I took .5mg of clonazepam, and 2mg of lorazepam, I don't have extensive benzo experience (have done them a few times off and on, usually too much which just causes me to black out) I tend to overdo things, as I love intense feelings (I think I may have a somewhat addictive personality, but anyway, I digress...)
I also think it is worth noting I have horrible anxiety, like HORRIBLE anxiety, (which may contribute to me always over doing the dose because I just want it all to go away) I have gone to the doctor about these issues, but, blah, he wanted me to try celexa out first. So, that is where I am now, 2 weeks into the treatment, nothing noticable yet (praying it starts working, my anxiety is so horrible it interferes with my daily life so much that it has caused severe depression.
But besides all that, as I said I took 2mg Lorazepam, .5mg of Clonazepam.
It was weird, I started feeling kinda relaxed, and I was confronting people and talking to people I never would (my exgf lives in my house, long story, causes a lot of anxiety and I have wanted to talk to her but I'm so awkward I never know what to say. Well I went up to her and started like a conversation out of nowhere, and I just felt like I was figuring out a lot of things because my anxiety wasn't holding me back as much (even though I could still feel its prescense), and I got this crazy mindfuck feeling (archetypal mindfuck you should only get from psychedelics, because of the realizations you're making), and I started laughing a lot and talking really really fast and I got super giddy and excited, and I had this huge smile on my face. And then she was like, "Are you on drugs?!?!", I'm Like, "No! (laugh), why would you think that, what drug does it seem like I'm on?!" Cause I knew I was acting realllyyy strange, and to me it seems like she would think like x or something.
Does any of this even make sense, because my mindframe seems kind of psychedelicish (not in full, but some aspects) and I'm just really giddy and excited for no reason(and I'm like shaking). Is this extremely abnormal?? I mean I feel great, it was a kind of low dose, but it seems like a lot from just some benzos.
What do you draw from all of this?? As I am confused as what to determine why this happened.
I also think it is worth noting I have horrible anxiety, like HORRIBLE anxiety, (which may contribute to me always over doing the dose because I just want it all to go away) I have gone to the doctor about these issues, but, blah, he wanted me to try celexa out first. So, that is where I am now, 2 weeks into the treatment, nothing noticable yet (praying it starts working, my anxiety is so horrible it interferes with my daily life so much that it has caused severe depression.
But besides all that, as I said I took 2mg Lorazepam, .5mg of Clonazepam.
It was weird, I started feeling kinda relaxed, and I was confronting people and talking to people I never would (my exgf lives in my house, long story, causes a lot of anxiety and I have wanted to talk to her but I'm so awkward I never know what to say. Well I went up to her and started like a conversation out of nowhere, and I just felt like I was figuring out a lot of things because my anxiety wasn't holding me back as much (even though I could still feel its prescense), and I got this crazy mindfuck feeling (archetypal mindfuck you should only get from psychedelics, because of the realizations you're making), and I started laughing a lot and talking really really fast and I got super giddy and excited, and I had this huge smile on my face. And then she was like, "Are you on drugs?!?!", I'm Like, "No! (laugh), why would you think that, what drug does it seem like I'm on?!" Cause I knew I was acting realllyyy strange, and to me it seems like she would think like x or something.
Does any of this even make sense, because my mindframe seems kind of psychedelicish (not in full, but some aspects) and I'm just really giddy and excited for no reason(and I'm like shaking). Is this extremely abnormal?? I mean I feel great, it was a kind of low dose, but it seems like a lot from just some benzos.
What do you draw from all of this?? As I am confused as what to determine why this happened.