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Mental Health Anxiety Disorders MEGA thread

I was using ecstasy daily or almost every day with my biggest break being one week for about 6 months. I quit one month ago and havnt touched it once.

Now every day I have pains in my chest and i'm heavily aware of my heart rate. im constantly questioning myself "is it beating too fast?... did it skip a beat?..." and every now and then, even when I'm not thinking about it I feel like a cant breath or like my heart and lungs quit working. I want to say its anxiety but what makes me worried is that even when everything is fine I lose control of my breathing. For instance An hour ago I was spinning a mix on my turntables and I lost control of my breathing and had to step away holding my heart making sure eveything was fine.

I've gone to the doctors and they tell me everything is fine, ive even had chest xrays and they didnt notice anything.

I dont know whats wrong and I wanted to know if ecstasy is to blame? is this long term? this never happened up until a month ago when I want to the ER. I was experiencing shortness of breathing and a heavily increased heart rate. Ever since then I havnt touched ecstasy once. The only reason I question if its anxiety or not, is because sometimes i lose control of my breathing completely out of nowhere

Please help.
 
the problems with mdma aren't cardiotoxicity so i think it is just anxiety, i get the same thing, worrying about my heart a lot and its got a lot to do with anxiety, although i have ingested a fuckload of cardiotoxins in my life
 
I worried so much about chest pain due to the amount of shit that could potentially go wrong - high doses of AAS linked with the left ventr artery being harderned etc - i know a lot of 35-40 year olds who have had sudden strokes due to this.

Bugs me out but not near enough to stop what i do lol. Anxiety is bitch but being bored is worse than anything in this world imo.
 
its interesting reading about people with anxiety worrying about their hearts, I notice that i too have obsessive worry over my heart and that it will just suddenly stop or something, despite reassuarances from doctors that it won't!

I guess its almost like an easy focal point to worry about, because if that stops, well ur fucked basically....

Has any one been prescribed antidepressents for anxiety? if so, which ones and did they work for you?
 
I do take an anti-depressant (I have seasonal depression, and unfortunately it's cold and dark here most of the year) and I think it does help with anxiety... It's actually an anti-psychotic, but is now being used more and more for depression as well. The medication is ABILIFY. It has made a big difference in my life!

I also take LAMICTAL, even though I'm not bipolar, it synergizes well with the Abilify for both depression and anxiety.

The most effective anti-anxiety medication I am taking right now is NEURONTIN (gabapentin)... I have only good things to say about this medication, it is literally saving my life.

The three of them combined are now allowing me to function normally and feel a sense of stability.
 
<Please do not recommend using illegal drugs to help mental issues. This may work for you but it is potentially triggering and harmful for others.>
 
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man - I had a horrible anxiety attack , I feel like I'm barely recovering - thank god for a wonderful young lady who has proven to me that she has my back. I have so much trouble admitting I'm weak and hurt , I'm actually making progress.

That being said - With anxiety I have a question:

My main fear w/anabolic steroids is the hardening of our left ventric artery - now mind you I do cardio twice - I an do a solid mile pace for awhile - my cardiovascular shape is good. But BUT - knowing that steroids can cause this problem - I SWEAR my anxiety dials into it and FREAKS me out. Also I'm hallucinating again (not right now , but I know in time I will today :( ) - I keep seeing the guy who raped me for awhile, and he is always singing the song , so full blown auditory and vis halucinations. Please any suggestions , I am very worried - feel things bring on my ultimate fear which would be relapsing - I've been doing GREAT there , december actually is nearly done and I'm solid !!!

sorry for the ramble I really badly need input and help :(
 
trying to get clean off of alcohol and opiates. i fucking hate night. i feel like im in a scary movie. i feel like a little fucking kid again being afraid of the dark. any creak i hear i literally think its a ghost or a zombie or some shit. im losing my goddamn mind even more than before when it was just the anxiety. now the withdrawals got me on some crazy shit.
 
Uhh, I thought I had posted something to the extent of "I don't recommend this for others, but this was something that worked for me"... I'm not 100% sure though because I can't re-read it. If I did use that phrasing, though, then I'm not recommending anything, just saying that I used one kind of method for myself that worked for me.

