WOW....have taken maybe 6 somas; 4 1mg Kpins, (potentiatiors: Vistaril, grape fruit juice, others i forget now tho); snorted ~35mg Ritalin; drank about 8 shots of Bourbon; two, maybe three, Grolsch Amber beers, and drank some Bhang/smoked several bowls of goooood bud.....this is also over the past say 4 hours.
....sooo yeah i'm fucked up, but i still want more benzos, and killer "name-brand" weeed...and alcohol really. Mainly just want more benzos though.
It's sad that a combo that would have instantly put me to sleep just months ago is just slightly fucking me up. I really kind of miss those days when your all coked out of your mind hiding in the closest being super silent whilest smoking and coming up with all these crazy conspiracy/spying ideas; timing your exists and entrances with the music (usallly quiet as hell when i'm all coked up but still).
BUt it's been over a year (14-15 months maybe) since I have even seen cocaine and i know full well that the times of intense cravings usually happen once every couple months and lasts for maybe a day...except this time i've had these strong cravings for days and days (I got a hold of some incredible cola in a dream a few weeks back.) Sometimes I'll just sit with the cravings, meditate, do yoga, or snort some Ritalin (very minute amounts: 1 or 2 10mg pills ONLY ONCE that night/day/week).
once again i have to overanalyze things. Hope you guys are really enjoying your experiences!!
I'm gonna go do Jala Neti and smoke my last bowl. Peace out guys!!