Benzos Anyone's opinion appreciated

[Ondine]

So, have taken lorazepam on a few occasions these past years. Never really felt much from it until I took 3 0.5 mg tablets, which made me reasonably drowsy.

Flash forward a few years, I've been trying a lot of drugs and been offered a lot too. I suddenly get a very good offer (it seems) for 20 2 mg clonazepam, and me being the drug demon that I am eagerly accept. Some miscommunication occurs, I pay the same price and end up getting 40 2mg clonazepam, 20 1 mg xanax, and 4 1 mg lorazepam. These were received partially on the 27th of september and in total on 10/1. I've since then sold 10 of the xanax, lost 4 more xannies and about 6 kpins by chucking what I thought was an empty cigarette pack off the roof of the sky scraper. I'm pretty sure there's 1-2 xanax and a klonopin lost somewhere in the dark corners of my room. I've also shared 1.5 kpins with a friend.

The thing is that I don't particularly remember taking any of the pills in detail especially anymore. I have 7 kpins and 1 xanax left in my pill bottle so if I guess you do the math, then I've taken 5mg of xanax, 4 mg of lorazepam, and 61 mg of clonazepam in the past 13 days. I think I must have lost some more of the kpins than I thought along the way, since 61mg seems like waaaay too much, all though the last memory I have of doing them is eating 4 this past sunday, snorting 1 more mixed with about 75mg of ketamine about 3 hours later, and then snorting one and a half more about an hour and a half later.

I just really remember anything about them at this moment, I feel like I couldn't imagine taking another one. I feel tired, pretty depressed, but not anymore than I usually feel on a boring monday afternoon.

I guess my question is: should I have a heavy dependance on them at this point?
Would most people be addicted?
I've heard benzo tolerance lasts a while but I was under the impression that that was for long term users. I've been binge using (especially intranasally which I guess isnt as effective) for only 13 days.

Are the ones I have left worth keeping around for some shits and giggles?
I really don't think I'm addicted and don't plan on buying anymore, but from any of you who have had similar experiences with benzos, am I better off just flushing them down the toilet now or trying to sell them to that dumb bitch down the hall?

 

[uno22]

do whatever you want with them. personally i would keep them for a rainy day and just use way less at a time.

but you will not be dependent after 13 days

 

[heavyriffer]

Be careful with them, you dont want to become dependent on them. if you take a longbreak and have little tolerance to them that will be best. cuz IMO taking 1-3 and getting a good buzz is healthier and smarter than taking 5+ up pills oh and dont snort them,i mean cuz from what i read they dont dissolve good so its better to sublingually melt or pop em.

 

[veinville]

As a benzo user for many years now i agree that you should save them but I also know the need to wake up and pop one even though one just doesnt do the trick. But to answer your question id take a small maybe 5 or 6 day break and throw em down the hatch

 

[HeadphonesandLSD]

As others are saying its time for a break. I did a binge like that on xanax not long ago and I ended up having a few shitty days afterwards, but nothing that couldn't be beaten with pure will power. If you continue to use at this rate, you will develop a dependence yes.

Put them away and find something else to do for a couple of weeks. Maybe stick to the cheeba or beer for that time (if you consume those of course) and try to forget about those wonderful pills you have stashed away at home.

My benzo of choice was always xanax, and it was easy for me to go from 2 pills on the first night, to 3 on the second, 5 on the third, 8 on the fourth (not all at once) etc etc etc. I always tried to keep it as a weekend/once a month thing. I'm not a big fan of how "stupid" I get on it, the black outs, and the waking up the next day to an empty bottle with a "wtf happened?" look on my face. But on the flip side, when 25 or so drop into my lap, its hard to resist not taking them.

 

[MEthh]

I agree, save that shit for a rainy day. You got to respect benzos and use sparingly. If you get highly dependent on them, you can die if you stop. So stop going crazy and take it easy.