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anyone done inpatient for ptsd/suicide?

^^ I agree.

TAOW please get back and get some help. If not there then somewhere else. Do not give someone else the power to determine the course of your life. I do not know where you live or what your insurance (medical) situation is, but I know there are ways to get help. It looks like you have people here that are interested in seeing you get better and want to help. Reach out to those people that you feel comfortable with for help. Good Luck.
 
Clinical Help.

Hey All first post here,

Have you though about an inpatient substance abuse facility? If I remember correctly from previous posts you have past-current opiate use. All you need for admittance is opiate (or other abusable substances) in your bloodstream at the time of admittance (and a means of paying also). Admittance can be 3-5 hours with a confirmed appointment for being admitted.

Once in you can then tell the first doctor you see that you are having some sudicial tendencies and have been diagnosed with previous PTSD. Dont lay it on too much so as not to get transferred to another facility (unless thats your plan). I would also recommend doing some research to find a well known-accreditted Suburban area facility (to avoid the previous incidents from re-occurring.

You will probably end up being treated better than in a mental ward, be with a different group of people and end up with medication thats not so brutal from a mental standpoint along with still getting the help that you need. Just a though?

Thanks,
Happy D
 
I'm not going back in - I'm not bringing this matter up - the staff was fully aware of what he did if they wish to pursue him / warn other facilities so be it, but they will do it without me.

My mum always asked me why I didn't pursue legal course with what had happened to me when I was 10 (sue etc) - this shit is hard enough, the last thing i need is to put a price on my own fucking body and have myself displayed in news paper and the news. It's beyond demoralizing to think that an amount of money will make a rats ass, I might as well fucking hook myself out.
 
Leaving this lie is neglecting yourself and your own honour. Punching him only got you out of there and already drew attention to you negatively so, what do you have to lose. Your worth more than that.
It has nothing to do with your Mother, it has to do with YOU, NOW.

If you psychologically fight this, and dont go down without fighting for your rights, it will benifit you, you know that! Its not the result but the process of doing it for yourself.
We'll all be here to back you up if do you choose to do it.
I know you probably dont want to hear that and Im not trying to be an asshole, I just hate to see people giving up on themselves. <3
 
I'm sorry but I disagree, and I don't think you sound like an asshole at all i know you mean well :).

The very thought that this can have any closure with a lawsuit makes me want to fucking vomit or frankly cry (which i almost never do). It demoralizes me, makes me feel like a check can take care of this , give it some sense of justification. That couldn't be further from the truth - their is no justification , i live with this shit everyday of the year , i can't sleep for shit , chase absurd drug highs to try to ignore it , it's damn near killed my sex drive and obviously it has affected my desire to live. Money, publicity, none of that shit can fix that.
 
^Not talking about a law suit pet, just about getting treatment somwhere where they will be extra cautious about lookin after your needs...Like taking a complaint to a higher authority etc as to get yourself really quality treatment. Dont know how these things work in the U.S. but there must be some Health Authority you can correspond with and tell that you need help without the risk of added trauma, after what you have been through with this last experience.
 
Oh,
Ya I'm all set with that lol. My bad I misread what you said. But ya, I'm not going into any treatment right now that's for damn sure.
 
Treatment help

Hey ,
I know I dont know you but after reading your first two posts and then reading your last two posts Im just confused. It initially sounded like you really wanted some professional help. It takes balls to step up and admit that as well as to go out and seek treatment for it. Rehab was by far the most humbling experience that I have ever had in my life...... Then you had some bad experience the first day and knocked someones teeth in and now you are no longer interested in getting any help? If I'm prying to much just tell me to F off and I'll leave it alone , but those feelings just dont seem to go away on their own and If anything they usually get worse (even if you dont realize it right away).

You really shouldn't give up on professional help that easy? Its never a pleaseant experience but in the end its often needed, and once you can get to the root cause of the problems it will be like a bag of rocks have been lifted off of your shoulders and you will be able to go about your life happy , for the first time in a long time. Of course we all are different and I can only speak on my experiences.

Thanks,
Happy D
 
I am not the type to say F off to anyone who is trying to help happydaze, no worries there buddy.

I wanted to get help - I don't anymore it is that simple. I have been in therapy since I was 10, on more medication then you can count. I do not want to be in a restricted environment where my moves are regulated. I don't expect anyone to agree and say this is the right move, I am very depressed and suicide seems like a welcome change. However, I love people, I love my dog, and if that is not enough I do not want to live.
 
Unfortunately therapy and facilities aren't so great. They can hardly be described as "help." Unfortunately they seem to have replaced true friendship and family help and love. I don't want to recommend not going to anyone, but I will never go back to a facility myself cause it is just not something for me. Loving your dog is a good reason to live. It is as good as any. Fuck what anybody else might think. Your dog is very real and has very real feelings for you I would say. It is as real and healthy as any love to love a pet.
 
