Hello guys. I am a girl, I am 21 and of course a fan of MDMA and ecstasy.
I started to roll this year, it was on January, and it led to the next months. At first, I was thinking about doing it for once in a month, but later I rolled about twice monthly and worse comes to worst, I enjoyed the drugs for every week since March. I do not know about the grams and stuffs, but I always consumed one and half of the pills, or double. I know my questions and the answers would be the same as other threads, but I really need to know specifically what is wrong with me. I also enjoyed Ketamine but I only did it thrice.
I have stopped taking the drugs about a month and a half. I do smoke weed everyday, a joint or two shots of bong (cause I hate the sobriety) . Last two months I tried to answer my final exam in a struggle, I felt like I was so stupid and all. And the anxiety only God knows how I felt. That's why I am on my road to stop taking drugs for four months. Then, I am planning to appreciate the drugs often. For the past a month and a half without ecstasy, I am feeling better, the anxiety slowly faded away, now I can answer to my paper in such a freedom, I also went to yoga class, exercise and all. I thought it already went away. Like now, when I entered my room where the most parties has been done there, the anxiety attacks. I remembered how I danced like stupid to rave songs, and imagined myself looking so stupid. So many things happened in the room, so many drugs in there before, I suddenly feel paranoid when I think of it. I told myself what pass is pass, but it helps just a bit. And also, I am having anxiety for no reasons. I do not know why it feels something wrong somewhere, I even called my mom just to make sure that she's okay. I also feel like I need to bring myself back to God. Well it's so hard to calm myself down.
So here's my questions :
1) A month and half is not enough to subside the long term effects?
2) Is it normal when the anxiety attacks come after every 2 weeks or even 2 days? Like, they can come anytime they want? Because I thought after being cleaned up more than 30 days, the anxiety will become less painful or severe.
3) Or, it is just me who hadnt smoke weed for only two days because I am out of stuff, so that's why I am feeling this way?
Thank you so much.
I started to roll this year, it was on January, and it led to the next months. At first, I was thinking about doing it for once in a month, but later I rolled about twice monthly and worse comes to worst, I enjoyed the drugs for every week since March. I do not know about the grams and stuffs, but I always consumed one and half of the pills, or double. I know my questions and the answers would be the same as other threads, but I really need to know specifically what is wrong with me. I also enjoyed Ketamine but I only did it thrice.
I have stopped taking the drugs about a month and a half. I do smoke weed everyday, a joint or two shots of bong (cause I hate the sobriety) . Last two months I tried to answer my final exam in a struggle, I felt like I was so stupid and all. And the anxiety only God knows how I felt. That's why I am on my road to stop taking drugs for four months. Then, I am planning to appreciate the drugs often. For the past a month and a half without ecstasy, I am feeling better, the anxiety slowly faded away, now I can answer to my paper in such a freedom, I also went to yoga class, exercise and all. I thought it already went away. Like now, when I entered my room where the most parties has been done there, the anxiety attacks. I remembered how I danced like stupid to rave songs, and imagined myself looking so stupid. So many things happened in the room, so many drugs in there before, I suddenly feel paranoid when I think of it. I told myself what pass is pass, but it helps just a bit. And also, I am having anxiety for no reasons. I do not know why it feels something wrong somewhere, I even called my mom just to make sure that she's okay. I also feel like I need to bring myself back to God. Well it's so hard to calm myself down.
So here's my questions :
1) A month and half is not enough to subside the long term effects?
2) Is it normal when the anxiety attacks come after every 2 weeks or even 2 days? Like, they can come anytime they want? Because I thought after being cleaned up more than 30 days, the anxiety will become less painful or severe.
3) Or, it is just me who hadnt smoke weed for only two days because I am out of stuff, so that's why I am feeling this way?
Thank you so much.
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