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April getting/staying sober thread v. April showers

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Mocmoc said:
Day 7 today, it's been a very long time since I've been able to say that!
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Thats sweet!! a week is a long time for some of us ^^

I'm on Day 4 no opiates now.. takin' it slow.

Took two clonaz last night but still couldn't sleep. I want to clean the house but have 0% energy....
It hurts to just sit here, but it will psychologically feel good to accomplish something while feeling physically shitty, lol.
No chance I'm eating, so just drinking some green tea in the meantime, and putting on some chillin' music because that always helps <3

I'll be able to say it's been a week soon enough! :D

~Ms.P
 
Happy birfday...to me:)

Funny how my head is telling me I have an excuse to get down with something.."but you were in a facility on your last birthday.." "you've been really good for over a year.."

I understand why I see so many people having full blown arguments with themselves now..:)
 
neversickanymore said:
I dont think anybody would be able to do it with the medications in the same house. If you know you dont have and cant get the substance the craving subside a great deal.

it sounds like you are really close Space.. all you likely need to do is decide that no matter what your going to push through.. come hell or high water, no matter how you feal your going to push through till the end.. then get to a place where you couldn't score if you wanted to.. then just just grin and bare it and realize that you will make it through.

never give up and you are guaranteed to succeed.
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I agree, if I flushed the drugs I would have no choice. I'm not ready..., yet. It was more of an exam to see where I am.
My concern is that it was so psychologically bizarre that it freaked me out.
Just wanted to know if that was a normal symptom as I haven't seen it listed.
I still have three days to work before I get a three week break, and there was no way I was going to work tripping like that...

CaseFace said:
I'm sorry you're having such a rough time with this man. Remind me again, what are you detoxing from? I apologize, a lot of different people on here trying to get clean off of different substances it's hard to remember everyones specifics!! Can't really give a lot of advice without knowing the substance. Stay strong with your commitment to this though! You haven't failed, you've hit some bumps in the road and the only way to succeed in the end is to keep trucking along and steering back on track when you get knocked off course. You're a strong person and I know you have the courage to fight the good fight!
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I'mt taking about 120 mg Hydromorphone insulfated and about 150 mg OC per day. Insufflating the OM makes it three times as strong so its more like 360 mg. So total morphine conversion is about 2000 mg pd.

Yesterday I knocked the OM down to 56 mg and my plan is to cut it out today.

I anticipate that this will still cause significant w/d discomfort, but hopefully be something I can at least function on.

Once I am on only OC, I can taper like normal.

I need to get the dose down a bit and then do my jump, me thinks.
 
Mocmoc said:
Day 7 today, it's been a very long time since I've been able to say that!
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Congrats, Mocmoc.

Papaverium said:
I'm on Day 4 no opiates now.. takin' it slow.

~Ms.P
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Congrats Ms P, I noticed you said you aren't sleeping, do you have any other mental symptoms.
I couldn't even find my reading glasses yesterday my head was so messed up, didn't eat or drink, just sat there like a zombie! =D

itsALLfake said:
Happy birfday...to me:)
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Happy Birthday itsALLfake, and congrats on your year clean!
 
itsALLfake said:
Happy birfday...to me:)

Funny how my head is telling me I have an excuse to get down with something.."but you were in a facility on your last birthday.." "you've been really good for over a year.."

I understand why I see so many people having full blown arguments with themselves now..:)
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Happy birthday!

I think we all relate to that voice in your head. As many have said before me, it's best to just not even have the conversation with yourself. Go distract yourself with other things.



Update on me. I read this forum everyday for inspiration but rarely post. Still kicking. Coming up on 9 months at the end of the month. Truly amazing to think I haven't had a drink in almost 9 months. I crave often but I've accepted my sobriety. I'm getting good at recognising my triggers and dealing with cravings.

Then again I'm also just having a good period in my life. Lots of things happening that would never have happened if I was still drinking and smoking.
 
Obsessing about the idea I might be able to smoke weed and not have to go back to meth and heroin. However that is in the future, I know today I will be sober.

