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anyone done inpatient for ptsd/suicide?

theartofwar

theartofwar

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If you've been in inpatient for ptsd symptoms , suicide - what was your experience ? How long were you in for ? I just packed last load of laundry , I don't know what to expect, i don't want to go but i need to.
 
thx :) I really appreciate it. I feel real weak admitting how bad things have gotten, I know logically I am doing the bigger thing by saying I need help - it does not feel that way though. My heads confused though , period. Really does mean a lot though to have support. I know their are tons of groups but I don't know much else, the place I'm going is real good - one advantage of living in boston, lots of good medical.
 
Ask me in a decade from now ;)

In all seriousness though I have not but I know how you feel.

I take it you are already looking at a specific clinic - do you know if you would be comfortable there, i.e. more comfortable than where you are now?
 
Ya CH , I sent you the link to where I'm going actually.

It's not even a matter of comfort ( although the place is really nice ) - it's a matter of safety. I do not trust myself anymore, it's a really dark place to be honestly. I wish I had answers, but I do not. I hope to find some.
 
^ Good luck with it...you are fighting for yourself, am delighted for you. Proper fighting, none of this noncey image shit. This is courage.
<3
 
Take care of yourself man! Good to hear that you are doing what you feel is best for yourself.
 
If it is a nice clean place with good food it helps. You might be put on a structured schedule and there will be group sessions and maybe one-on-one sessions too which would be good. It highly depends on who your staff, doctors, and fellow residents are. You will not be able to have a belt or shoe laces likely or anything else that could be considered a "suicide" tool. You may meet some nice people there. I met some cool people. Hopefuly you will get a thorough evaluation good diagnoses and the right treatment that consists of thereapy, not just drugs.
Good luck man, you seem like a good guy from posts of your that I read and I'm sorry to see that you are feeling this way. I think you will be alright and you have been doing good with trying to live healthily and stay in shape.
 
thank you for the input - means a lot - i waited through two discharges today but no beds. Actually this turns out to be good because tomorrow from 8-4 I have a drivers retraining course I had COMPLETELY forgotten about. My license is gonna be jacked anyway since i got a ticket this past week on top of everything, but i still need to attend it and blowing off the state isn't a good move.
I need to see how far away the class is but hopefully I can leave their (i have everything packed and ready to roll) and get to the hospital to see if their is a spot from discharge. If not, I wait and go back.
I'm pretty set on the place so I don't want to go looking at other places .. however, if sunday comes and goes and their is no bed, i will go anywhere. It's a matter of safety at this point, i need to be in an environment where my own health is not at risk.
It's pouring rain and has been gloomy out all day, I am trying to keep my spirits up but it's not going too well. I'm debating on going out or not tonight, part of me thinks keeping active is better, but on the flip side I don't make the wisest choices when I am this low in regards to substances. One minute at a time these days. Again , thank you for the support.
 
if theirs no bed tom im gonna be going to ER and have them place me - sick of playing cat n mouse :/
 
TAOW, my little brother from far away,

I gave you the protips. So have others. My best advice as older sister is keep your head up <3 It wiil all work itself out.

Know that you are loved and appreciated. You are on a journey. Thank you for keeping the faith in yourself that you so much need.

I'll see you soon, lil bro. You won't want for anything. <3
 
theartofwar said:
if theirs no bed tom im gonna be going to ER and have them place me - sick of playing cat n mouse :/
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I understand. I had to wait 3 hours just to get Xrays, and they sent me on my way without even resetting my arm. :! I should sue, but I am too impatient to do anything like that.

Nonetheless, when waiting goes from < 1 hour to multiple hours, it's unbearable. I can only imagine how you felt the whole time.

Stick it out. Bring some music, some reading material, a laptop, anything to help you out through the waiting time.

Whatever happens, we'll still be here to talk about it with you when you are back. Best of luck man, we will all be thinking about you.
 
I've been an inpatient numerous times for suicidal ideations and attempts. The experience was much better when I was a voluntary inpatient at the local hospital psych ward - it had a TV lounge, games room, art room, and the staff were nice. I managed to keep myself fairly well occupied. But the experience was totally different when I was involuntarily committed into a maximum security facility (it took 6 cops to get me there!). I spent much of the time in lock-down, in a cell with only a bedpan and a matress on the floor. Fortunately I was discharged from that unit after only a couple of weeks - any longer and I would have gone even more crazy! :\

Anyway, good luck! I hope it goes well. <3
 
Almost 3 weeks into inpatient now. Was originally voluntary but got changed to involuntarily after I cut into my arm 100 or so times. Place is very dull, was allowed a laptop but they locked it away after what I did. Also now on 15 minute checks which gets annoying. It's not too bad though, food is cooked for you, staff seem sympathetic, finally been clean for longer then a week. Good luck anyway.
 
I'm goin in - i think its smartest to lay low on contact period for now, so peace n ill holla when im out.

thx for the heads up seith, hope it goes well for you bro.
 
i have ptsd and have tried to kill myself 3 times. ive been hospitalized 23 times. the experience varies but sometimes it can be helpful. usually you are in there for 1-2 weeks and they will mess with your meds a bit until they find something that they find works. whatever you do be sure to refuse any benzos they may give you cause the withdrawal is making my ptsd worse. you'll be fine man ive been doing the mental hosptial; shit for 4 years now and it can be very helpful. plus you get to meet a lot of cool people that have been thru some shit, some of which may be very similar to yours. to me the patients are always the most helpful. lemme know how it goes
 
well I'm back, got tossed out, some dude from my group took a grab at my treasure chest when i told him i didn't want to go into details about what had happened to me , "let's go back in detail" i knocked him out and don't regret it. fucking stupid, waste of two fucking days.
 
TAOW, you have to take the right measures with these psycho's, these nuts seem to come out of the woodwork and keep sabotaging YOUR recovery, I wouldnt blame you for protecting yourself from that sleezy fukin nutjob but what about YOU? Where do you go from here?

Did you tell staff about this asshole?

These kinda people always seem to surface(for some reason when we're at our most vulnerable). Its like an obstacle course of people who try and make things harder for you, when the direction should be fairly straightforward...but these kinda obstacles still have to be dealt with and overcome...whats the alternative, to give up on yourself?!
 
theartofwar said:
well I'm back, got tossed out, some dude from my group took a grab at my treasure chest when i told him i didn't want to go into details about what had happened to me , "let's go back in detail" i knocked him out and don't regret it. fucking stupid, waste of two fucking days.
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He deserved way more than that...wtf with people not respecting the "personal space" and "don't fucking touch me" rules that every human should follow?

At a club on Saturday, some kid was dancing with me and tried to kiss me, I pushed him away and said no, and he started licking my neck and everytime I tried to push him off he pulled me in tighter! Thankfully a male friend whom I was with saw what was going on and came to help me out...but seriously, WHAT THE FUCK with the unnecessary touching...that guy had NO RIGHT to touch your genitals in particular, this type of shit just pisses me off...it's like the more intense version of when someone is standing behind you in line and literally is touching you they are so close..."DO NOT TOUCH ME UNLESS I GIVE YOU PERMISSION TO DO SO," how hard is that to follow? I'm so sorry with what you had to deal with, maybe after the knock out that guy knows better now at least. Who knows what he's done to anyone else...
 
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