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April getting/staying sober thread v. April showers

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laCster said:
I'm doing really well guys. It's my birthday on Friday!! I also found out I have pretty significant brain trauma so I am doing this type of neuro feedback and the best part is that the doctor can repair the damage and stimulate my NAcc and VTA at the same time :)
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Happy Birthday! Mine is coming up on the 16th..:) My last birthday was in a transitional living facility, so I'm sure I'll have some challenges in front of me..nothing too difficult.

This is the first day that I've been able to be on bluelight that I didn't have rainbows, unicorns, and sunshine spewing out of me.. 3 hours of sleep for the past two nights, but I was having fun while my daughter was keeping me up with her giggling and so forth.. I've had several using thoughts fly at me over these past two days.. I honestly thought something was wrong with me in this year+ for not ever having them...late bloomer? While the idea sounded enticing when it first crossed my mind, I played the tape/thought all the way through whenever I would get those ideas in my head.

We're finally to where we can get back out of my parents house..I'm sure being fresh out of rehab and her being pregnant didn't make for the best of things living with parents, but I'm very thankful to not have fallen flat on my face trying to do it all on my own.

I hope everyone has a wonderful day, and that you're all getting more sleep than I am;). *kisses*

pee-es.. I managed to catch fast food breakfast before they were done serving..hash browns are mush.. As much as I think that sucks right now, it's a very good thing for my ever growing waste line.:)
 
So, I'm certainly not sober completely, but I've managed to do opiates only twice this week!

Keeping use as few and far between as possible helped keep my tolerance to a minimum over this past year of being on it, but I just ended up using more, and more frequently eventually, seeing as that's how drugs work unfortunately. And my tolerance as getting too high for my liking, so I figured it's be wise to stop with what little will power I have left before it's too late. Even if it is temporary (which sounds like the stupidest thing anyone can say... ) but I can't say I'm quitting forever.... yet.

But my goal is to be clean at least until the summer... That's a goal, right???? :/
 
28 days clean today. Started my job today, my fiancé leaves rehab tomorrow even though she's not coming back to me yet I'm still glad she'll be out. I guess it's gonna be a good week
 
laCster said:
I'm doing really well guys. It's my birthday on Friday!! I also found out I have pretty significant brain trauma so I am doing this type of neuro feedback and the best part is that the doctor can repair the damage and stimulate my NAcc and VTA at the same time :)
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Nice, man. Glad you're doing well. Happy B day in advance!

What is the brain trauma from?
 
Oxy_Ghost said:
28 days clean today. Started my job today, my fiancé leaves rehab tomorrow even though she's not coming back to me yet I'm still glad she'll be out. I guess it's gonna be a good week
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Awesome work man! Glad your doing well, amazing what can be acomplished when we're thinking clearly! Wish I could say I was 21 days clean today but I can't :-(. Had a hiccup but I will be joining you in being clean on Thursday. I'm tapering again from a binge and will be jumping Thursday. For good this time. No stuff left and my doc won't refill my script anymore since I talked to him last week. Anyway, glad to hear your doing well. I bet you feel great!
 
Papaverium said:
Congrats Ghost!! :) Keep it up :D
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Thanks:)

Mocmoc said:
Awesome work man! Glad your doing well, amazing what can be acomplished when we're thinking clearly! Wish I could say I was 21 days clean today but I can't :-(. Had a hiccup but I will be joining you in being clean on Thursday. I'm tapering again from a binge and will be jumping Thursday. For good this time. No stuff left and my doc won't refill my script anymore since I talked to him last week. Anyway, glad to hear your doing well. I bet you feel great!
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Thanks! And good luck to you, you can do it! At least your tapering. I had to quit cold turkey and with no help from any meds for w/d's. Other than insomnia that's not getting any better(but not getting any worse) and minor RLS in the morning, Im feel better. Even if I wanted to use I couldn't, no money haha. Cuz I'm sure if I had the money than I would've used at least once in the past month. I'm glad I haven't had money though
 
CaseFace said:
Sooo I'm back!!!

Been at the All California Young Peoples AA conference since Thursday. Technically I got back sunday night but aside from going to class Monday morning I've been asleep since then. (it's 5am tuesday and I've been up for a couple hours, and about to pass back out after checking in on here.)

Clearly I'm exhausted lol. Absurd amounts of caffeine and dancing for hours on end, hanging out/talking to people from all over the west coast, getting to know some people who live in my area better, was a good weekend. I also got a sponsee who struggles to accept a lot of the same things I struggled with when I first started going to AA, and I feel privileged to have an opportunity to show him a way of looking at the program/steps in a way that doesn't contradict his own beliefs.

Had a few moments of feeling pretty down while I was there because of seeing an ex girlfriend who obviously made it a point to not talk to me, but in response my friends made it a point to distract me from that and not let me focus on stupid shit thats in the past. All in all had a great time. Was pretty powerful during the main meetings friday and saturday night, being in a room with 2000 other people within approximately 10 years of my age all trying to stay sober.
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Awh Casey, I'm so terribly sorry that your ex did not talk to you. I can't imagine how you felt. Apart from that, how was the conference? You don't need people like that. You know you're welcome to E-mail/PM me anytime, don't you?! How is college going for you? Please don't let her get to you, though it's easier said than done. You have like 10 months off drugs, right?! That's an AMAZING accomplishment. PLUS you're now a moderator for Sober Living, that's another accomplishment!

