I ate some poppies earlier.
I also got lucky and found a pill in the floor in the student lounge at college. I have found pills on the floor or ground maybe a dozen times before, always worthless. I finally found something of use, an adderal xr 30mg pill. I did not even have to look it up, it is brand name with the name and dose printed on the capsule
I ate it a little while ago. I emptied the capsule into my mouth and chewed on the round pellets. I think I am starting to feel it. I also ate some more poppies. Without that, the anxiety may get bad. I get anxious from provigil and other weak stimulants if I don't mix it with opiates. I've never tried amphetamine before. I also ate 400mg of provigil earlier, before I found that pill. I ate a couple of excedrin migraine pills, they have caffeine in them. I had a slight headache. I don't know how much of an effect that will have on the amphetamine.
Maybe I should have saved it to use for studying before a test.
I wish I had found it a couple of days earlier, before my calculus test. I know it will be the lowest grade I've ever had on a math test before. Definitely an F. I did not have the book for the first 2.5 weeks, and had to catch up. I also procrastinated. I tried to stay up all night studying, but ended up falling asleep. There were only 6 questions on the test. Two of them I could not even get started on. They were each worth 20 points, I think.
One of the questions was on finding the limit of X to the X power as X approaches zero from the right. It was not a difficult question. I think I figured it out right after I left the classroom, but it was too late for it to matter. I'll have to make sure the solution I think is correct is actually right. If you know the solution, please post it. I'd like to know if I am right. I'll see if I can find it on cramster later, it is not in my book.
Maybe I would have been better off if I had just slept. I only slept about 3 hours that night. I only had about 90 minutes of sleep the night before that, mostly due to insomnia that time. There was another problem that I worked out mostly, so I should get most of the credit for it. I realized what I was supposed to do next after the class. I don't remember what the question was. It was an integral. It involved trigonometric substitution.
I'll probably get like a 30 or 40 on the test, and I'll feel extremely embarrassed when I get the test handed back. They did not allow any notes. It is the first math class since I started college that did not allow us to bring an index card or page of notes. I did not try to memorize all of the formulas because I thought we'd get to have a notecard. I could have sworn he said we could have a 3x5 index card of notes, but on monday someone asked if notes were allowed and he said no. Either he changed his mind, or I was mistaken. I can still get a B if I do well on the rest of the stuff. Even an A is possible, but extremely unlikely. I could have possibly got a D or maybe even a C if I had figured out the solutions just a few minutes earlier. My mind felt dull and cloudy due to the sleep deprivation.
I am feeling a strong stimulation. I hope I did not take too much, or that mixing with the provigil does not cause a bad reaction. I thought the normal recreational dose was higher than 30mg. Maybe it is just because I don't use stimulants very much. I do feel really good
I just worry a bit about stimulant use because of my high blood pressure. The medication keeps it under control though.
I just typed a bunch of shit that I doubt anyone wants to read, so sorry for cluttering up the place. I could just delete it, but I'm not going to.
I may be getting some AMT and TMA-6 soon, I'll have to wait and see.
I'm pretty excited about the possibility!
