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Bad anxiety on sub maintenance, should go back full agonist opiate?

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esko1

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I've been having a lot of trouble with anxiety while on bupe maintenance. I've had anxiety most of my life and found that full agonists like H/Methadone take away my anxiety completely. I've been prescribed benzos but I really don't want to get addicted to those and would rather just go back to a full agonist for a little or awhile to see if it helps my anxiety calm down. It's really bad, to the point I have a hard time swallowing solid foods so I'm losing a lot of weight. I want to either go back to smoking H (I have a connect for potent gunpowder) so I know its not nasty stuff and no worry of ODing because I only smoke it or methadone, but that is really hard to get off of. I just want to see if going back will allow me to eat/function normally again so I can get my weight back and work on my anxiety. Then when I get that back together and decide to I'll detox off the full agonist maybe with the help of kratom. I want to hear some other people's opinion, should I test out a full agonist or should I just use benzos for now with the sub and taper off them later? It's been a month of barely being able to eat from how bad the anxiety is and I need to do something about this. I've tried raising my sub dose and I usually feel worse on anything over 2mg a day.
 
This happns with me
I dont have BAD anxiety but i switched from 5 yrs straight on methadone to subs in december and IT IS lacking. I dont feel sick but my hands sweat aaaalll day. I have to carry a towel around the house its so bad.if i didnt have to go to the methadone clinic 6 days a week id be back in heartbeat. Like if i had all take homes or a prescription, subs just arent really cutting it for me either...i tried plugging mine today hoping it would be better. A few days ago i made a small suboxone vial and put 2mg in my nose, wow i felt 100% fine and actually had a buzz. I usually feel nothing off my 16mg a day and i was buzzed off 2mg but it burnt bad so i tried plugging today. Didnt notice anything really and still felt sick...
 
Yeah man I know how you feel, methadone was a bitch getting off but I felt so much better on it. If my family didn't have to drive me to the clinic everyday I would go back too, it took away all cravings and made me feel calm. I have heard that less is more with subs tho man so that is probably why you got a buzz off 2mg. The less bupe you take the more norbuprenorphine in your system and that's the stuff that feels like a full agonist/gives us a buzz. You should try to take 1-2mg at a time once in the morning and once in the evening. I found this to be the best way to get a buzz off of the subs. It's still not like methadone but it feels a lot better then when I was on 6-8mg a day.
 
the shitty thing is my pdoc wont give me benzos because im on bupe and i have a history of drug abuse
also he is scared ill use a benzo script for suicide
im like man there is no way one bottle of ativan could kill me, ive taken up to 20 mg at once and not even fallen unconscious, besides i'd probably throw it up before it killed me anyway
 
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