You've moved, got your own car, got new accommodation. You're doing well. Be proud of yourself.

Thinking of you and here for you, anytime.

Evey

PS: Oxy's Ghost I hope you're doing ok too. How are things with your daughter. Did you succeed in having her live with your Gran? I seen your photo n 'tis obvious you're close to her n are a good father. I wish you all the very best xxxx
 
Fucking April, glad summers finally coming around, got 15 months sober, been a bit of a roller coaster in the past few months, on the fence about recovery, etc. but still sober, going to meetings, got a great job, my own place, family's cool with me, good support group and friends. Summers gonna be nice out door sports, camping, cottages, hiking, etc. which will definitely bring me some satisfaction and happiness plus the sun can't hurt. Question for any one to answer, thing I've been struggling with is finding girls I'm 23 clean from all substances except for nicotine and caffeine. Any advice on places to find girls would be awesome. All the girls I know drink or use and really only want to meet up for drinks which I get, if I was a normal 23 year old I wouldn't wanna be around a sober person personally. Anyways not really into girls at the meetings I attend so yea . .
 
Eveleivibe said:
Awh Casey, I'm so terribly sorry that your ex did not talk to you. I can't imagine how you felt. Apart from that, how was the conference? You don't need people like that. You know you're welcome to E-mail/PM me anytime, don't you?! How is college going for you? Please don't let her get to you, though it's easier said than done. You have like 10 months off drugs, right?! That's an AMAZING accomplishment. PLUS you're now a moderator for Sober Living, that's another accomplishment!

You've moved, got your own car, got new accommodation. You're doing well. Be proud of yourself.

Thinking of you and here for you, anytime.

Evey
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Thanks Evey. I'm not tripping on it too hard. At the time, in the moment at the conference it was one of those things where it's like fuck I really don't WANT to give a shit about this, but i do and I can't control it. Made me pretty anxious, but like I said I told a couple of my friends and they made it a point to distract me and make sure I didn't isolate or trip on it too much. I was a minor inconvenience to an amazing weekend, basically. I had more then enough fun to counter act any negative thoughts or emotions associated with her. I really had an amazing time and not letting one little thing ruin the memories.

Unfortunately I got sick while I was there, and it's been getting worse since I got back. I've been in bed since sunday night basically, and I feel horrible right now. :\

But yeah otherwise school is going alright, I got a B+ on my first major research paper. I need to catch up on some homework which i don't know if I'll be able to do right now since I'm so sick but I'll figure it out. And yeah, 10 months sober actually coming up on 11 months in a little under a week.
 
Space Firebird said:
So you're looking to pick up chicks in the BL April Staying Sober thread? :?
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stop it, you. of course not. he's going to look for girls in the nudie thread. ;)

@Iman-- i'm totally joking. my advice: pick up a free weekly paper and look up club sports teams (softball, soccer, etc.), yoga classes, gyms or a climbing gyms, cooking classes, art classes, etc. Activities where strangers gather to do an activity that doesn't revolve around using or using culture (or the opposite; AA or NA) will create an atmosphere where you can talk to women organically and naturally. When guys try to hit on me at AA meetings I find it repulsive. But if I'm in a cooking class or printmaking studio class it's fun to socialize with my partner or with new groups of people.
 
lman_15 said:
Fucking April, glad summers finally coming around, got 15 months sober, been a bit of a roller coaster in the past few months, on the fence about recovery, etc. but still sober, going to meetings, got a great job, my own place, family's cool with me, good support group and friends. Summers gonna be nice out door sports, camping, cottages, hiking, etc. which will definitely bring me some satisfaction and happiness plus the sun can't hurt. Question for any one to answer, thing I've been struggling with is finding girls I'm 23 clean from all substances except for nicotine and caffeine. Any advice on places to find girls would be awesome. All the girls I know drink or use and really only want to meet up for drinks which I get, if I was a normal 23 year old I wouldn't wanna be around a sober person personally. Anyways not really into girls at the meetings I attend so yea . .
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dog parks are a good place.. so many good places.. what do you like to do?
 
Zwanya said:
stop it, you. of course not. he's going to look for girls in the nudie thread. ;)
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I've been with my wife for 34 years, I would have no idea where to begin to look for a new soul mate.
There are a couple great ideas ^^up there^^ however.
You guys here (NSA, Zwanya, Scag, Case, CH, and well, the rest of you regulars) are always with the program on multiple levels, kudos to you!

"Dog Parks"..., what a great idea; I've even been hit on at a dog park before, now that I think of it...
 
Eveleivibe said:
PS: Oxy's Ghost I hope you're doing ok too. How are things with your daughter. Did you succeed in having her live with your Gran? I seen your photo n 'tis obvious you're close to her n are a good father. I wish you all the very best xxxx
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I'm doing good, I'm feeling much better. My fiancé gets out of rehab some time today, idk when I'll be ale to see her but I'm just glad she's finally getting out and I can talk to her whenever. And yes! We got her moved in with my grandma on Friday I think it was, I've visited her every day and she seems soooo much happier and it makes new feel much better too. Her school ended up dropping her but they called yesterday and said they have a couple spots open now so she's gonna get back into school. That's what I really want for her more than anything
 
Thank you allfake , scag and captain :). How are you doing scag? How's the 'done working for you?

That's awesome to hear captain :)! I am very proud, it's simple but definitely not easy to get off bup. Give me a call some time man
 
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