Be careful with very psychologically-overpowering steroids such as trenblone, anadrol, or halotestin. Being that you had a break down, those are pretty sure to make you have another.
To get back in find a good source for pharma grade test enanthate; usually underground labs are overrated in the dosage. Pharm grade will usually come in ampules of 1mL/250mg (true 250) test enanthate.
Start off simple.
500mgs test enanthate weekly. The only real difference between enth and cypionate is that cypionate has a slightly longer half life. IMO, I stay away from it.
Trust me, simple is better when you're getting back on. Run 500mg test enanthate a week by twelve weeks and (!!!!!!) follow up this time with the Anthony Roberts PCT. google it. It's perfect.
Best wishes.
Edit: typos.
If the OP is intent on using AAS I might suggest he read "Your first cycle".... It covers dose, pct, diet, etc...
I might suggest 250mg might be optimal for a beginner, as opposed to 500mg... 250mg tapered end of cycle might not need PCT...
A decent UG lab can be as good as pharma and can work out to be much cheaper...
Cypionate and Enanthate are just esters attached to the testosterone steran neucleus on the "D"-ring 17b-OH group, the ester is responsible for the active life of the testosterone molecule, it doesn't alter the pharmacological action of testosterone just its speed of release into the bloodstream.. Although both esters are quite different: enanthate having a straight carbon backbone, cypionate having a cyclopental-ring, their release times are quite similar at roughly 5 days for Enanthate and 6 days for Cypionate. Enanthate being slightly lighter than Cyp' hence with Enanthate you may obtain about 67.8% of testosterone /mg of compound, against about 65.8% for Cyp'..
Anthony Roberts, didn't he get thrown off BB.com..?
PCT= nolva-hCG-aromasin together..?? maybe not..
This Is what I got doing a quick pub med search I found an article that states the half life of test-e is 4-5 days (
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/2333732)
In saying, Half lives aren't set in stone. There's a lot of variables to be considered. The value given on Enanthate is a commonly accepted average value it can be substantially longer or shorter than this as it depends on a plethora of factors.
See the above reaction, it's an equilibrium reaction. Esters spontaneously react with water. The blood within your body is a water based solution, hence testosterone esters break down naturally to some extent once they hit the blood stream, but this process is also facilitated via enzymes known as esterases (also present in the blood stream).
When you inject your oil it creates a depot with a specific surface area exposed to the blood plasma within your muscles. The oil containing testosterone ester at the exposed surface area interface leaches out slowly into your body's blood stream.
Lower volume injects have a larger surface area to volume ratio to begin with than larger injects, therefore injecting small volumes of gear decreases the half life of testosterone ester within your body.
There are so many variables to consider affecting this process, that it is impossible to give a very definite value for each ester, they are nothing but guides.