agnetha
Bluelighter
Yeah, I'm successful by conventional standards but it leaves me very unsatisfied. Got a highly paid high pressure job which eats into my private life with 50-60 hours a week. Now I'm at a crossroad.
I recently produced an epic fuckup, burning an enormous amount of money in the process. In my strange little world this means that my bosses are very pleased. Someone who is capable of producing something impressive -even if it's a trainwreck- is marked for promotion. The peter principle at work.
At the same time I got a call from people I know at uni, they'd set me up in research. Ridiculously low paid, less responsibility, would be much more fulfilling though (at last something productive!).
The only substance I managed to get addicted to in years of drug use is money, and the only thing my brain had to suffer permanent/major damage from was being some fixer/hack/management type. So, I'm afraid doing the right thing -going back to uni- would make me unhappy. Does this make sense?
Edit: The only drug that I feel held me back was weed. Sorry to say that but those cliches about lazy stoners are true in my book. Weed made me achieve some things months and years later, it's poison to dedication and work ethic.
I recently produced an epic fuckup, burning an enormous amount of money in the process. In my strange little world this means that my bosses are very pleased. Someone who is capable of producing something impressive -even if it's a trainwreck- is marked for promotion. The peter principle at work.
At the same time I got a call from people I know at uni, they'd set me up in research. Ridiculously low paid, less responsibility, would be much more fulfilling though (at last something productive!).
The only substance I managed to get addicted to in years of drug use is money, and the only thing my brain had to suffer permanent/major damage from was being some fixer/hack/management type. So, I'm afraid doing the right thing -going back to uni- would make me unhappy. Does this make sense?
Edit: The only drug that I feel held me back was weed. Sorry to say that but those cliches about lazy stoners are true in my book. Weed made me achieve some things months and years later, it's poison to dedication and work ethic.
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