I want things for myself today, I want to go back to school to learn so I can help people. Today I am just frustrated because I want things back in my life like a license and a car, I want to be in school, have my own apartment, but I know that none of that will come if I get high again. I'm just worried about how I will stay sober once I leave my halfway house. But I guess just one day at a time lol.
I know today there is NOTHING left out in the drug world for me. Drugs will make the problem much worse and I am fucking of tired of rehabs and shit and having a fuckedbup life.

I want friends and make valuable connections with people , I want to help people. I think I am on my way to success , but it is a process it just doesn't come over night. Talking about sobriety in any fashion really helps too.

Today I just want to escape from reality, but I know I can get through today without getting high
 
Day 10 for me sober off my doc. Day one totally sober off all my comfort meds. I hate life today and don't want to face the day sober. Blah.
 
I haven't added in here in a while but still in track, it's Day 239 for me today :)

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Check out this fun little sobriety calculator picture app :)
 
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Space Firebird said:
Congrats Ms P, I noticed you said you aren't sleeping, do you have any other mental symptoms.
I couldn't even find my reading glasses yesterday my head was so messed up, didn't eat or drink, just sat there like a zombie! =D
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Yes, but I more-so mentioned it in the Venting Thread because I was having really bad cravings at that moment and didn't wanna bitch just anywhere lol.... It's the mental aspect that's hardest for me.
I feel 80lbs heavier than I should be, every day when I wake up, usually depressed, and just constantly having using on my mind, and mood swings, which weed helps a lot with. in fact I need weed to be mentally stable on a daily basis hahahaha
But it's getting better... waking up sweaty and cold was a shitty time but only lasted like 2 days. I'm glad I've only experienced a few stomach cramps, and no nausea..... Just sore and super tired.
I just have a lot of trouble with mental things, like triggers. My mind goes crazy. Especially if I have money, which I'm glad Ive been broke lately lol!

~Ms.P
 
I've been off cannabis for two months, but I just resumed two days ago. I sadly realized that if I have a stash, I smoke it relentlessly.

So I'll smoke this and probably won't buy some again. I reckon the stuff quality plays a big role in this scheme, and grass is definitely greener on the other side. Meh.
 
^^ I know!!! It feels REALLY weird to be approaching a year, and making me sort of nervous in a weird way. I know it makes no sense but I feel like as I approach a year I'm being forced into really committing to sobriety or not, which makes me uncomfortable because only worrying about staying sober today and not tripping on the future is part of what has gotten me this far. So in a way I think i need to just not focus to much on the whole one year thing, and continue focusing on today.
 
CaseFace said:
I couldn't get it to work cause they don't give the right code. 337 days though. ;)
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Thanks Addy <3

And congrats Casey so many many days!!!! You need to set it one day ahead of your sobriety date to get the correct number... I think because they count it by the next days midnight or something..

But also I tried to copy your signature little bolded sobriety date.. How did you get the text smaller? I wasn't able to edit my text smaller? Can you post me the code? =D Pweeety pweeeeze <3.
 
stardust.hero said:
Thanks Addy <3

And congrats Casey so many many days!!!! You need to set it one day ahead of your sobriety date to get the correct number... I think because they count it by the next days midnight or something..

But also I tried to copy your signature little bolded sobriety date.. How did you get the text smaller? I wasn't able to edit my text smaller? Can you post me the code? =D Pweeety pweeeeze <3.
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[SIZE=1 ]test[/SIZE]

Without the space. It's smaller because I posted the code without the space around it as well. =D


Hope everyone is well. I had an amazing night tonight with some friends. Keep it up all. 338 Days. :)
 
Trying.... Went from 4/5 to 4/10 without a drink. Then from 4/11 to 4/15.

Today is day 2 again!! For the umpteenth time but it's still one more than day one!!!!!!
 
JOLM said:
Trying.... Went from 4/5 to 4/10 without a drink. Then from 4/11 to 4/15.

Today is day 2 again!! For the umpteenth time but it's still one more than day one!!!!!!
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That's awesome! Keep it up day 3 is only around the corner! :)

Day 5 for me..... yippee! Feelin' a bit better. Still feelin' like a sore log when I wake up, but I'm not depressed today, let's keep it that way!!

~Ms.P
 
I've got 11 days off opiates and counting today...still feel a bit shitty (Haha...pun intended) but functional. At least physically. Mentally...eh not so much. I can do this....? :/
 
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