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rollinstoner

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Are there any former every weekend users out there who abused until they basically ran out of serotonin? If so, did you ever go back to feeling normal again and how long did it take you?
 
me. I started out as a ritualistic roller, about once a year, but i binged a lot through 2010 and 2011, breaking every "rule in the book" - redosing, dosing back to back days, 40+ hours awake. It all came to a head at WMC 2011, when i dropped a second bomb during the week. Instead of going up, I went DOWN, horrific anxiety, and an inability to deal with anything. I got through the experience, but the following few weeks were filled with terrible bouts of anxiety, depression, and even some brain zaps. Eventually, those symptoms passed, but months later, the "magic" was gone when I attempted it again. I've now been on a year + break from my favorite thing, and dealing with some personal issues and resulting PTSD. Now would be the time that I could really use its theurapeutic properties, and I'm going to give it a go soon, but you don't want to go down this road. Part of what is to be learned from this drug (and many others) is self control. I gave in to my fiendish tendencies and I really regret it. When I return, I'll be returning to a 1-3 max per year, if it even works the same for me ever again.
 
My experience was somewhat like NJ's... I was part of the generation that was much more harm induction than reduction, right? We didn't know that we shouldn't roll every weekend back in the 90's.

If you fuck yourself up with E, it takes years, in my experience, to get back to 'normal.' It's not really normal at all, just some semblance of it. So don't do that :P
 
Have abused over an 18 year period breaking all the rules. Finally got properly zapped by a combination ofpiperazine and MDMA.

Currently on a long term comedown lasting 18 months and counting. If you are in the process of abusing and wondering what to do I would stop until its too late.

I wish now I had never touched any of it but unfortunately there is no turning back. At least if I had my time again I wish I had been more cautious.
 
rollinstoner said:
Are there any former every weekend users out there who abused until they basically ran out of serotonin? If so, did you ever go back to feeling normal again and how long did it take you?
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Yes every weekend multiple times a week/wkend over years. Got pretty bad at the end for a while other chems like crystal meth didn't help. Took 8 months off dosed once and felt full effects. Another 3 months feel 100% health wise. I'm mid to late 20s.

Don't stress. You will recover but you will need to treat your recovery seriously and do everything you can to look after yourself. These things have been discussed on the site many many times before. Things like exercise, getting enough sleep, healthy fresh balanced diet, vitamin a, all the good things in life.

Peace :)
 
I still feel crappy over 5 years later :( I preach the same thing about exercise and healthy eating too. I mean, I am making progress but it's VERY slow. I had about 4 years of abuse. Never did more than 2 pills in a weekend and rolled on average about every other week in that time period. I had some 1-6 month breaks in there as well.

I hope people take this as a lesson :)
 
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Similar to above posters, I got way outta control my first to years at college, had a very cheap supply and plenty of time. Caught up with me summer after my second year, got brain zaps, no energy felt absolutely horrible for about 3 weeks and then still had weird feelings and inexplicable anxiety depression for about 4 months more. After that I felt 100%, and am very grateful because I know some people feel terrible for a long time. Haven't dropped since and figure I might as well keep this break rolling, ha, for as long as possible.
 
I still feel crappy over 5 years later
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thats brutal rollin so youve had a comedown for 5 years!!

what kind of symptoms do you still feel after such a long while? have you taken any drugs over the 5 years?
 
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thats brutal rollin so youve had a comedown for 5 years!!

what kind of symptoms do you still feel after such a long while? have you taken any drugs over the 5 years?
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Lingering depression, real tough to feel natural happiness, severe anxiety. Tried SSRI's and they just made me sick, klonopins for panic attacks. I have just been smoking MJ daily since then to help balance my mood.
 
