Jaymie, I've been meaning to get to your chart but I had to do a fair bit of homework on it. Here goes.
Your North Node in Taurus sitting on your MC indicates that you have a better than average ability to provide for yourself in terms of both financial and emotional capital and that whatever happens in your life, you're always able to provide yourself with a stable home base.
The corresponding South Node in Scorpio on the IC, though, and conjunct Pluto in the 4th, indicates that you probably had to learn how to do this the hard way.
I'd guess this has to do with the opposition of your Mars in Taurus in 4th (male parent) opposite your Moon in 10th in Scorpio (female parent). This is kind of a backwards placement and since it's so close to the Nodes it has to be really significant in someway. I'd have to look at synastry (comparison) charts of your parents to confirm this (not yet my specialty) but I would be surprised if your parents were still together, and I'd bet a decent amount of money that if they are, they're constantly engaged in power struggles and that one or both of them has a vindictive streak toward the other. It's not an aspect that gives a happy childhood, regardless. Your unaspected Saturn (it's just outside the orb of being conjunct your Mars, which is a good thing because you'd likely be very hot tempered and caustic if it was conjunct). Your emphasis in Earth signs gives you the resiliency to have dealt with it, though. You have been able to create your own security.
Jupiter in 7th in Aquarius- you have a very idealistic view of romance and your romantic partners. It sextiles Uranus in the 5th in Sag... you're attracted to unconventionl, possibly foreign partners, and you'd be bored with anything mundane. In general, this suggests you are attracted to dreamy, creative types.
6th house Mercury-Sun-Venus conjunction in Capricorn (at the critical 29th degree, no less) makes a really pretty trine to your Taurus Moon in the 10th. That agrees nicely with the vast amount of Earth in your chart. Mercury is well-placed in the 6th, both are ruled by Virgo, and that's a very strong indicator that not only are you a very capable and intelligent person, you make much of what you do look totally effortless.
Combine that with that fiery Leo Ascendant... there's no doubt you attract attention. Make sure it's from the right people. You don't have any planets aspecting your Ascendant which magnifies the Leo qualities a LOT.
Most of your planets are in the lower part of your chart, suggesting that you have a very rich inner world.
A miscellaneous synastry comparison to my chart: your Sun and Venus are exactly trine my Ascendant. We could tear this town up with charm and pick up all the boys we wanted!
Jamshyd- My 9th house Venus actually trines, not sextiles, my 1st house Pluto- but just barely. It is otherwise unaspected so Venus takes on the fickle, dualistic tendencies of its shitty placement in Gemini. The 11th house Node-Mars conjunction in Leo is definitely an attention getter, though. I would not give up that placement for anything! Between that and Pisces descending and conjunct my prominent Mercury (0 deg of Aries- youch) in the 7th, you can probably deduce that I tend to attract underdogs and other needy, toxic/troubled types in partnerships/relationships. It's a very frustrating theme and being the most elevated planet in my chart in a shitty position and so close to the MC... ugh! I know I will need a partner with at least as strong a Mars as mine and a well-aspected Venus if I am ever going to have a relationship that works.
You can probably tell that I have the libido of 5 people but I am not at all gluttonous about sex.
My late degree Virgo Ascendant really does a great job to modulate a giant excess of cardinal and fire energies. If hypothetically I'd been born less than 10 minutes later with Libra rising, I'd be completely insufferable, especially with the Pluto opposition to Sun and Moon and with a Cancer MC? Ugh, I'd be more argumentative than I am and I'd either be needy as anything or very adept at capitalizing on the neediness of others! I'm not at all needy as I am sure you can tell, and I have zero patience for neediness in others.
The inconjunct between my Ascendant and Sun-Moon conjunction is in my interpretation a fortunate placement though it's difficult in the textbook sense. It follows the natural Aries-Virgo inconjunct axis, so it feels very natural to me to reconcile those tendencies in my nature. I have zero patience for laziness, I'm an extremely hard worker- but I'm not as self-confident as your average Aries type and if I feel I'm not living up to my expectations for myself or those of the people who care about me, I beat the living shit out of myself mentally until something changes. It also gives me "glutton for punishment" tendencies. My 12th house Saturn in Virgo won't let me sit around and feel sorry for myself, though, I think it forces me to deal with the fact that most of the time how I appear (placid and earthy) and how I feel (fire, fire, fire) are two separate entities... and that I need to meet in the middle. My yod with the finger pointing at Pluto seems to be the missing link... is that the resolution to those inconjuncts?
So you are fascinated with dying in the good sense (such as it is). That mutable Uranus in Sag in the 10th squared Mars in Pisces in the first could take on that alternate interpretation. Mars isn't at all comfortable in Pisces and Uranus in Sag can be a loose cannon that makes you prone to act out suddenly, and in "socially unacceptable" ways.
On the topic of your homosexuality, I can't make any firm representations there, I can draw some correlates but it would not be accurate if I tried to truly pinpoint a cause. Mars in Pisces is not a naturally comfortable placement (the warrior in a feminine, mutable sign), and it's in your first house (personal identity) conjunct Venus (basic feminine energy). That is a LOT of feminine energy that has to be modulated with corresponding masculine energy. While your Pluto in 8th is a very strong and fortunate placement, and Pluto is a masculine planet, it's naturally dignified in a feminine sign in your house of S-E-X... and death and ego loss. You will naturally seek after people who have that corresponding masculine energy. The most obvious sources of that would be males.
I can confirm this by your empty 7th house being ruled by Leo, sign of the King, the quintessence of masculinity. By no means are you a queen, but this is the chart of someone whose ideal partner is a king.
Partnerships are not a focus of your chart per se, but with the magnetism displayed in your chart, someday your king will come.
That South Node sitting next to Saturn and both opposing your Moon also suggest that you have some very heavy karma related to the masculine-feminine. Jupiter and the Sun (masculine planets) trining the feminine Moon can help you resolve it. Yes, you'll only be happy with an alpha type male, but once you find him you will rock his world (see my last post on your sexual magnetism
). Masculine and feminine do not always correspond to physical gender or insinuate that someone is uncomfortable being the gender they are... my chart has more masculine aspects/placements than feminine by far, but I'm all woman, and I'd bet you're all man.
I am guessing that your parents aren't too thrilled with the fact that you're gay. Your chart indicates great magnetism, potential and the power for transformation in birth/death issues. Your Mars-Pluto trine concerns me a little bit in that regard. Perhaps you are attempting to capture the essence of death in your fascination with ego loss. Put aside the trappings of your background and your family, and lose yourself in your mind. A Mars-Pluto trine has great transformative, proactive qualities. Don't confuse ego loss and relinquishing of emotional trappings (Saturn @ MC opp Moon) with self-destruction. You can break down the barriers you seek to break down without actual physical death. Jupiter is probably very much your protector in that regard. Use his influence to your advantage.
Your chart has presented me with some interesting challenges and I hope I have provided you with some measure of enlightenment... thanks to everyone for your contributions, and let's keep this great discussion going.
If you haven't posted your chart, do it! If your link is fucked up, fix it!
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
. But I'm sure your 1st House pluto helps 