Oh hek
I read this thread and just wanted to send you my best. I have PTSD and know how dibilitating it can be. I also recently lost someone to suicide and we are devastated and, F**k the ripples from that still affecting so many of us who loved that man. If you love people and you love your dog, Like I love the one lying at my feet right now. It is enough.
from one side of the world to the other, I wish you all the best
bx
 
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Hey War,

Facilities do suck in the regards that they pretty much structure your entire stay. they tell you when to get up , when to eat , when you can use the phone, when you go to bed, when to take your meds (kept thinking of The One That Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest) what activities you do...pretty much everything except when you use the bathroom (and some may even regulate that). That was very rough for me coming from my own house with Wife and kids and a king sized bed , calling all the shots to being put in a tiny azz bed with some older guy who had been on k-pins for 15yrs and his dr CT'ed him and he lost it. Talked junk all day and kept me up all night with his tossing and turning. I was kickin anyways so I was not going to sleep anyways. But when your life has become unmanageable (as mine did) I needed that structure because I had forgotten how to live properly without oppy's
You may not be there right now but may benefit from some outpatient type meetings-treatment. Sounds like you may have been through all this already but finding the right place may be the key to unlock the answers you are still seeking. Having a reason to live is a must and your reasons are great but hopefully a temporary one. Sometimes you have to be selfish and I do think this is one of them. You have to relearn to love yourself as your reason to keep going. I hated myself and what I had done for quite some time but I had to relearn to love myself before I ended up making progress in my recovery. Hope it wasn't too long winded , thanks for listening. Happy D
 
TAOW - when I said "sue the **** out of them" I did not know that there was more background. I hope I did not offend you by making an off-color remark about that. You know I worked for both disreputable and very reputable attorneys most of my adult life. I've seen it all. My occupation made me very jaded, so my opinions are colored by that.

I just wanted to write you a little note that lawsuits are about paychecks for some people, but in reality they are about justice and holding those who act wrongly accountable for their actions. Due to the nature of our capitalist society, that often (though not always) involves monetary compensation. I did not intend to advise you to be exploitative in any manner. I simply meant that whomever the guy that crept on you was should not be allowed to do it again, to you or to anyone else.

I hope that you are feeling better today. Treatment did not go as planned and something really messed up happened to you. How you choose to handle that is your choice alone. You are a strong and intelligent human being whom I deeply respect. TDS is a place of peace for all of us in need, and you will always be my lil big bro. <3
 
I was checked into an inpatient hospital against my will, and it honestly wasn't a terrible experience. I'm not sure if your hospital works like this, but I had a "team" of doctors diagnosing me, & I got one-on-one time with a therapist, and group therapy sessions. In my week long stay I broke down crying only one time, and I was locked in an empty room with the exception of a mattress. I'm not sure why they'd lock someone in a room like that only for crying... They won't allow you to have as someone already said, anything that can be used to harm yourself. There was a lounge with a TV and magazines.... lots of interesting people.
We were allowed to go out into a courtyard with barbed wired electric fences and kick a ball around. There was a library with computers. There was a rock climbing wall :o by the end of my visit I was allowed to climb it. Also if they hand you a checklist of foods you don't like, just check every meat product on the list & they'll give you veal. Apparently they didn't get many vegetarians where I stayed....
I hope you have a good stay, & make the best of the help offered.
 
Mariposa said:
TAOW - when I said "sue the **** out of them" I did not know that there was more background. I hope I did not offend you by making an off-color remark about that. You know I worked for both disreputable and very reputable attorneys most of my adult life. I've seen it all. My occupation made me very jaded, so my opinions are colored by that.

I just wanted to write you a little note that lawsuits are about paychecks for some people, but in reality they are about justice and holding those who act wrongly accountable for their actions. Due to the nature of our capitalist society, that often (though not always) involves monetary compensation. I did not intend to advise you to be exploitative in any manner. I simply meant that whomever the guy that crept on you was should not be allowed to do it again, to you or to anyone else.

I hope that you are feeling better today. Treatment did not go as planned and something really messed up happened to you. How you choose to handle that is your choice alone. You are a strong and intelligent human being whom I deeply respect. TDS is a place of peace for all of us in need, and you will always be my lil big bro. <3
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Posa, you absolutely mean nothing but the best - i am not remotely upset. The concept of it "sueing" etc , it doesn't sit well with me. And I have a lot of pressure from people to do so - frankly I wish they would value my own self worth over money and sticking it to this kid. Believe me i know this kid and I haven't forgotten... this isn't over in my mind. But legal actions , make me feel like a piece of meat. Again Mari, got nothin but love for you hun.

Thank you for support. For now, I am not making the wisest choices but I am continuing to survive..
 
oh side note - - anyone who knows me knows how i handle things. This is not over, but I will not say anything except now is not the time. That piece of shit will regret it though.
 
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