Lingering depression, real tough to feel natural happiness, severe anxiety. Tried SSRI's and they just made me sick, klonopins for panic attacks. I have just been smoking MJ daily since then to help balance my mood.
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wow 5 years is rough man. 18 months has been bad enough for me. i have been on various ADs SSRIs included and nothing seems to work. I am currently on a tricyclic antidepressant and again it has done nothing. I am about to quit taking all meds.

How about exercise do you exercise much?

For me I dare not take any other illegal drug MJ included I am too paranoid things will get worse.

Anxiety for 5 years thats just rough. Have any of the symptoms resided for you or is everything the same?
 
I abused every weekend for two months 2008 then stopped usually 1 or 2 pills every fro sat and 3 pills max. Stopped then started using again last year from Sept to Dec will wait after a month of three weeks but the last time I did 2 pills before the week I over did it: approximately 6 pills on my last night and had brain zaps the night after.. I am on month 6 and the only lingering symptom is weird dizziness which I probly mentioned so many times on my other posts.. Probly just need more time for this to go away.. I am doin what I can to be healthier.. But reading online not necessarily bluelight alone makes me paranoid as shit! http://www.anxietyzone.com/index.php?topic=13169.0 I know I need to freakin stop reading online and just let this pass I hope it will!!!
 
Did every weekend or every other for about 1.5 years, not sure if thats the length your looking for. Id say i felt completely fine about 2 weeks after of not doing anything at all.
 
me! I did it every weekend ... i would bender over friday saturday and sunday for about 8 months straight. Still not feeling right but that's because i still roll every now and then. I am feeling much better than I was last year though :) I worry too that I might not get back all that I have lost
 
I did it for 3 months straight then decided to call it quits and still used occasionally for 2 months following, I lost all positive effects by the end and had some solid depression, anxiety and insomnia... The damage usually is recognised by some until its too late with MDMA, that was the case for me

But yeah, MDMA damage isn't permanent and you will always recover... Exercise, diet, sleep etc. etc.
 
I fucked up my body in other ways before I came anywhere close to running out of seronin. My body said that's enough and now I absolutely cannot handle taking any amount of anything other than a whole lot of reefer. I recovered from the side effects that occurred over the year after I stopped rolling; I just can't take any serotonin drugs anymore, no E or psychedelics whatsoever as they make me feel like disgusting shit now. It took about 30 rolls to make me give up drugs, now I've completely lost interest in taking them other than cannabis which I adore.
 
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I fucked up my body in other ways before I came anywhere close to running out of seronin. My body said that's enough and now I absolutely cannot handle taking any amount of anything other than a whole lot of reefer. I recovered from the side effects that occurred over the year after I stopped rolling; I just can't take any serotonin drugs anymore, no E or psychedelics whatsoever as they make me feel like disgusting shit now. It took about 30 rolls to make me give up drugs, now I've completely lost interest in taking them other than cannabis which I adore.
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That's pretty much my situation. Only enjoy the reefer which I will NOT give up.
 
Hey Rollin and others just wondering how has your ability to enjoy life/feel happiness improved from when you stopped? I had one weekend of rolling three days in a row and it royally fucked me only rolled maybe three times before that.
Never was a big drug user so imagine my shock when I realized I got screwed and all my friends who had used for years were fine. I'm just hoping that with abstinence, healthy lifestyle, exercise, and hopefully some advances in brain science/medicine I'll be able to get back some semblance of the life I used to have sometime in the not so distant future.
 
rollinstoner said:
Lingering depression, real tough to feel natural happiness, severe anxiety. Tried SSRI's and they just made me sick, klonopins for panic attacks. I have just been smoking MJ daily since then to help balance my mood.
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I had this before I ever started rolling though tbh. Do you think maybe life is just shitty and maybe that's why we all started doing drugs anyway? To cope? I always anxiety even in childhood. I think it may be part of the primal nature why I, and many others here enjoy MDMA so much.

I'm 23 and I have used and 'abused' at certain periods, especially the beginning, and I can honestly say I feel the same as I did before I ever did any drugs.
 
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