Hehe, I've been around these parts for a few years now, yeah. You could probably track my ups and downs by going through my posts over the years here... would be interesting. No stress on the patronising front, I agree with everything you've said. My main issue is the fact that withdrawals are absolute hell on me at th'is stage of my usage... and I can't kick on my own without fucking up this awesome job. I'll do anything to keep it, but I also want to kick heroin, because I can't afford it, and it's holding my entire life back. '
The support on here is amazing

PLUR to all of you
Good luck to you too
dais. I want to never use again to be honest. I've burned through $15,000 on heroin this year alone. That's... ludicrous. I keep getting amazing opportunities and fucking them up because of my fucked up mindset and habits, and it's time to break them.
I recently started on anti-depressants to help with my severe clinical depression, and thankfully (probably because I have no co-morbid issues) they have worked wonderfully. It's why I can finally try and pull my shit together.
I'm building structure around my life, taking charge, and making big changes. It's a bit overwhelming at times, I've tried to take it one step at a time, but I have a bad habit of rushing into things. Hopefully I've done it right this time.