If I forgot to phrase it right and broke rules, I'm really sorry... I really don't want anyone to get mad at me or wish me to leave. I think I am a really polite online persona but Bluelight is extremely critical as a whole group, it actually makes me quite socially anxious... (appropriate admission for this thread)
 
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I used to have terrible anxiety, and still get it from time to time. My best advice after trying combo's of benzo's for a few years and tapering. Is to face your problems, get out in the world and live life. That's the best way to deal with it, and eventually kill it. You'll still get anxiety once in awhile, but you wont be addicted to pills. Everyone has anxiety.

Just trying to say there's hope out there, even for the worst of people that are taking huge amounts of benzo's.

The sooner you taper the better, and I wouldn't get on a anti-deppresent for anxiety either.
 
hydrochron said:
I used to have terrible anxiety, and still get it from time to time. My best advice after trying combo's of benzo's for a few years and tapering. Is to face your problems, get out in the world and live life. That's the best way to deal with it, and eventually kill it. You'll still get anxiety once in awhile, but you wont be addicted to pills. Everyone has anxiety.

Just trying to say there's hope out there, even for the worst of people that are taking huge amounts of benzo's.

The sooner you taper the better, and I wouldn't get on a anti-deppresent for anxiety either.
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I disagree completely, no disrespect intended. But I think this is terrible advice personally. "Everyone has anxiety" - that statement makes me fucking furious, .<snip>
 
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Although it is possible for one to recover from severe anxiety and benzo dependance, not everyone has anxiety. There is a difference between stress and something like extreme agoraphobia for instance. It's not a simple as tapering off and facing the world. My brain had to heal before i could function without using xanax. I no longer need them now thank god. Anyways it takes time but things get better.
 
^ exactly - I have PTSD , you wanna see what happens when you take away my therapist , those who love me and my benzo script ? Becuase they work hand in hand to help me deal with things , i've made huge strides I just get really frustrated because some people seem to assume a lot. I'm not in anyones shoes but my own , but tht post really burned me up man , was a stab against years of hell w/anxiety.
 
bignig5971 said:
Although it is possible for one to recover from severe anxiety and benzo dependance, not everyone has anxiety. There is a difference between stress and something like extreme agoraphobia for instance. It's not a simple as tapering off and facing the world. My brain had to heal before i could function without using xanax. I no longer need them now thank god. Anyways it takes time but things get better.
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This is all I was trying to say, i'm recovering from taking klonopin's and xanax at the same time for quite a few years.

Somtimes I need to lie to my self and say I dont have anxiety, even though I do. The thing I noticed though even when I was on benzo's, is when life went really good I would be able to take less.

So Artofwar, there's no need to flip out, I have had similar problems , and was just trying to say it's possible to not use the pills. I had PTSD and terrible anxiety just to let you know. And somtimes I have days like today when it all comes rushing back, other times I feel completely healed and can cope without the benzo's which I used as a crutch for so many years.

It's possible to live without being depedent on a pill, and for me I would rather deal with the problems then the addiction.
 
i think all the anxiety disorders are very closely related to each other like they mirror each other and interact with each other. they i think are biological first and emotional and cognitive second. ive gone through them all. and i think what is so bad about them is that like if you have general anxiety you can easily develop social anxiety all you need to do is expose yourself enough to uncomfortable situations. and they just got so much better when i got healthy like super healthy. healthy body spirit and mind.
 
^They do begin to blur together, I agree.

Obviously there are differences between them- but GAD can easily blend into other anxiety problems.....

How did you get 'healthy'?
Can you share more of your experiences? What worked for you?
 
ocean said:
^They do begin to blur together, I agree.

Obviously there are differences between them- but GAD can easily blend into other anxiety problems.....

How did you get 'healthy'?
Can you share more of your experiences? What worked for you?
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i ate healthy, organic, and getting enough nutrients especially magnesium cause that calms down nerve cells. i supplemented with alot of herbs and ones that worked for the long term for anxiety were ashwagandha which is like a nerve tonic, valerian root at night, licorice root some other ones but i forgot now. but like dont underestimate herbs get proper ones and take them for long enough and they work. oh ya also 5htp of course. smoking can make panic attacks worse so watch out for that. ya and im a guy not masterbating this helped reduce my anxiety. get good sleep every night, cognitive stuff does help like you have to understand its uncomfortable but dont freak out cause its not gonna kill you.
 
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