axl blaze

any bluelighter dying, especially in circumstances which, in retrospect, may have been more easily preventable, is tragic. jim's death is no exception.

my heart goes out to claire, his family and his friends.

it's soul-destroying for me to see a couple of bitter bluelighters use his death as an opportunity to push their agenda and point fingers but i also feel it, to an extent, vindicates the action we've taken to transition from the old lounge to the new social forum. many people have moved on and it's sad they can't leave it behind.

blaming somebody for the death of another is a low blow. i know i'm not personally responsible for jim's death. honestly, i feel that their saying so is an insult to jim's memory and does both his life and his passing a disservice.

finally, i am told that they're bent out of shape that i did not post an r.i.p. in axl's social (now shrine) thread. i have just three words for them there: go fuck yourselves.

i'll mourn jim's passing in whichever manner i feel appropriate and i'm not going to post a public message just because a butthurt ex-staffer thinks it's somehow appropriate.

i hear the lies - it's a disgrace i didn't post because jim and i were such close friends in real life and had met so many times. etc.

i never met jim in real life. fact.

when you have to manufacture lies to attack somebody, what does that say about your attack? and to those who are so gleefully lapping up the lies, ask yourself why you're so quick to believe them?

r.i.p. jim

alasdair

 

I think anytime I well known and loved member passes its an opportunity to put our eyes back on the main mission of this forum. Which is to educate each other on how to save our own lives. I was never a lounge poster and I don't give a shit about the controversy For me Jims death has made me ask myself what am I bringing to this site to help the other members or throngs of non members who find an answer to a question here through google. I know for myself I will be posting in other drugs and basic drug discussion more often to give back the knowledge that was taught to me by members over the years.

 

I don't know any of you but alasdairm, I was scrolling through the sidebar by the blogs and your opening line caught my attention; it struck me mostly because there was a visitor to my blog who has a line through the name now. I know that visitor and the person in this entry aren't the same but...I needed to stop and hold a moment of space for jim; he obviously played a role in your life and I assume no level. I'm sorry for your loss and for the pain the drugs causes us, one way or another. I'm hurt to hear of how grief has prompted some others to act. May you find peace soon and may they find it too.

 

You and Jim were mates for years and years. Sometimes friends have a falling out but it happens and Im pretty damn sure you are just as upset as everyone else that he has died.

Tim and I had a bad falling out and we never really totally made amends but sort of patched things up.

I would give anything to have had the chance to talk to him again.

Im very sorry for Claire and know you are too. I know you love and miss Jim. His friends need each other to get through this.

I hope you are okay mate. The idiots who dont know any form of human decency are just feeding off bullshit. We wont stand for any of it.

 

screw what other people think. you can grieve, honor and remember people however you see fit.

 

My condolences to you and everyone affected. I did not know him, but I remember the name. I never saw the offending posts, but I doubt that whatever they said got outside of the Lounge.