiety, depression, emotional blunting, insomnia, poor appetite.

Also the op appears to note that not knowing whats in these E's really, so they could have been bad pills. (dodgy chemicals within)
This is why it is essential to test any pill / mdma you recieve before taking it.

I say wait no longer than 30 days before your next dose, but 60 day and 90 is even better for you and your wellbeing.
 
I say wait no longer than 30 days before your next dose, but 60 day and 90 is even better for you and your wellbeing.

^This. I've been using about once a month for the past 4 months. Definitely feeling the negatives, I'm giving it 3 months till my next dose then maybe once every 60ish days after that.
 
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