Jay Arel
Bluelighter
Would you stay if i fell to my knees and begged you to?
Because i won't, because i can't, because you want me to.
Because you know how i am, you know me all to well.
And you know i won't beg, i'll hold my dignity straight to hell.
I'm a firm believer in doing what will make you happy.
And your decision was made, it just didn't include me.
You said you need to find yourself, and reestablish a family.
But yet I'm the bad guy, because i responded incorrectly.
I won't call you and ask you not to leave.
I won't come to the bar and ask you to stay with me.
I won't let myself be destroyed by another girl.
And yes, that's what you are, i don't have feelings anymore.
I have no more heart, I've locked it straight down.
It's not there for you to fuck with, I'll never again let it out.
And i'll never again feel pain, i thank YOU for that.
You found where the pain lives, and broke it in half.
So forget, just let it, pack your things and leave.
Because it no longer matters, it won't affect me.
And yes, you're right, this is me being tough.
It's all i have left, and for me it's enough.
And if you were here right now, you could look up as the rain drops from the golden sky.
And in time, you would realize....
Those weren't raindrops, just tears from swollen eyes.
It's inside there somewhere the real truth lies.
Because i won't, because i can't, because you want me to.
Because you know how i am, you know me all to well.
And you know i won't beg, i'll hold my dignity straight to hell.
I'm a firm believer in doing what will make you happy.
And your decision was made, it just didn't include me.
You said you need to find yourself, and reestablish a family.
But yet I'm the bad guy, because i responded incorrectly.
I won't call you and ask you not to leave.
I won't come to the bar and ask you to stay with me.
I won't let myself be destroyed by another girl.
And yes, that's what you are, i don't have feelings anymore.
I have no more heart, I've locked it straight down.
It's not there for you to fuck with, I'll never again let it out.
And i'll never again feel pain, i thank YOU for that.
You found where the pain lives, and broke it in half.
So forget, just let it, pack your things and leave.
Because it no longer matters, it won't affect me.
And yes, you're right, this is me being tough.
It's all i have left, and for me it's enough.
And if you were here right now, you could look up as the rain drops from the golden sky.
And in time, you would realize....
Those weren't raindrops, just tears from swollen eyes.
It's inside there somewhere the real truth lies.
