Anxious...

[Taliana]

Societies presence creates a feel of unease in my body.
Anxiety, nervousness are experienced all too often.
I am not at one, when cluttered with souls around me.
I enjoy the company of myself,
Am at one, when noone is around.
You can only hinder my existence,
when you steal my time and inhibit my actions.
My brain becomes blank when you question me,
as you try to invade my mind, my soul.
I try to conform, to answer,
Yet still feel angry with myself,
As im not of quick wit so my response only brings me down.
Stop laughing at me, I do understand,
Only it takes me a while to realise...
Society forces me to enjoy my own company,
and laughs at me while im doing so,
Because society only makes me nervous when i immerse myself in it.
I am at one, when you are not around.

 

[Tribal Hybridz]

man, fuck society... sorry, im not tryin to be blunt, because i know that exact feeling. my personal fix to that was 2 12 inch subs, a 300 watt amp, and lots-o-house-n-jungle. i heard this local band play a song one time, and this lyric hit me hard: "As i sit in my rockin chair and yawn, thinkin God, im all alone..as i sit in my rockin chair and yawn, well i yawn and thank God, that im all alone.." it kinda makes you feel like its not all that bad, ya know? its hard to deal with that feeling of lonesome, lots of us struggle with it. thats why we do what we do...so we arent alone.. hell, if you want a copy of their cd, ill send it to ya, their called the FlowMellowAddicts, fuckin perfect comedown/chill music, for those long car rides all alone.Peace

 

[bluegirl]

i really liked this one sweetie - there are so many parts of it that i can relate to. i think in many ways we are similar people - very self-sufficient and enjoy time in our own company.... although loving being around other people need that "down time" with ourselves.
this is definitly my favourite part - it pefectly articulates how i feel about myself and my life right now.....

Society forces me to enjoy my own company,
and laughs at me while im doing so,
Because society only makes me nervous when i immerse myself in it
**MWUH**
bk

 

[yoUr bLiSS]

I enjoy the company of myself,
Am at one, when noone is around.
You can only hinder my existence,
when you steal my time and inhibit my actions.
um...wow...this describes me perfectly. i understand exactly how you are feeling....