CalamityVein
Greenlighter
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- Aug 1, 2012
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First off, I am on a methadone maintenance program taking 100mg/day.
Usually I stay 100% clean ecxcept my prescibed medthadone.
But this is Christopher Columbus weekend, I think he woudln't wanted this for me
(that prick!!!)
Anyway, here's the time frame:
2PM - 100mg Merthadone
3PM - 3mg Etizolam
6pm - 2mg Etzolam
11pm - 3mg Etizolam
11:30pm - four 350 somas (1400mg)
11:30pm - 100mg of Nucynta
20 cigarettes all day
3 medium sized hits of hash
Etizolam is great for me. Takes away all anxiety, relaxes my muscles, and 3 puts me to sleep when I want to. The problem is that Etizolam makes me loose lots of
judgement (i.e. I make stupid mistakes).
It made me feel like getting a little partie-y tonight. But did I go to far? My wife is freaking out a little at my behavior. I feel not a care in the world! It's
great but am do feel worried. My #1 concern: dieing of respetory failer 2) doing permanent damage to myself and 3). Things like this have been happening to me before. I think I've been more reclless with my drug intake. I see it as fine as moderation is in control. But my wife says my personality changes sometimes (not in a bad way). Not too the worse. Sometimes I hust become or talkative.
The fact is that I've like experimenting with differrent kinds of drugs. I can go sober for week if I want to but, eventually I always feel to "take a vacation".
Tonight feels like I've gone too far. My body I feels heavy and it's hard to stay conscious... I fell asleep 4 5 times writing this thing -- and TONS of spell checking).
So I guess my main question is: Do I have anything to worry about tonight? I've been drinking lots of water to flush all the stuff out of my system but seemds to just keep getting heavier. Afraid to fall asleep. Going to try to ride on the night until the effects wear off. Any suggestions?
Thanks for reading!
Calamity
Usually I stay 100% clean ecxcept my prescibed medthadone.
But this is Christopher Columbus weekend, I think he woudln't wanted this for me
Anyway, here's the time frame:
2PM - 100mg Merthadone
3PM - 3mg Etizolam
6pm - 2mg Etzolam
11pm - 3mg Etizolam
11:30pm - four 350 somas (1400mg)
11:30pm - 100mg of Nucynta
20 cigarettes all day
3 medium sized hits of hash
Etizolam is great for me. Takes away all anxiety, relaxes my muscles, and 3 puts me to sleep when I want to. The problem is that Etizolam makes me loose lots of
judgement (i.e. I make stupid mistakes).
It made me feel like getting a little partie-y tonight. But did I go to far? My wife is freaking out a little at my behavior. I feel not a care in the world! It's
great but am do feel worried. My #1 concern: dieing of respetory failer 2) doing permanent damage to myself and 3). Things like this have been happening to me before. I think I've been more reclless with my drug intake. I see it as fine as moderation is in control. But my wife says my personality changes sometimes (not in a bad way). Not too the worse. Sometimes I hust become or talkative.
The fact is that I've like experimenting with differrent kinds of drugs. I can go sober for week if I want to but, eventually I always feel to "take a vacation".
Tonight feels like I've gone too far. My body I feels heavy and it's hard to stay conscious... I fell asleep 4 5 times writing this thing -- and TONS of spell checking).
So I guess my main question is: Do I have anything to worry about tonight? I've been drinking lots of water to flush all the stuff out of my system but seemds to just keep getting heavier. Afraid to fall asleep. Going to try to ride on the night until the effects wear off. Any suggestions?
Thanks for reading!
Calamity
