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[Cosmic Mist]

You know, i think i'm going to just ramble on for a bit... i don't really have much to say, nothing that would interest you really. I've been walking around in a semi-lucid haze for what seems like and eternity, and i think it's finally starting to get to me...

This world makes me want to destroy things - there is so much that could be better done, if only we would invest the time and money into it; safer roads; better education; equitable welfare - all this and more could be yours for the small price of your so called national security, because only god can really save you anyway...

...and speaking of god (that sorry son-of-a-bitch) when was the last time he did anything for you anyway? When was the last time he smited those doing you wrong so that you might have the occasion to rise and triumph over everything pulling you down? WHen did he allow you to pass freely and safely from one place to another, without the constant fear that plagues you even as you sleep??

You know, it makes me sick, the whole thing makes me want to just collapse into a heap and forget i even exist - the whole world is beyond me, suffocating me, and i can barely breathe. Everything is so terribly terrible - even my writing has become redundant!

Oh!

Woe is me!

The world is so awful! There is no beauty left in it at all, nothing to marvel at, no magnificent sunrises to strike awe into the huddling masses, no small children opening their eyes for the first time and breathing their first breaths... not even roses along the path of life... yes indeed, the world is a truly horrible place to live in, and woe is anyone who tries to convince you otherwise...

...i mean honestly, can't they see all the terrible, horrific deeds taking place in the world? Can't they see the starving masses in India, China, Russia? Can't they see the proliferation of stupidity pouring out of the US? Don't they see the apathy promoted by the french and the greedy hatred seeping out of the middle east? My country is perfect you see... if everyone was more like us, then maybe they too would be able to deport refugees back to the war-ravaged and empoveraged states that has been imposed upon them by the righteous 1st world nations of this planet...

...the world is a horrible, terrible place to live in... can't you see it? Or are you too blinded by the star-struck look in your lover's eye, the glowing embers of the warm summer sunsets, or just the beauty in everything around you?

For shame!

You say we live in a beautiful world and that i'm just taking it all for granted... maybe one of us needs to open their eyes...

 

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...and speaking of god (that sorry son-of-a-bitch) when was the last time he did anything for you anyway?

It allowed me to awake today, and to enjoy the beauty of nature.


The world IS a rough place these days, but the alternatives might not be so peachy keen for some. Many people are to worried about others and don't even give themselves a passing glance, when most of the troubles that plagues the world is a choice made on an individual level.

Concentrate inward and try to attain a balance, it is so easy to throw off the balance but when you look at things that throw you off course they are often some of the simplest to adjust.

The power of the mind is absolutely tremendous, being able to grasp what can be accomplished through prayer, meditation, etc. is essential and many people don't even take that first step.

The power of the beast is great these days and everybody falls to it in someway, being able to pick yourself back up, dust yourself off, and continue on your journey is just the fundamental building blocks of "LIFE". This can be easier said by stating that "negative energy attracts negative energy, etc, etc. Finding a way to always steer yourself back to the light (positive vibes) is essential.

I get in the same boat that it sounds like you are riding in oh to often, sometimes I find it best just to spill it out onto paper, other times its not so easy, cheer-up, take a walk, pray, have fun, smile, do something for somebody else, these things usually will get me orientated in the right direction. I hope its ok that I replied to this, just felt like typing an alternative. I hope I don't sound like a bible banger (which of course I am not) just one that loves the light.




Am I living truth or a deceiver?
Am I the victim or the crime? - GD

 

[Cosmic Mist]

heya blah!

I deffinately agree with everything you have said... i am not of a religious slant (preffering to keep to myself what i think about such matters), but i do meditate regularly and i do enjoy a very positive outlook on life.

I believe you may have missed the point of this monologue.

You see, i'm not actually writing this from my perspective, unlike a lot of my works. This particular piece is laced with irony... to me, there is nothing more spectacular than the sun rising in the morning, nothing more beautiful than being able to watch a small child open it's eyes for the first time and breathe its first breaths!
This is a monologue i have written to myself, because sometimes i think that i am too struck by the beauty in everything around me to notice that really terrible things do occur. I've spent many hours lost in the dreamy look in my lover's eyes, and i appreciate the time i pass playing with my baby brother...

I'm not being pessimistic - the last line of the piece was written deliberately to punctuate the irony in the piece - the character is complaining that everything sucks and that everyone is blindly taking things for granted, yet the character is the only person who is actually blinded by anything at all. "maybe one of us needs to open our eyes..." - the idea is that the protagonist needs to open their eyes - that is the irony.

Hope this clears eveyrthing up... i appreciate the comments though

 

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thought so...